⚠️ Content Warning: This episode mentions trauma and references to suicidal ideation. Please take care of yourself.

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Have you seen K-Pop Demon Hunters? This award-winning animated film is stunning, but what stopped me cold was how accurately it portrays toxic shame: where it comes from, how it's used to control us, and how we begin to heal. In this episode, I break down key scenes through a C-PTSD lens, exploring the connection between toxic shame, the inner critic, narcissistic abuse, and what it looks like to reclaim your voice.

⏱️ Chapters:

00:00 Intro

08:52 Shame & Its Origins

14:50 K-Pop Clip Analysis Begins

17:37 Shame Steals Rest & Joy

19:21 C-PTSD Thieves of Joy

19:48 The Burden of Toxic Shame

22:12 Rumi's Shame

23:50 Voice & Value

26:40 Shame as Control

29:04 Hope vs. Shame

30:45 Healing Through Compassion

32:35 Facing the Past

35:00 Acceptance & Vulnerability

37:09 Fear of Rejection

39:29 The Inner Critic

43:16 Gray vs. Dark Gray Rocking

46:50 Empowerment Through Music

49:52 Healing from Shame

56:37 Healing Invitation

📚 Resources mentioned:

• 🎬 K-Pop Demon Hunters (watch on Netflix)
• 📖 Healing the Shame That Binds You by John Bradshaw
• 🌐 Brené Brown shame vs. guilt research
• 📖 Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker
• 🌐 Dr. Ramani Durvasula narcissistic abuse expert
• 📲 RRP Therapists on Instagram
• 📺 Ruri Ohama ADHD Notion system (YouTube)

🆘 If you or someone you know is struggling:

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In this episode, I sit down with Dr. Michael J. Greenberg, licensed clinical psychologist and the director of OCD Associates, to talk about something I've lived with since childhood but only recently learned has a name: rumination OCD. For a long time, I thought rumination was something that happened to me, a side effect of trauma. But Michael's work helped me see that rumination is actually something we do, and if it's something we do, it's something we can stop.

We talk about what rumination is, how it differs from intrusive thoughts, the six engagement patterns that keep rumination going, and how attachment and complex trauma can intensify OCD loops. This conversation opened my eyes to how treating OCD requires different tools than treating C-PTSD, and I hope it offers you the same clarity it gave me.

Chapters:

10:49 Conversation with Dr. Greenberg begins

13:02 Understanding Rumination in OCD

14:11 The Control of Rumination

17:08 The Complexity of Stopping Rumination

19:56 The Role of Core Fears in OCD

35:49 Core Fears and Emotional Conflicts

37:37 The Role of Attachment in OCD

52:06 Dependency and Control in Treatment 58:11 Inner Child Work and Its Challenges

01:02:48 Understanding Rumination and Compulsions 01:04:13 The Six Types of Rumination

01:07:57 Navigating Emotional Flashbacks and Feelings 01:24:22 Healing Invitation

Connect with Dr. Michael J. Greenberg:

• Website
• Email: michael@drmichaeljgreenberg.com

Resources Mentioned:

• Dr. Elna Yadin
• David Malan’s book Individual Psychotherapy and the Science of Psychodynamics
• Dr. Michael Alcée’s Website

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month, and in this episode I share my personal experiences as a survivor of sexual abuse and emotional incest. For a long time, I didn't have names for what happened to me. I just knew something felt wrong.

• 00:00 Sexual Abuse Awareness Month
• 05:20 Trauma Anniversaries
• 09:40 Emotional Incest
• 25:27 Consent and Boundaries
• 33:21 Spectrum of Sexual Abuse
• 36:13 Grooming and Why Survivors Stay Silent
• 40:44 Resources and Healing

• RAINN Hotline — 1-800-656-HOPE
• Crisis Text Line — Text HOME to 741741
• SNAP
• Psychology Today Therapist Finder
• YWCA (not YMCA 😅)
• Incest Aware Alliance
• Healing and C-PTSD Foundation
• Silently Seduced — Kenneth Adams
• Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents — Lindsay C. Gibson
• The Emotional Incest Syndrome — Patricia Love
• Fawning — Dr. Ingrid Clayton
• Perry Power on Instagram
• Brad Shore on YouTube
• EP.064 with Dr. Ingrid Clayton
• RAYE — Life Boat
• Redd & The Paper Flowers

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Welcome to Hello Trauma Brain. A podcast where I share my experiences living with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and what I am doing to heal and get better.

