This episode wasn’t planned. Honestly, I almost didn’t record it at all.

This week has forced me to think about relationships, family, old patterns, and what happens when telling your own story starts ruffling feathers.

I’m talking about why I keep finding comfort in people from my past, why starting over with someone completely new feels so fucking uncomfortable, and the difference between taking accountability for the things I’ve done and allowing someone else to rewrite my experience.

And then there’s this podcast itself. Sharing my story has created some backlash I wasn’t entirely prepared for—but I’m realizing that someone else being uncomfortable with my experience doesn’t mean I shouldn’t talk about it.

So this one is raw. It’s me figuring shit out in real time and reminding myself—and my pack—that we’re allowed to talk about what happened to us, learn from our own mistakes, change our patterns, and protect our peace while we do it.

Take it easy on yourself. Respect yourself. And hang in there, people. 🖤🐺

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Why do we open the fridge five times like new food is magically going to appear? Why does getting into bed suddenly remind us of every single thing we forgot to do? And why the fuck did we spend our entire childhood wanting to grow up?

This week on Black Wolves Confessions, Jax is taking a break from the deep shit.

No trauma. No healing journey. No major life revelations. Just a slightly sick, bronchitis-ridden Jax asking the completely random questions that have been living rent-free in her head.

From laundry that never ends and fitted sheets designed by Satan to disappearing hair ties, grocery-store math, autocorrect betrayal, kids yelling “MOM!” from another room, and all the other tiny ridiculous things that make absolutely no sense about everyday life—nothing is off limits.

Sometimes we need the deep conversations.

And sometimes we just need to sit around and ask…

Why the fuck is it like this? 😂

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You know how This or That is supposed to be simple?

Pick one. Move on. No explanation needed.

Yeah… James and I apparently don’t know how to do that.

This week on Black Wolves Confessions, one of my best friends, James, joins me for a round of This or That that starts with simple choices and quickly turns into stories, explanations, random side quests, questionable answers, and a few things you probably weren’t expecting us to admit.

Because when you’ve been friends as long as we have, apparently you can’t just answer the damn question. There’s always context.

Some questions are completely innocent. Some get personal. Some get spicy. And some have us stopping everything because, “Okay, wait… I need to explain this one.”

This episode is less about choosing A or B and more about the conversations that happen when two longtime best friends have microphones in front of them and absolutely no ability to give a simple answer.

So grab a drink, play along with us, and see whether you’d make the same choices — or whether you’d also need to explain yourself.

Welcome back to Black Wolves Confessions.

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“You’ve changed.”

Yeah… I fucking hope so.

In this episode of Black Wolves Confessions with Jax, we’re talking about what happens when you outgrow the version of yourself that everyone else got comfortable with.

The people-pleaser. The one who stayed quiet to keep the peace. The one who gave unlimited chances, overexplained every boundary, ignored red flags, or kept showing up for people who weren’t showing up for them.

But growth isn’t just about pointing fingers at everyone who hurt us. Sometimes we have to look in the mirror too. Sometimes we were the problem. Sometimes our boundaries became walls. Sometimes we hurt people while we were hurting. And becoming a new version of yourself means being willing to own that shit, too.

We’re getting into outgrowing relationships, changing boundaries, losing people along the way, missing who you used to be, and learning how to appreciate the person who got you this far, even when you know you can’t be that person anymore.

Because maybe the old version of you wasn’t weak.

Maybe they were surviving.

And maybe you don’t have to hate who you were to become who you’re supposed to be.

🐺 My question for you: What’s one thing the old version of you would have tolerated that the person you are today absolutely will not?

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What happens when two people sit down to talk about neurodivergence and somehow end up talking about trauma, relationships, boundaries, healing, podcasting, and basically everything in between?

You get this episode.

Jax sits down with Ellie Capstick, host of AuDHD and Then Some, for a raw, funny, and incredibly open conversation about what life can actually look like when your brain works a little differently.

Ellie shares her experience living with both ADHD and autism—often referred to together as AuDHD—and how an unexpected social media moment eventually turned into a community of more than 50,000 people centered around neurodivergence, education, connection, and feeling understood.

But this conversation goes way beyond diagnoses.

Jax and Ellie get into trauma, therapy, learning boundaries later in life, navigating relationships, recognizing patterns that aren’t healthy anymore, and what it actually means to start accepting yourself instead of constantly trying to become the version of you that everyone else expects.

There are serious moments. There are vulnerable moments. There are laughs. And, naturally, there is plenty of beautifully chaotic conversation along the way.

Because sometimes healing isn’t about becoming someone new.

Sometimes it’s finally understanding the person you’ve been all along.

In this episode:
• ADHD, autism and the reality of living with AuDHD
• Trauma and the ongoing process of healing
• Therapy and learning to recognize your own patterns
• Setting boundaries without feeling guilty for having them
• Relationships and protecting your wellbeing
• Finding community and finally feeling understood
• Authenticity, vulnerability and learning to accept yourself
• How Ellie accidentally found her way into podcasting

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Content warning: This episode includes conversations about trauma, mental health, therapy, and difficult relationship experiences. Please listen with care.

We’re All Carrying Something

You never really know what someone is carrying behind the version of themselves they show the world.

In this episode of Black Wolves Confessions with Jax, we’re talking about the things people carry quietly—grief, trauma, stress, loneliness, family struggles, financial pressure, insecurity, and the battles that don’t always show on the outside.

We talk about the masks we wear, why we’re so quick to judge someone based on what we see, and why giving someone a little grace can sometimes mean more than we realize.

But compassion doesn’t mean excusing harmful behavior. Understanding what someone may be carrying doesn’t mean you have to carry it for them.

Sometimes we need to remember that everyone has a story we know nothing about.

So take a breath, give yourself some grace, and remember: you don’t have to carry everything alone.

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Disclaimer: Black Wolves Confessions with Jax is a podcast for storytelling, conversation, and personal perspectives. The views and experiences shared by hosts and guests are their own and are not intended to replace professional medical, mental health, legal, or other professional advice.

In this episode of Black Wolves Confessions with Jax, I sit down with Daniel for a conversation about what it really takes to raise good men—and the people who help shape us along the way.

I know, I know… I disappeared for a minute. 🫣

Life has been LIFE-ING lately, and there have been some pretty major changes happening behind the scenes. I’m not ready to unpack all of them just yet—but trust me, there are definitely some episodes coming. 👀

For now, we’re catching up.

In this episode, I’m talking about where I’ve been, what’s been happening behind the scenes with Black Wolves Confessions with Jax, some exciting news about the podcast, and where we’re headed next.

Black Wolves is growing. 🐺

We’re bringing in guests, having bigger conversations, sharing more stories, and continuing to create a space where we can talk about the shit people usually whisper about—or don’t talk about at all.

And speaking of guests…

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Whether you have a story to tell, something you’re passionate about, or a conversation you think people need to hear, I want to hear from you.

Thank you to everyone who has continued listening, following, sharing, and sticking around through the chaos. 🖤

There’s a lot changing in my life and with this podcast, and I have a feeling we’re entering a whole new chapter.

Black Wolves Confessions isn’t going anywhere.

We’re just getting started. 🐺🖤