On a quiet Christmas Eve in London, Rose answers Ollie’s soft question, can we spend the night together, and discovers what survival after loss can feel like when two grieving hearts share the same bed without promises. Montgomery frames the night as shelter, not solution, while Rose learns the difference between being held and holding on.

In the dark they trade small true things, explore consent that is slow and attentive, and wake to a gentle, intimate morning that feels like proof of life. Ollie offers a widower’s view of loneliness, ritual, and hope, and Rose recognises her own boundaries and self care.

This episode blends grief, tenderness, and post-loss intimacy with a focus on choice, safety, and the nervous system finding calm again.

Content note: Adult themes, gentle sexual intimacy, discussion of bereavement.

In this moving chapter of Widow on Fire, Rose finds herself in London on Christmas Eve, carrying the heavy ache of grief into a holiday built for family and belonging. With her closest friend Bell pushing her into new beginnings—including a daring dating app—Rose stumbles into an unexpected connection at a Christmas buffet. There, she meets Ollie, a fellow traveller through grief whose honesty mirrors her own.

As they share stories of love and loss, Rose is faced with a tender choice: spend the night with Ollie, waking on Christmas morning with someone by her side, or walk into the frosted London streets alone, discovering her own strength in festivity, joy, and self-celebration.

This episode explores the collision of grief and desire, the loneliness of holidays after loss, and the fragile possibility of connection. Listeners are invited to vote on Instagram for the next step in Rose’s journey.

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After a charged night in Hamburg, Rose makes a different kind of brave choice: she walks upstairs alone.

In this intimate chapter of our interactive romance-drama, Montgomery gently frames a ritual of remembrance as Rose draws a bath, presses play on Adele, and lets somatic memory guide her back to the last tender night with Nate, worship, not want. Love and lust coexist without cancelling one another as she reclaims her body, slowly, reverently, and on her own terms.

This episode explores: grief and desire, widow fire, healing intimacy, and how small, deliberate comforts, water, music, breath, can reconsolidate painful memories into something soft and life-giving.

Set in Hamburg, Germany, it’s a quiet act of courage that proves her skin still belongs to the living.

What you’ll hear:

• A warm Montgomery intro on rituals, memory and safety

• Rose’s graceful goodbye to Bastian and a walk to privacy

• A reverent flashback bath with Nate (no explicit sex; deep sensual connection)

• A present-tense ritual where love and lust share a house

• A closing note that hints at what’s ahead.

If you’re new here:

Widow on Fire is an interactive, narrative podcast about grief, desire, self-discovery, and second chances. Listeners help shape Rose’s path.

Follow & vote: Follow on Spotify/Apple, tap ★★★★★ if the story moved you, and vote on Instagram @widowonfirepod to choose what Rose does next.

Content notes: Adult themes, bereavement, sensuality (tasteful), positive portrayal of solo intimacy.

Keywords: grief, widow, widow fire, romance podcast, interactive storytelling, healing, somatic memory, intimacy, Hamburg, Germany, bath ritual, love after loss, desire, empowerment, slow burn romance.

Episode 4: Lessons with Fire

After Oslo, Rose does not chase a night. She chases herself. A few winter days by train carry her from snow and silence toward a city that will ask better questions. On the rails she practises a new kind of courage: feeling without rushing, wanting without apologising, naming what is true. In Hamburg, a quiet invitation from Bastian—a silver-templed professor with a talent for listening—helps her separate memory from obligation and begin to trust her living body again.

This chapter sits where grief and desire meet. Rose learns that wanting is not betrayal, it is information. Guilt still rides beside her, but acceptance makes a small opening. Permission, consent, and pace become the lesson. Whether touch comes from another, or from a night spent alone, she begins to choose her aliveness on purpose.

You will hear

• A winter rail journey that turns movement into reflection

• The first soft language for widow fire, and how to hold it with agency

• Bastian’s gentle reframes: you do not owe your grief your body

• A choice that is not a test of loyalty, but an act of permission

Key lines

• “Desire is not betrayal.”

• “You do not owe your grief your body.”

• “This is not a test of loyalty.”

Interactive choice At the end, you decide where Rose goes next: → Follow Bastian upstairs to be held and seen without expectation → Return to her room alone to find intimacy in memory and solitude

Content note Adult themes, grief, sensuality. Listener discretion advised.

Follow along on Instagram at @widowonfirepod for behind-the-scenes and voting reminders.

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Rose follows the fire. Back to the bar. Back to Ari.

Listen to Episode 3 now.

The snow is falling in Oslo, thick and soft, muting the city to a quiet hum. Rose stands on the corner, boots sinking into fresh powder, her breath curling into the cold night air. Behind her, the glow of Dr. Jekyll’s bar spills into the street. Inside—Ari, the Norwegian bartender with the crooked smile, the one who made her feel something she thought was gone forever. Ahead of her: the path to her hotel, and the solitude of her own company.

In this path, she turns back.

What happens next is not about falling in love. It’s about the first time she lets someone else cross the invisible line her grief built around her body. It’s about the first kiss that doesn’t taste like loss, the first touch that makes her muscles remember how to melt, the first moment she realises she can want again without erasing the man she lost.

Set against the moody, intimate backdrop of a closed bar in Oslo’s Old Town, this slow-burn encounter is tender, charged, and electric. Ari’s touch isn’t a rush toward conquest, it’s a steady, deliberate reminder that she is still here, still alive, still worthy of being seen. From the warmth of his palms on her cheeks to the deliberate way he watches her reactions, every movement becomes a conversation without words.

