Episode Summary
In this ninth episode of Martfotai, we explore the forcethat shapes your path, your energy, and your being - intention. While attention determines what you notice, intention determines where you go. It is not emotion, preference, or wish. It is the steady presence that choosesdirection.

This episode reveals how unconscious forces masquerade asintention: momentum, emotion, even hope, and how to recognise the difference. You'll learn how real intention forms only through friction, clarity, and commitment, and why it feels steady, silent, and unshaken even when everycondition changes.

Through lived metaphors, the progression ofAttention–Wish–Will–Free Will, and precise practical guidance, we map how scattered aim becomes unified direction. Where attention feeds identity, intention transforms it.In this episode, you will learn:

• Why real intention cannot arise from emotion, preference,or wish
• The difference between wish, will, and free will—and how each develops
• How to detect false intention and stop mistaking movement for aim
• How to align energy, action, and direction in a single inner axis
• The true mark of real intention: stillness, clarity, and persistence through friction

Who this episode is for

This episode is for anyone who feels pulled in too manydirections, or stuck in one that no longer feels true. If you’ve ever confused passion for purpose, enthusiasm for resolve, or drift for flow, this episode clarifies what it really means to choose.
Not emotionally. Not reactively. But consciously, through all three centres.

Episode Summary

In this eighth episode of Martfotai, we explore the invisibleforce that builds identity, fuels reaction, and defines realityitself: attention.
More than focus, attention is nourishment. Whatever it touches begins to grow. Whether scattered, hijacked, or directed, attention determines what survives in us, and what fades.
This episode shows how presence is not an achievement, but a shift in attention. How identity forms not from essence, but from repetition. And how reclaiming attention is not a battle, it is the end of nourishment for what is false.
Through four types of attention, practical attention exercises, and piercing clarity, this teaching offers a new axis for transformation: attention not as willpower, but as contact.
Whether you feel scattered, drawn into reactivity, or searching for real presence, this episode brings you back to the source. The place where attention rests, where the self is shaped, and where freedom begins.

In this episode, you will learn:

• The four types of attention (None, Scattered, Drawn,Directed) and how they shape your life
• Why attention is not neutral, and how it feeds identity through repetition
• How to stop feeding the false self by withdrawing attention, not fighting it
• What “attention fasting” means, and how to practise it in everyday life
• A powerful multiple attention practice across body, instinct, and feeling
• How unified attention reveals a deeper presence beyond thought or effort

Who this episode is for

This episode is for anyone who feels overwhelmed bydistraction, caught in reactive loops, or hungry for real presence. If you’ve ever asked why you keep replaying the past, why your identity feels stuck, or how to live with clarity in a world designed to steal your focus, this is your invitation to reclaim the power you didn’t know you were giving away.

Podcast page here.

Episode Summary

In this seventh episode of the Martfotai "I Am" series, we turn to the parts we refuse to see, our shadow. This is not darkness in the mythic sense, but the real, living fragments of ourselves that were once judged, punished, or exiled from awareness.
Through real-life examples and honest inner seeing, we uncover how projection is not just an error of perception, but a map of our disowned self. The stronger our judgment of others, the more fiercely that quality lives unacknowledged in us.

This episode shows how to meet the shadow not with shame or resistance, but with presence. You’ll discover how identity forms through exclusion, how the shadow fuels your reactions, and how every judgment is a thread back to something in you that longs to be seen, not shunned.

With practical tools, vivid metaphors, and a powerfulinvitation to look inward when triggered, this teaching offers a profound shift: your enemies become your mirrors, and your discomfort becomes your doorway.

In this episode, you will learn:

• Why judgment often reveals hidden parts of yourself, nottruths about others
• How the shadow forms through childhood conditioning and social approval
• What projection is, and why it’s a form of emotional camouflage
• How to gently re-integrate the parts of you you’ve learned to reject
• Why the traits you condemn in others are often buried in you
• A clear, practical method for meeting the shadow and reclaiming wholeness

Who this episode is for

This episode is for anyone who finds themselves frequently triggered by others, caught in judgment, or longing to understand the unseen forces that shape their reactions. If you've ever wondered why certain people provoke strong emotions in you, or felt the weight of being misunderstood, this is your invitation to turn the lens inward and begin reclaiming the parts of you that are still waiting to be met.

