An empty bottle in a three-year-old’s hand and the look on his wife’s face that said everything. What follows is the unraveling—intervention, confession, leaving home—and the long walk through chronic pain, a father’s surgery, and a son’s Type 1 diabetes diagnosis. At a borrowed kitchen table in winter, Brian finally surrenders: pages of truth, a whisper of forgiveness, and a new way to live.

Turns out… grace is what holds.

00:00 — The day everything cracked open
00:58 — Three days later at Quest180
05:18 — Pain and fear stack up
10:13 — Mercy in the living room
13:36 — Lake-table surrender

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Brian N. (aka God Guy ) opens up about growing up in faith, losing control to alcohol, and finding grace through surrender. His story isn’t about hitting a dramatic rock bottom, but about finally letting go of quiet control and realizing that strength isn’t toughness — it’s vulnerability. When he shares his story for the first time, emotion floods the room, and what unfolds is one of the rawest, most sacred moments of the podcast so far.

Turns out… humility is stronger than control.

00:00 — I’m Brian, alcoholic, God guy

04:54 — The fall and foundation

08:29 — Three years of prayer

11:14 — Rock bottom and rebirth

22:00 — The silence that said everything

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