After six years of sobriety, I thought I had beaten sex addiction. I thought I was cured. But when life shifted, I drifted—until I crashed headfirst back into the darkness. In this brutally honest episode, I share the affair that broke my marriage, the lie of false recovery, and the humbling moment I walked back into an SAA meeting—terrified, numb… and exactly where I belonged.

No topic. No lesson. Just a brutally honest look at a week that nearly wrecked my sobriety. A triggering text. A fantasy I let linger. Circling a massage parlour. And the moment I screamed at my addict to shut the hell up. If you’re in the fight, this episode is for you. You’re not alone—and staying in the light is still a win.

You don’t relapse out of nowhere. In this episode, Ryland M. shares how the “middle circle”—the slippery space between acting out and living well—almost wrecked his recovery. Learn how to spot the drift, stop lying to yourself, and start living in the outer circle where real freedom begins.

Not sure if you’re a sex or porn addict? You’re not alone. In this first episode of The Outer Circle, Ryland M. shares his story, unpacks the question many of us ask early on, and offers a hopeful path forward. No shame, just honesty—and an invitation to take the next right step.

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