Podcast page ⁠here⁠.

Episode Summary

In this sixth episode of Martfotai, we explore what happens when something you once depended on, someone you loved, or a part of yourself, suddenly dissolves.
I Am Free of Illusion guides you through the grief that follows the collapse of connection, when presence gives way to projection, or when a former identity no longer fits.
Rather than fixing the story or reclaiming the reflection, this episode invites you to witness what the break reveals, to take the lower seat without collapse,and to let the illusion fall—without falling with it.
With insights from Gurdjieff’s Fifth Striving, the law of Harnel-Miaznel, and the principle that a being attracts its own life, you’ll learn how stillness, honesty, and inward clarity can turn even grief into the quiet ground of transformation.

In this episode, you will learn

Why grief isn’t just about loss of others, but the fading of who you once were.
How to hold distortion without reacting, and let it reveal the truth.
What it means to stop feeding false selves and let presence emerge.
And how clarity begins when you no longer seek to be seen.

Who this episode is for

For anyone who has felt abandoned, misjudged, or quietly erased, by another, or by themselves.
If you’ve ever been cast out of someone else’s story, or released a version of yourself that once kept you safe, this episode offers a way forward.
Not through blame. Not through collapse.
But through stillness, clarity, and the quiet birth of wholeness.
Because what you stop feeding… dissolves.
And what you see clearly… no longer owns you.

Podcast page here.

Episode Summary

In this fifth episode of Martfotai, we gently unravel the illusion of a fixed self by exploring the hidden architecture of memory,narrative, and identity. You’ll discover how much of who you believe yourself to be is not fact, but interpretation, stories built from selective memories,emotional residue, and the assumptions of others.

Through vivid metaphors and lived inquiry, we explore whystories stick, how memory is shaped more by mood than truth, and what happens when you begin to question who’s really telling the tale of your life.

You’ll learn how to soften rigid narratives, reinterpret painful memories, and step into the quiet space beneath all telling, a space of clarity, stillness, and profound freedom.

Along the way, we offer gentle tools for rewriting the script of self, including daily practices to unhook from identity, release emotional glue, and meet the moment without the weight of the past.

In this episode, you will learn:

• Why your identity is a story constructed from memory,emotion, and repetition
• How others see only fragments of you, and how you see only fragments of them
• What it means to be the observer rather than the actor lost in the script
• How to gently reinterpret past experiences to release their emotional grip
• Why your memories are shaped more by presence than by fact
• A practical set of tools for loosening the old narrative and rewriting from clarity

Who this episode is for

This episode is for anyone who has ever felt trapped in a story, about themselves, about others, or about what the past means. If you’ve carried a memory like a wound, or believed a label long after it stopped serving you, this episode offers a gentle way forward. Whether you’re ready to lay down old roles or simply pause the inner narration, you’ll find deep relief in discovering that you are not your story, and never were.

Podcast page with transcript can be found here.

In this fourth episode of the Martfotai series, "I Am What I Think (And I Am Not What I Think)," we gently guide you into the quiet space between thought and identity, revealing how your experience of reality is shaped not by what happens, but by what you think about what happens.

You’ll discover that thought is not neutral, it’s a coloured lens, often distorting the present with past stories, future fears, and unverified beliefs. Through grounded metaphors and real-time presence, you’ll learn how to step off the “train of thought” and reclaim the still platform of awareness beneath it all. You’ll see why the mind replays old narratives, how identity forms around wounds, and how real freedom begins with one question: “Is this true right now?”

You’ll also be introduced to a simple daily practice called Echoing - a way to silence internal narration by inwardly repeating what is heard. It’s not just a technique. It’s a path back to presence.

