Grief doesn’t always feel like sadness. Sometimes, it feels like lust.

This is the beginning of Widow on Fire; a raw, intimate narrative podcast blending erotic storytelling, grief, and personal transformation. In this debut episode, we meet Rose, a 30-something widow who books a one-way ticket to Oslo. Not to chase the Northern Lights. But to disappear.

Thirteen months after the death of her beloved husband Nate, Rose is splintered, exhausted, and haunted by a new sensation no one warned her about: a burning, all-consuming hunger for touch. A desire that feels intrusive, inappropriate, and alive. They call it widow fire and this is what it feels like.

Narrated by Montgomery Andrews, part-philosopher and part-confidant, this story is more than a journey of healing. It’s an honest exploration of sex after loss, widowhood, female desire, and the moment your body starts to wake up while your heart is still broken.

In this first chapter, Rose finds a video on her phone: one Nate secretly recorded before he died. His final message ignites something unexpected and gives her permission to feel again. What follows is not your typical grief story. And certainly not your typical love story.

What listeners are saying: “I’ve never heard grief and lust spoken about so honestly.” “It made me cry, then blush, then feel seen.” “It’s like Eat, Pray, Love meets Normal People with fire.”

Why listen? Because nobody talks about the confusing overlap between longing and loss. Because you’re tired of tidy grief stories. Because you want to feel something again and maybe you're wondering if you're allowed to.

Who it’s for? Anyone who has lost someone. Anyone reawakening to their body. Anyone who’s ever felt torn between memory and desire. Women navigating identity after heartbreak. Listeners craving emotional storytelling with sensual honesty.

Next up: Episode 2 – Flirting in the Firelight Rose visits a mysterious Oslo bar and meets Ari, a bartender who makes her laugh, blush and wonder what it means to want again. Then… she must choose: walk back into the snow, or toward the fire. Which way would you turn?

Widow on Fire is a scripted, immersive podcast. New episodes drop every 14 days, with choices that take the story in bold directions. If you’ve ever stood in the ruins of your life and wondered if something beautiful could grow, this story is for you. Follow us on Instagram at @widowonfirepod for reflections on sex, grief, desire, and starting over. Stay close to the heat. Even if it scares you.