After receiving a life‑changing letter, Gerard enters the hardest stretch of his journey yet: the waiting. In this episode, he talks about the days that felt like years, the fear that settled into every quiet moment, and the urge to escape the pain the only way he used to know how.

With a newborn at home and three lives hanging in the balance, he forces himself to face the truth sober — one cigarette, one phone call, one breath at a time.

This is the story of living in the space between what you fear… and what you hope isn’t true.

Episode 7 – The Letter

In this episode, I read from my first book Tripping Over Myself and share the moment that shook my life at its core — the day a letter arrived that changed everything.

What began as a normal trip to the mailbox turned into fear, panic, and the kind of uncertainty that makes the world feel unsafe in an instant. I talk about shock, silence, and what it’s like to carry something this heavy alone.

This episode is about vulnerability, waiting, and learning how to face the unknown without running from it.

Comfort Becomes A Cage —Episode 6 – Spoken sticky notes on anxiety and alcoholism. Short, real stories from my life. No filler, just the moments that matter. 2–4 minutes. New episode every Wednesday.

What starts as relief can quietly turn into routine. In this episode, I share how alcohol stopped being something I used and became something I lived inside—and how avoidance slowly replaced direction.

In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about how my first drink felt like relief — and how that relief slowly became a way of avoiding life.

I reflect on how anxiety, loss, and the need to fit in shaped my relationship with alcohol, and how uneventful days quietly turned into years I didn’t know I was losing.

This is a story about trading one set of chains for another — and what it takes to find courage again.

"I used to think that the first drink I ever took was a mistake. But looking back, it didn't feel like a mistake at all. It felt like relief."

"When you’ve lived your whole life with constant noise in your head, silence feels like safety. But for me, that silence was a trap. I thought I was learning how to survive, but really, I was just learning how to disappear."

"In Episode 5 of Tripping Over Myself, we’re going back to the beginning—to the moments where relief turned into reliance. If you’ve ever used a 'safety zone' to hide from the world, this episode is for you. Join me as we untangle the knots."

"Click the follow button on Spotify to catch the full episode. I’m Gerard Bradbury, and I’ll talk to you soon."

In Episode 4, I share a lighter story from my past—when I thought I was headed to Nashville with a hit song and a $49 money order. It’s about hope, naivety, and the part of us that still wants more, even in the middle of addiction and anxiety.

In Episode 3, I reflect on how anxiety shaped my identity long before alcohol entered the picture. I talk about silence, avoidance, and the inner world I built to feel safe—and how that world slowly became isolating.

Episode 2

Before alcohol ever entered my life, my mind was already loud.

In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about the inner world anxiety built long before drinking became part of my story.

I reflect on growing up inside a constant loop of fear, imagined judgment, and self-doubt—and how silence, not intoxication, was what I was really searching for.

This episode explores how anxiety can quietly become an identity, how isolation can feel like safety, and how the search for relief can lead us down paths we don’t yet understand.