Come chill with us in the back row today for a bit of a different episode. This episode is more conversational, less serious toned. In this episode, Courtney and Grace talk about what they believe it is like prioritizing yourself as a Bride of Christ before anything else, and how it can help identify and root your identity in Christ.

After that, they begin a pretty long yap-sesh about their dream wedding, proposal, dresses, and even some hot takes (no food proposals please, we BEG!)

As promised, you can find Grace's instagram at @gracemharker if you want to see the photo she posted of the wedding dress without context to stir some feathers (its in the Scallywag highlight). You can also see the OG photo Josh's pastor took on the plane if you want to confirm the story is real (truly a magical story).

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Ever scrolled through Instagram and suddenly felt like your life wasn’t measuring up? Maybe it was someone’s travel pics, engagement post, new job, or just their perfect aesthetic—meanwhile you’re three iced coffees deep, comparing your behind-the-scenes to someone else’s highlight reel. Yeah… we’ve been there.

In this episode, we’re talking comparison—how it sneaks in, why it wrecks your joy, and what God actually says about your identity and pace. From Cain and Abel to Psalm 139, we’re diving into spiritual, emotional, physical, and even academic comparison. It’s more than a surface-level convo—we’re getting into the soul of it: why we measure ourselves against others, how to stop, and what freedom looks like when we fix our eyes on Jesus instead of everyone else.

Whether you’re feeling behind in your calling, stuck in your season, or just tired of wishing you were someone else, this episode is a reminder that you’re not falling short—you’re being led. He’s not late with your life. He’s intentional.

We’ve got real talk, Scripture, a little sass, and probably a sunscreen rant. You already know.

Let’s call comparison what it is: a liar.

And let’s get our joy back.

You ever sit down to spend time with God and suddenly feel the urgent need to reorganize your entire closet? Or maybe you’ve got a deadline looming, but somehow you’ve convinced yourself that now is the perfect time to deep clean your camera roll. Yeah. Same.

In this episode, we’re talking all things distraction and procrastination — not just in a “you need to be more productive” way, but in a real, vulnerable, why am I doing this instead of the thing I actually care about kind of way. From 10-hour screen time reports (we’re not proud) to the myth of multitasking and the comfort of avoidance, we’re unpacking the ways we run from what matters — and what God might be saying through the quiet we keep dodging.

We get into:

• Why “productive” distractions might be worse than TikTok
• The cost of numbing out when things get hard
• Missing God’s voice in the noise
• Trusting yourself to follow through
• Letting conviction lead to movement, not shame

This one’s not about guilt — it’s about calling it out with grace, laughing at ourselves a little, and learning to pause before we self-sabotage. If you’ve ever avoided your quiet time by watching three seasons of a show you don’t even like anymore, this one’s for you.

Let’s talk about what’s pulling our focus, what it’s costing us, and how to realign with the things (and the God) that matter most.

So grab your iced coffee, silence your phone, and come sit with us in the back row. We saved you a seat.

You know that feeling where everything just feels off? Your brain’s foggy, your heart feels heavy, and your Bible’s collecting dust on the nightstand? Yeah… same. In this episode of Revival from the Back Row, we’re getting very real about what it feels like to be in a spiritual and emotional funk — the kind that makes it hard to pray, hard to show up, and honestly hard to care.

Grace and Courtney kick things off with a little life update — from beach days and new podcast cover pics to a lack of discipline and spiritual disconnection — because let’s be honest, the funk creeps in when things look “fine” on the outside. Then we dive deep into how these low seasons show up in our everyday lives and how Scripture doesn’t shy away from them either. David cried out in the Psalms. Job sat in silence. Jesus Himself wept and asked for a way out in the Garden of Gethsemane. The parallels? Chilling. And comforting.

We also unpack actual action steps for climbing out of the pit — not just cliché Christian advice. We’re talking honest, raw prayer (even if it’s just “God, I’m tired”), going back to the basics, moving your body, eating real food, journaling through the mess, and finding small ways to reconnect with God without shame.

This episode also includes a guided journal prompt, thoughts on how to make journaling feel less “Dear Diary” and more soul-deep, and one powerful encouragement from Psalm 22 — a lament that Jesus Himself quoted on the cross.

If you’re feeling spiritually distant, emotionally drained, or just stuck… this one’s for you. You are not alone in the funk, and you’re not forgotten in it either.

P.s. here's the link to Grace's worship playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/03iVr4cXRrEKlZmVdyT4F1?si=51bf9a92e11f4745

The message is clear: revival doesn't come without change.

In this episode, we talk about how real revival disrupts what’s familiar, calls us into new identity, and stretches us in ways that aren’t always comfortable. It’s not about staying where it’s safe—it’s about trusting God when He asks you to step into something you don’t feel ready for.

We explore stories like:

• Sarah (formerly Sarai), who was renamed and called to believe God for the impossible
• Simon Peter, who was given a new name before he ever lived up to it
• Esther, who had to risk comfort and position to step into God’s greater purpose

We also open up about our own journeys—moments where we had to obey before we felt qualified, and how God met us in the middle of that transition.

If you’re in a season of change or tension, this conversation is for you. Revival often begins in the discomfort, in the obedience, and in the willingness to let go of what’s familiar.

God does His best work in those in-between places.

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What if revival isn’t just a big worship night, but God breathing life back into your dry, worn-out places? What if it doesn’t start with a mic, but with a whisper?

In this episode of Revival from the Back Row, Grace and Courtney dive deep into the real meaning of revival — beyond the spiritual hype and into the quiet, hidden places where Jesus meets us. Whether you’re feeling spiritually asleep, emotionally drained, or like the last one to catch fire, this episode is for you.

We talk about:

• What “revival” actually means (spoiler: it’s not just a church event)

• Revival from the back row — how Jesus sees the unseen and meets you there

• The power of quiet faith and whispered prayers

• Why your presence matters, even when it feels small

If you've ever felt like the one barely hanging on while everyone else seems “on fire,” this conversation will remind you:
You're not behind. You're not broken. You're a canvas for revival.

From numb to alive. From the back row to being seen — this is where revival starts.

🎧 Listen in, take a deep breath, and let Jesus speak into your weary places.
💬 Share this episode with someone who needs a little hope today.
🕊️ You’re not too late for revival. You are the moment.

In our very first episode, we set the tone for Revival from the Back Row—a space for real conversations about faith, identity, and following Jesus when you’re not center stage. We talk about why this podcast exists, who it’s for, and what revival can look like when it starts in quiet places. If you’ve ever felt unseen, unheard, or unsure where you fit in the Church, this one’s for you.