In this episode, Raysa is joined by her chosen sister and friend June to talk about healing relational trauma in friendship. You are invited to come back for part 2 of this conversation.

References (this podcast is not sponsored by any of the individuals or resources linked below).

Definition of Friend (Merriam Webster) - https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/friend

There is Nothing Wrong With You book by Cheri Huber - https://www.amazon.com/There-Nothing-Wrong-You-Self-Hate/dp/0971030901/ref=sr_1_1?hvadid=598729318055&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9006772&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=9328272793484700855&hvtargid=kwd-356897255&hydadcr=22592_13531287&keywords=there+is+nothing+wrong+with+you&qid=1706745697&s=books&sr=1-1

Dr. Ramani Durvasula’s YouTube Channel - https://www.youtube.com/@DoctorRamani

Patrick Teahan, LICSW’s Link Tree - https://linktr.ee/patrickteahan

Pete Walker, M.A., MFT and book Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving - https://pete-walker.com/complex_ptsd_book.html

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DISCLAIMER: I am not a licensed psychologist or mental health care professional and this podcast is not meant to replace nor substitute the care of psychologists, other mental or medical healthcare professionals. If you think you might have Complex PTSD or PTSD please reach out to your primary care or mental health provider.

Welcome to Hello Trauma Brain. A podcast where I share my experiences living with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and what I am doing to heal and get better.

In this episode, Raysa uses the film Gaslight (1944) to illustrate gaslighting and the cycles of narcissistic abuse.

References (this podcast is not sponsored by any of the individuals or resources linked below).

Where to Watch Gaslight (1944) film - https://www.justwatch.com/us/movie/gaslight

Merriam-Webster’s definition of Gaslighting - https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/gaslighting

Merriam-Webster’s 2022 Word of the Year - https://www.merriam-webster.com/wordplay/word-of-the-year

11 Red Flags of Gaslighting in a Relationship article by Dr. Stephanie A. Sarkis - https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/here-there-and-everywhere/201701/11-red-flags-gaslighting-in-relationship

Dr. Ramani Durvasula’s free Workshop on Gaslighting - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vkBtUKtFe0&t=29s

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Visit Official Bio Site (for all links and to buy Raysa a coffee 🙂)

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Email Hello Trauma Brain: hellotraumabrain@gmail.com

DISCLAIMER: I am not a licensed psychologist or mental health care professional and this podcast is not meant to replace nor substitute the care of psychologists, other mental or medical healthcare professionals. If you think you might have Complex PTSD or PTSD please reach out to your primary care or mental health provider.

Welcome to Hello Trauma Brain. A podcast where I share my experiences living with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and what I am doing to heal and get better.

In this episode, Raysa talks about how making mistakes can be hard for survivors of narcissistic abuse and the importance of claiming back our right to make mistakes.

References (this podcast is not sponsored by any of the individuals or resources linked below).

Christopher Frechette, MSW, LCSW (Instagram post) - https://www.instagram.com/reel/CxIxfLQuFd4/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA%3D%3D

Pete Walker’s book Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving - https://www.amazon.com/Complex-PTSD-Surviving-RECOVERING-CHILDHOOD/dp/1492871842/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3HO06W9LLARHY&keywords=pete+walker+complex+ptsd+from+surviving+to+thriving&qid=1694981440&sprefix=pete+walker+%2Caps%2C363&sr=8-1

Follow Hello Trauma Brain on Instagram

Subscribe now on:

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Visit Official Bio Site (for all links and to buy Raysa a coffee 🙂)

Visit Official Website (currently under construction)

Email Hello Trauma Brain: hellotraumabrain@gmail.com

DISCLAIMER: I am not a licensed psychologist or mental health care professional and this podcast is not meant to replace nor substitute the care of psychologists, other mental or medical healthcare professionals. If you think you might have Complex PTSD or PTSD please reach out to your primary care or mental health provider.