Real freedom starts with what you believe, not just what you do.

Through the review of a bit of research, the picture is striking. Women are reporting porn use more often than many assume, and the shame around it can make them feel like they have nowhere safe to turn.

In this reflection episode, Dr. J reminds you that lasting behavioral change comes when the heart changes. You don’t need behavior modification or more self-help, but a reorientation toward Jesus, truth, and the God who remembers you. There’s a difference between knowing God’s promises intellectually and actually leaning your life on them, especially when pain has taught you to believe lies.If you’ve ever wrestled with pornography, anxiety, depression, trauma, or the feeling that freedom is for someone else, this episode offers both clarity and hope.

Also, if you want to refer to the women’s resource I mentioned here, check out “Beggar’s Daughter” for more info on freedom from porn.

Pornography, trauma, and rage do not get the final word - Jesus does.

Terri shares the raw story of childhood abuse, fear, secrecy, and how a single altar moment became the turning point that broke shame and set her on a path to lasting freedom.

What starts in childhood echoes into her teen years: a home marked by violence, a predator’s lies, and the secret addiction that followed her into high school, athletics, and college. But this episode is not just about what wounded her - it is about the surprising way God kept drawing her back through Scripture, hunger, and small moments of grace long before she ever ran to the altar.

You’ll hear how a challenge to read Proverbs unlocked a deeper hunger for the Word, why the word “remember” became a spiritual anchor, and how Terri learned that freedom is not just a one-time miracle - it is something you protect with community, accountability, prayer, and the disciplined guarding of your eyes.

We break down:

• how childhood trauma can shape fear, anger, and secrecy for years
• why pornography can be a hidden struggle for women too, not just men
• what changed when Terri finally confessed everything to Jesus
• how Scripture, concordances, and daily renewal became part of her healing
• why “what is most personal is most universal” still gives other women hope

This conversation matters because shame thrives in silence. If you have ever wondered whether God can truly heal trauma, break addiction, and restore what was stolen, Terri’s story is proof that the answer is yes. And if you know someone carrying pain they have never named out loud, this episode gives them language, hope, and a way forward.

Essential listening for anyone who needs a reminder that the light of Christ is stronger than darkness, and that freedom can start with one honest prayer.

Want to grab the book we referenced, by Marnee Feree? Grab your copy of "No Stones" right here.

The lie that God only sees your pain and does nothing can leave you feeling abandoned, bitter, and spiritually stuck. In this episode Dr. J shares how she wrestled with the question of God seeing all and not intervening, and shows why Scripture’s picture of God is far more personal, present, and healing than many of us first believe.

Built from a reflection on her conversation with Michelle Worthing, this episode goes straight into trauma, forgiveness, and the long road from survival to freedom. If you’ve ever wondered how to trust God after abuse, how to make sense of unanswered pain, or why “forgive and forget” can wound more than it heals, this one will meet you right where you are.

You’ll discover:

• Why a simplistic view of forgiveness can burden trauma survivors
• How childhood abuse can distort your understanding of God’s goodness
• What Hagar’s story in Genesis reveals about being seen, known, and not abandoned
• Why “El Roi”—the God who sees me—becomes more than a comforting phrase
• How God’s presence, comfort, justice, and grace hold together without minimizing pain

Dr. J also connects her own healing journey with Michelle’s testimony, showing how therapy, community, and wise counsel matter, but cannot replace the deeper healing that comes from Christ himself. She revisits the Scriptures that declare God will never leave or forsake His people and asks the question at the heart of faith: What kind of God would enter our suffering, carry our sin, and still call us loved?

This is an episode for anyone carrying trauma, anyone trying to reconcile faith with pain, and anyone who needs a fresh reminder that being seen by God is not passive—it is active compassion.

If you need hope that your suffering is not invisible and your life is not beyond redemption, press play.

Wounding does not get the final word! Michelle shares the kind of testimony that changes how you see trauma, healing, and the quiet ways that God keeps showing up when life has been shattered again and again.

From a childhood marked by abuse, instability, foster care, and fear, to a life shaped by psychology, counseling, marriage, adoption, and inner healing prayer, Michelle tells the story of how faith became real - not as a theory, but as survival, rescue, and restoration. If you have ever wondered whether God can meet you inside the most painful parts of your story, this conversation will meet you there.

You’ll hear about:

• the childhood moments that planted the first seed of faith
• surviving a head-on collision with a semi truck and what happened in the days after
• the complicated path from Jesus to Father God to Holy Spirit
• how trauma, memory, and body-based pain can surface years later
• why inner healing models like Theophostic and Sozo Prayer changed her approach to recovery
• the difference between forgiveness and reconciliation
• what it means to keep moving toward God when your instinct is to run

Michelle also opens up about the realities of complex trauma, the long shadow of sexual abuse, and the hard-won wisdom she has gained as both a survivor and a trauma counselor.

Dr. J. brings thoughtful questions from a clinical perspective, creating a conversation that bridges faith, psychology, and the messy middle where healing actually happens.This episode matters because so many people are carrying pain they have never named, memories they do not know how to process, or faith wounds that make God feel unsafe. Michelle’s story offers a different invitation - that running to God, not away from him, is where safety begins.

Essential listening if you need hope, if you work with trauma, or if you have ever asked whether God can still be good in the middle of suffering. This conversation is honest, deeply human, and full of the kind of truth that stays with you long after it ends.

The advice to "just affirm and move on" is failing people who are desperate for real healing.

In this episode, Dr. J explains why she started this podcast, why her work as a Christian psychologist puts her at odds with modern therapy culture, and where people can actually find hope, truth, and change.