In this episode, you will learn:

• Why your thoughts aren’t facts, and how they filter your perception like coloured glass

• How unverified beliefs create contradiction, fragmentation, and inner disharmony

• What it means to “rewrite the past” without realising it - and how to return to the unwritten page of now

• How to reclaim your presence using the metaphor of the platform and the passing train

• Why you don’t need to take on the judgments or stories others place on you

• A simple technique for anchoring awareness by echoing what is heard instead of narrating it

Who this episode is for
This episode is for anyone caught in a mental loop, overwhelmed by worry, regret, or self-doubt - and who longs to experience life as it truly is, not through the lens of old stories. Whether you’re new to inner work or deep in the process of self-inquiry, you’ll find profound relief in the practice of verification, the art of listening without narration, and the steady return to presence.

Ready to take your next step?
Visit martfotai.com and register your email to receive guided audio practices, live session invites, and deep tools for presence and transformation - because clarity isn’t found in theory. It’s lived, one moment at a time.

Episode Summary

In this episode of Martfotai, we guide you from scattered emotional reactions toward steady, unified presence, revealing how to consciously manage your body and mind to gently stabilize and harmonize your emotions. You’ll learn why emotions are difficult to control directly, how consciously relaxing your facial muscles interrupts automatic reactions, and discover the subtle yet profound power of micro-pauses throughout your day. Along the way, you’ll explore Gurdjieff’s teachings on the distinct essence and acquired centres, the vivid metaphor of Kumki elephants gently training the emotional "wild elephant," and practical daily methods to reclaim your attention, quiet your mind, and unify your inner landscape.

In this episode, you will learn:

• How your body (moving centre) and mind (intellectual centre) gently guide emotional stability

• A refined, step-by-step approach for deepening the Sacred Pause to anchor presence

• Why consciously relaxing your face is the quickest way to interrupt automatic emotional reactions

• Frequent micro-pauses as subtle reminders to consistently unify your fragmented inner states

• Simple daily reflection practices to reinforce inner harmony and stability

• Why unity isn’t something you achieve, it’s something you rediscover and reclaim

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Who this episode is for

This conversation is for anyone struggling with emotional reactivity, stress, anxiety, or scattered attention, and who desires a practical, experience-based path to steady inner clarity. Whether you’re encountering these teachings for the first time or are an experienced student seeking refined methods, this episode offers gentle, clear, and effective tools to unify fragmented emotional reactions into a stable and intentional presence. You’ll find precise yet simple methods to guide your inner experience from automatic reactivity to chosen, unified responses.

Press play to begin your journey from inner fragmentation to stable clarity, because each intentional pause you take moves you closer to your true, unified self. Register your interest at Martfotai.com for updates on the establishment of this quiet path to freedom and wholeness.

Episode Summary

In this continuation of Martfotai, Gary Eggleton explores how the outer world mirrors our inner fragmentation, revealing how external disturbances quietly reflect internal divisions seeking compassionate integration. You'll learn clear, neutral methods to transform your relationship with challenging situations, turning daily irritations and conflicts into opportunities for deeper clarity and self-understanding.

Using simple practices, such as neutral reflection and daily anchoring, you’ll break unconscious reaction loops, creating space for genuine presence, compassionate choice, and emotional freedom.

In this episode, you will learn:

• How external experiences gently reflect your inner fragments.

• The step-by-step neutral practice for recognizing inner reflections clearly and compassionately.

• How gently changing your inner responses quietly transforms your external interactions.

• A daily reflection practice to neutrally and compassionately integrate external reflections.

• Why neutrality and clear seeing offer powerful tools to dissolve automatic reactions.

Who this episode is for:

This conversation supports anyone feeling frequently triggered by external stress, whether anxious from news cycles, irritated by difficult interactions, or overwhelmed by everyday demands. Ideal for those familiar with Episode 01's "Inner Fast" and "Sacred Pause," it offers clear, neutral practices to deepen self-awareness, reduce reactivity, and transform everyday challenges into gentle opportunities for growth, compassion, and inner clarity.

Continue your journey from inner fragmentation toward clear neutrality and compassionate integration, because the external world you encounter is simply a quiet reflection, guiding you gently home to yourself.