But with new heat comes complexity. Alongside the glee of rediscovery, Rose feels the whisper of guilt. Can grief and desire live in the same body without tearing it apart? Can you hold on to love lost while opening the door to something new? This is not just a physical encounter, it’s the unravelling of silence, the choice to breathe without armour, even for a single night.

This is Widow on Fire, an interactive storytelling experience where grief meets desire, where intimacy is explored in all its messy, human truth, and where you, the listener, decide the path Rose takes. Each choice leads to a different chapter. Each path holds something the other does not.

If you voted in Episode 2 for Rose to walk away into self-discovery, that path remains behind the curtain for now, you’ll have to wait for the book release at the end of this series to see how it unfolds.

Follow this podcast so you never miss a chapter, new episodes release every 14 days, and be sure to check the poll at the end of each one to decide what happens next.

For more behind-the-scenes content, listener polls, and glimpses into the writing process, join us on Instagram at @widowonfirepod. There you’ll find exclusive story moments, travel inspirations from the cities in Rose’s journey, and the kind of questions that will make you think twice about your own choices.

Snow. Firelight. Firsts. Step into the heat, if you dare.

After a year of aching silence, Rose doesn’t go searching for desire, desire finds her.

Still reeling from the weight of grief, she steps into a quiet Oslo bar on a snowy winter night. What she expects is a drink. What she finds is Ari: a young Norwegian bartender with a crooked smile, smooth hands, and eyes that sparkle like he's always on the edge of a very good joke.

What follows is not just flirtation. It’s something more dangerous. Something more alive.

This episode is where grief meets hunger. Where memory dances with lust. And where Rose begins to wonder, can desire exist beside sorrow?

• A year after Nate’s death, Rose feels the return of something she thought was gone forever: longing.
• A red lipstick. A strong drink. A glance held a little too long.
• And suddenly, her skin remembers what it means to want again.

Ari doesn’t ask for anything. But his presence, casual, magnetic, utterly grounded, pulls her toward a choice she didn’t know she’d have to make. To turn back. Or to walk away.

And now, dear listener… the choice is yours.

At the end of the episode, you’ll be asked to vote: → Does Rose follow the firelight and return to Ari for a night that may awaken her body again? → Or does she walk into the Oslo night alone, choosing solitude, self-discovery, and the quiet permission to feel?

Your vote decides the next chapter.

This is not a love story like you’ve heard before. But it is a love story. The kind that asks more questions than it answers. The kind that lives in the grey between grief and desire. The kind that invites you to choose.

🎧 Listen now and vote in the Spotify poll to shape Rose’s journey.

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Widow on Fire is a cinematic, narrative podcast blending raw emotion, sensual storytelling, and choose-your-own-path intimacy. Told by Montgomery Andrews, with Rose as our guiding voice, each episode explores the messy, beautiful tension between loss and reawakening.

Follow us on Instagram @widowonfirepod for extra content, listener questions, and behind-the-scenes glimpses of Rose’s journey through lust, memory, and all the moments we never talk about.

Grief doesn’t always feel like sadness. Sometimes, it feels like lust.

This is the beginning of Widow on Fire; a raw, intimate narrative podcast blending erotic storytelling, grief, and personal transformation. In this debut episode, we meet Rose, a 30-something widow who books a one-way ticket to Oslo. Not to chase the Northern Lights. But to disappear.

Thirteen months after the death of her beloved husband Nate, Rose is splintered, exhausted, and haunted by a new sensation no one warned her about: a burning, all-consuming hunger for touch. A desire that feels intrusive, inappropriate, and alive. They call it widow fire and this is what it feels like.

Narrated by Montgomery Andrews, part-philosopher and part-confidant, this story is more than a journey of healing. It’s an honest exploration of sex after loss, widowhood, female desire, and the moment your body starts to wake up while your heart is still broken.

In this first chapter, Rose finds a video on her phone: one Nate secretly recorded before he died. His final message ignites something unexpected and gives her permission to feel again. What follows is not your typical grief story. And certainly not your typical love story.

What listeners are saying: “I’ve never heard grief and lust spoken about so honestly.” “It made me cry, then blush, then feel seen.” “It’s like Eat, Pray, Love meets Normal People with fire.”

Why listen? Because nobody talks about the confusing overlap between longing and loss. Because you’re tired of tidy grief stories. Because you want to feel something again and maybe you're wondering if you're allowed to.

Who it’s for? Anyone who has lost someone. Anyone reawakening to their body. Anyone who’s ever felt torn between memory and desire. Women navigating identity after heartbreak. Listeners craving emotional storytelling with sensual honesty.

Next up: Episode 2 – Flirting in the Firelight Rose visits a mysterious Oslo bar and meets Ari, a bartender who makes her laugh, blush and wonder what it means to want again. Then… she must choose: walk back into the snow, or toward the fire. Which way would you turn?

Widow on Fire is a scripted, immersive podcast. New episodes drop every 14 days, with choices that take the story in bold directions. If you’ve ever stood in the ruins of your life and wondered if something beautiful could grow, this story is for you. Follow us on Instagram at @widowonfirepod for reflections on sex, grief, desire, and starting over. Stay close to the heat. Even if it scares you.