Dr. J opens up about her own trauma history, the calling that led her into psychology, and the moment she realized the field was drifting away from biblical conviction. She also reflects on her brother, Jeremy's, testimony and why stories of redemption matter so much when you're trying to help someone find freedom.

You'll discover:

• Why Dr. J believes psychology has lost its way on sexuality, identity, and evidence-based care
• How her own sexual abuse history shaped the kind of therapist she became
• Why she sees testimony as more than inspiration - it's a lifeline for people who need proof that healing is possible
• What she thinks the mental health world keeps missing about sin, suffering, and transformation

Dr. J also lays out several resources for anyone trying to understand or support someone wrestling with LGBTQ identity or sexual brokenness, including Piercing the Night, Changed Movement, Revive Traveling Ministry, the Queered Out documentary, and Therapy First. Each one offers a different lens - prayer, testimony, ministry, or research - for people who want more than slogans.

If you've ever felt torn between faith and psychology, if you love someone who is searching for freedom, or if you need a reminder that God still changes lives, this episode gives you both the big picture and a place to start.

Essential listening for Christians, counselors, parents, and anyone longing for hope that doesn't compromise truth.

If you have ever wondered whether God can still reach someone after addiction, sexual trauma, and deep spiritual brokenness, this conversation will grab you by the heart.

Dr. J sits down with her oldest brother, Jeremy, for a raw testimony of restoration, identity, and the kind of encounter with Jesus that changes everything.Jeremy opens up about walking away from faith after their dad's death, spiraling into drugs, surviving a suicide attempt, and then meeting Christ in a rehab room in a way he never could have planned.

No worship team.

No perfect prayer.

No crowd.

Just Jesus walking into the room and restoring what was shattered.

You’ll discover:

• why Jeremy says his most life-changing healing began with identity, not behavior
• how childhood sexual trauma shaped his relationships for years
• what the story of the woman with the issue of blood reveals about identity, healing, and faith
• why the prodigal son, the lost sheep, and the good shepherd all matter so deeply in his story
• how prayer, spiritual discernment, and surrender work together when someone has wandered far from God

Dr. J also brings in the tension many listeners feel but rarely hear addressed well: how to talk about spiritual warfare with balance, without becoming either dismissive or obsessed. Jeremy shares a grounded, biblical perspective on deliverance, authority in Christ, and why Christians need both spiritual awareness and wisdom.

This episode is for anyone praying over a loved one who feels unreachable, anyone carrying shame from the past, and anyone who needs to be reminded that the gospel is not about striving harder - it’s about being made new. If you need hope that God still chases after the one, this story will meet you right where you are.

What love looks like when it costs you something:

I keep coming back to one line from Sean's testimony:

"I was being loved and being carried by them."

That stopped me because so often we think love has to show up as the perfect feeling, the perfect words, the perfect emotional response. But what if love is much simpler than that?

What if love is sometimes just staying present.

Praying when it would be easier to scroll past.

Sending the text.

Making the call.

Holding somebody up when they don't have the strength to hold themselves.

Sean talked about people in his life who did exactly that for him - people who didn't just have an opinion about his life, but who actually showed up in it. That challenged me.

Especially because I know how easy it is to get distracted, get busy, get protective of my time, and convince myself that's normal.

It also made me think about Aaron and Hur holding up Moses' arms. There are moments when the battle is not won by the loudest voice.

It's won by the people willing to stand there and keep lifting.

Maybe that's the kind of love the church needs more of.

Not polished.

Not performative.

Just faithful.

Listen in on this reflection episode and don’t forget to check out Lindsey’s book, (mentioned in this episode and the last), Piercing the Night.

How does genuine love look beyond the surface? Discover Sean’s raw journey through pain, confusion, and divine encounter to find a different kind of intimacy - one rooted in trust, obedience, and spiritual kinship.

Sean’s story breaks the mold of typical narratives around faith and sexuality. Born in Sri Lanka and raised in Texas, his childhood was marked by rejection, family trauma, and a relentless search for identity amid cultural and spiritual expectations. Yet, amid deep pain and questioning, Sean’s encounter with God transformed his understanding of true love, showing him that genuine intimacy goes far beyond physical relationship; it’s about brotherhood, vulnerability, and walking with Jesus through every step.

In this episode, Sean unpacks pivotal moments: a traumatic massage experience that opened his eyes to exploitation, years of wrestling with same-sex attraction and faith, and pivotal experiences that reshaped his perspective on love and friendship. You'll discover how he navigated rejection from his family, the power of community and prayer, and the importance of redefining biblical love by drawing on the story of David and Jonathan as a blueprint for deep, non-romantic bonds in the Christian life.

Sean also shares practical insight on how churches and believers can support LGBTQ individuals without judgment, modeling Christ’s love through acceptance and authentic relationship. You’ll leave with a renewed understanding: sexual attraction isn’t sin; acting on it outside of biblical boundaries is. Sean’s testimony invites you to reconsider what it means to love as Jesus loves; that even in our brokenness, His grace abounds, leading us to healing, obedience, and authentic connection.

Perfect for pastors, friends, and anyone navigating faith and identity, this episode offers hope, reassurance, and a call to extend the love of Christ in every relationship.

Sean is a songwriter, worship leader, and speaker, passionately committed to authentic faith and biblical truth. His story reflects the power of God's redemption and the beauty of walking in Spirit-led obedience, even when the path is challenging.

This episode is a must-listen for anyone seeking to understand how God's love can break cycles of rejection and bring freedom by revealing that true fulfillment isn’t found in changing your identity, but in aligning it with God's purpose.