Anxiety doesn’t always show - but it weighs heavy.

In this episode, I open up about my personal experience with anxiety and panic attacks. From my childhood - growing up with an absent father and a mother in and out of hospitals - to facing some of life’s heaviest moments like her cancer diagnosis and eventually losing my dad in 2021.

This is an honest, unfiltered look at how anxiety built up in my life and how I began to understand and manage it. If you've ever felt like your chest was tight, your thoughts were racing, and no one could see the battle inside - this one's for you.

Let’s lift this weight together.

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"Mind" links

Panic attacks: https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/anxiety-and-panic-attacks/panic-attacks/

Anxiety: https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/anxiety-and-panic-attacks/about-anxiety/

NHS links

Panic disorder: https://www.nhs.uk/mental-health/conditions/panic-disorder/

Another deep and personal one.

From a young age, I was navigating the emotional unpredictability of having a parent with bipolar.

Not knowing whether it would be a good day or a hospital day.

As a kid, I just wanted my mum to be happy - but the weight of that wish stayed with me for years.

This episode opens up a chapter of my life that shaped me more than I ever realised.

If you’ve grown up around mental health struggles, or felt like you had to hold it all together for others... this one’s for you.

This one’s personal.

In this episode, I open up about my experience growing up with an alcoholic father and the anxiety, fear, and silence that came with it.

I share what it was like living in constant uncertainty, never knowing who was walking through the door, and the ways that shaped me as a person.

This isn’t about blame. It’s about understanding what we went through and how it still impacts us today.

If you’ve ever grown up in chaos, felt the pressure to keep someone else happy, or learned to shrink yourself to stay safe - this one's for you.

You’re not alone. Let’s talk about it.

It’s taken me a long time to get here…

From the gym floor to a podcast mic — this is my story, my struggle, and the reason I created The Spotter.

My goal is simple: to help you.

Not just with weights — but with the weight of life. I want to be the person I always needed when I was struggling. The one who sees you, hears you, and stands beside you through it all.

In this first episode, I open up about my background, the challenges I’ve faced, and how the gym became more than therapy — it became my foundation.

Through spotting others, I found purpose. Through pain, I found passion.

Now, I want to build something that helps you feel less alone. We all struggle. We all hit dark places. We all go through times where it feels like there’s no way out.

But the truth is — there is.

And we don’t have to do it alone. This is just the beginning. Let’s unrack this life together.