Real freedom starts with what you believe, not just what you do.

Through the review of a bit of research, the picture is striking. Women are reporting porn use more often than many assume, and the shame around it can make them feel like they have nowhere safe to turn.

In this reflection episode, Dr. J reminds you that lasting behavioral change comes when the heart changes. You don’t need behavior modification or more self-help, but a reorientation toward Jesus, truth, and the God who remembers you. There’s a difference between knowing God’s promises intellectually and actually leaning your life on them, especially when pain has taught you to believe lies.If you’ve ever wrestled with pornography, anxiety, depression, trauma, or the feeling that freedom is for someone else, this episode offers both clarity and hope.

Also, if you want to refer to the women’s resource I mentioned here, check out “Beggar’s Daughter” for more info on freedom from porn.

Pornography, trauma, and rage do not get the final word - Jesus does.

Terri shares the raw story of childhood abuse, fear, secrecy, and how a single altar moment became the turning point that broke shame and set her on a path to lasting freedom.

What starts in childhood echoes into her teen years: a home marked by violence, a predator’s lies, and the secret addiction that followed her into high school, athletics, and college. But this episode is not just about what wounded her - it is about the surprising way God kept drawing her back through Scripture, hunger, and small moments of grace long before she ever ran to the altar.

You’ll hear how a challenge to read Proverbs unlocked a deeper hunger for the Word, why the word “remember” became a spiritual anchor, and how Terri learned that freedom is not just a one-time miracle - it is something you protect with community, accountability, prayer, and the disciplined guarding of your eyes.

We break down:

• how childhood trauma can shape fear, anger, and secrecy for years
• why pornography can be a hidden struggle for women too, not just men
• what changed when Terri finally confessed everything to Jesus
• how Scripture, concordances, and daily renewal became part of her healing
• why “what is most personal is most universal” still gives other women hope

This conversation matters because shame thrives in silence. If you have ever wondered whether God can truly heal trauma, break addiction, and restore what was stolen, Terri’s story is proof that the answer is yes. And if you know someone carrying pain they have never named out loud, this episode gives them language, hope, and a way forward.

Essential listening for anyone who needs a reminder that the light of Christ is stronger than darkness, and that freedom can start with one honest prayer.

Want to grab the book we referenced, by Marnee Feree? Grab your copy of "No Stones" right here.

The lie that God only sees your pain and does nothing can leave you feeling abandoned, bitter, and spiritually stuck. In this episode Dr. J shares how she wrestled with the question of God seeing all and not intervening, and shows why Scripture’s picture of God is far more personal, present, and healing than many of us first believe.

Built from a reflection on her conversation with Michelle Worthing, this episode goes straight into trauma, forgiveness, and the long road from survival to freedom. If you’ve ever wondered how to trust God after abuse, how to make sense of unanswered pain, or why “forgive and forget” can wound more than it heals, this one will meet you right where you are.

You’ll discover:

• Why a simplistic view of forgiveness can burden trauma survivors
• How childhood abuse can distort your understanding of God’s goodness
• What Hagar’s story in Genesis reveals about being seen, known, and not abandoned
• Why “El Roi”—the God who sees me—becomes more than a comforting phrase
• How God’s presence, comfort, justice, and grace hold together without minimizing pain

Dr. J also connects her own healing journey with Michelle’s testimony, showing how therapy, community, and wise counsel matter, but cannot replace the deeper healing that comes from Christ himself. She revisits the Scriptures that declare God will never leave or forsake His people and asks the question at the heart of faith: What kind of God would enter our suffering, carry our sin, and still call us loved?

This is an episode for anyone carrying trauma, anyone trying to reconcile faith with pain, and anyone who needs a fresh reminder that being seen by God is not passive—it is active compassion.

If you need hope that your suffering is not invisible and your life is not beyond redemption, press play.