🎙️ Why did I name my podcast The Smart Black Girl? Because for most of my life, that’s who I was—the smart one. But what happens when that identity gets challenged?

🧠 From childhood, I was celebrated for my intelligence. My family expected me to use my brain to create a better future. I obsessed over perfect grades, corrected my teachers, and devoured books, imagining myself as the smart character in every story. But then, life threw me a curveball…

🏫 A Shift in Identity Moving from a predominantly Black school to a mostly white one, I suddenly became not just the smart girl but the smart Black girl.

🏙️ The Next Move: Bias & Fear Transferring to a majority-Black high school (nicknamed the fight school), I feared I wouldn’t fit in. I had developed biases about my own community and even begged to go elsewhere. But instead of fear, I found some of the best people I’d ever meet.

🎓 College Changed Everything In a sea of accomplished Black women, I was no longer the smart Black girl. I was just average. As a first-generation college student, I had no blueprint for success—no mentors, no guide on balancing school, work, and social life. I felt lost.

🔄 Comparison is a Thief I isolated myself, convinced that everyone else had life figured out while I struggled. My confidence shattered. If I wasn’t the smart Black girl, then who was I?

✨ Rebuilding My Identity That’s how The Smart Black Girl Podcast was born. This is my diary—a space where I rediscover myself and bring you along for the ride.

💬 So, my smarticle particles, what identity shaped you? Let’s talk about it in the comments.

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💬 Life has been A LOT lately. I’ve been battling my mental health, received some bad medical news, and honestly, I’ve been pushing God away without even realizing it. If it weren’t for my husband, I probably would have stayed curled up on the couch for days. But today, I want to talk about Lent, healing, and finding my way back to God.

☁️ The first 3 months of the year have been rough. My mental health is slowly improving, but the weight of everything has felt unbearable. If you’ve ever felt like you’re drowning in life’s struggles, I see you. I know that feeling all too well. But I also know that fighting for yourself—no matter how small the steps—matters. For me, that fight looks like taking my meds, crying through therapy, and simply showing up.

🙌 A Simple Prayer Changed Everything.
This morning, my husband set a 5-minute timer and told me to just close my eyes and pray. The only words that came out were:
“Help me Lord, help me Lord, help me Lord.”
And you know what? It helped.

📵 Why I’m Giving Up Media for Lent
I realized I’ve been filling my emptiness with social media, YouTube, and distractions—anything to numb the pain. But God has been calling me to fill that space with Him instead. So for the next 40 days, I’m fasting from digital media (except audiobooks and gospel music) and using this time to rebuild my faith.

📖 Matthew 18:12-13 reminds me that even when we wander, God searches for us. No matter how far I’ve strayed, He wants me back in His arms. And today, I’m choosing to let Him in.

✨ If you’ve been struggling too, know this—you are not alone, and your life is worth fighting for. Let’s talk about it in the comments. How has the start of your year been? 👇🏾

💬 I've been going THROUGH it, y’all. For the past few months, I’ve felt lost, hurt, and completely exhausted. As many of you know, I live with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, and ADHD—and for years, medication helped me stay stable. But recently, I made the decision to stop taking my meds, thinking I could manage everything on my own. Spoiler alert: It did NOT go well.

☁️ The Darkness Took Over
In just two months, my world started crumbling. I lost my sense of self, my connection to God, and even my ability to function. Praying felt impossible. Getting out of bed? A struggle. I felt like I was failing at life itself.

💡 But here’s what saved me:

• My support system. My husband, therapist, and friends held me together when I couldn’t do it alone.
• Seeking help again. I had a real, honest conversation with my psychiatrist about restarting medication.
• A message from God. When I questioned, "Where is God?"—He reminded me He’s always been right here. A video from @Untrenditional Gospel titled "God Is Calling You to Create" gave me the push I needed.

🚀 So here I am, taking my first step back. This is not the end—it’s a new beginning. If you’ve ever felt like you’re failing, like you’ve lost sight of yourself, or like you’re too far gone to start over—this video is for you.

✨ You are not alone. You are not a failure. You can always start again.

🖤 Drop a comment below—have you ever struggled with medication, mental health, or your faith? Let’s talk. 👇🏾