An empty bottle in a three-year-old’s hand and the look on his wife’s face that said everything. What follows is the unraveling—intervention, confession, leaving home—and the long walk through chronic pain, a father’s surgery, and a son’s Type 1 diabetes diagnosis. At a borrowed kitchen table in winter, Brian finally surrenders: pages of truth, a whisper of forgiveness, and a new way to live.

Turns out… grace is what holds.

00:00 — The day everything cracked open
00:58 — Three days later at Quest180
05:18 — Pain and fear stack up
10:13 — Mercy in the living room
13:36 — Lake-table surrender

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Brian N. (aka God Guy ) opens up about growing up in faith, losing control to alcohol, and finding grace through surrender. His story isn’t about hitting a dramatic rock bottom, but about finally letting go of quiet control and realizing that strength isn’t toughness — it’s vulnerability. When he shares his story for the first time, emotion floods the room, and what unfolds is one of the rawest, most sacred moments of the podcast so far.

Turns out… humility is stronger than control.

00:00 — I’m Brian, alcoholic, God guy

04:54 — The fall and foundation

08:29 — Three years of prayer

11:14 — Rock bottom and rebirth

22:00 — The silence that said everything

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Protecting sobriety can look like turning your back on people you love. We’ve said no to friends, jobs, and even family to keep this thing. We wrestle with the guilt, the pride that had to die, and the moments that proved putting recovery first was the most loving and selfless choice we could make.

01:13 - Why “selfish” can be the healthiest thing you do

03:55 - Letting relationships go to protect sobriety

08:24 - The slow death of pride in recovery

12:02 - How boundaries make space for healing

20:49 - Sobriety’s ripple effect on the people around you

27:37 - Choosing recovery over comfort, every time

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In a meeting, a newcomer shows up and rewinds everyone back to Step 1, sparking raw conversations about humility, belonging, and why it’s harder to return after you’ve drifted away. Sometimes the hardest part is walking back through the door a second time. One Tuesday night can change an entire week.

02:01 - A powerful meeting sparks the idea to record raw, in-the-moment stories

04:31 - The impact of hearing long-term sobriety from those ahead of you

07:21 - Why newcomers shift the focus back to Step 1

10:15 - Bringing faith into AA spaces without holding back

16:04 - Why we keep going to meetings when others drift away

25:01 - The deeper the bottom, the more likely the commitment

29:15 - Why the second meeting can be harder than the first

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We don’t drink anymore but that doesn’t mean we’re done being alcoholics. You don’t cross a finish line and get a diploma in sobriety. This road keeps going, and the work never stops. We share the moments that blindsided us, the guardrails we had to build, and the hard truth that staying sober isn’t the endgame. Becoming someone worth being... that’s the work.

01:34 | The first time each of us said “I’m an alcoholic”
05:23 | The surprises that come with actually working the steps
07:17 | How pain can be purposeful in recovery
09:41 | Why sobriety eventually becomes less of the focus
14:03 | A close call that put new guardrails in place
31:38 | Choosing selfishness to protect your recovery

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