This is a very special episode. It's the first female guest on the show! And she is my mom!!!

She talks about raising 3 boys through puberty, the recent death of a lover of hers (Leo), and her practice of deeply loving and accepting men by being abundantly boundaried and having appropriate expectations.

I share two songs "Didn't your momma" and "I'm never enough" a tribute to Leo.

I share both the deep gratitude and grief of having a mother raise me through puberty when really what I needed (looking back) was male mentorship and community.

In this episode we explore the hidden burdens that men carry beneath the surface of privilege. Luis Mojica (holisticlifenavigation.com) and I dive into the roots of male addiction—how the dysphoria and dysregulation of puberty can create longings that later show up in sex, food, substances, and digital habits.

We unpack the ways relationships can become entangled with these addictive patterns, the confusion between passion and dysregulation. Safety, presence, and integration—especially in what I call “second puberty”—emerge as the truest markers of growth, healing, and love.

The conversation also explores the oppressive expectations men inherit, the pressure to always have capacity, and the collective weight men carry in both body and psyche.

In this episode, Drew Hornbein (dddrew.com) and I open up about bisexuality, early sexual exploration, the ways men crave touch, and how intimacy between men often gets tangled with shame. We talk about cuddling in public, breaking down barriers of male closeness, and how even video games can become a space for trust and rites of passage.

Drew shares about his creation of Dark Moon Tarot, the grief of losing his best friend Ainslee, and the impact of growing up without male mentors. Together, we reflect on expression, suppression, and what it takes to reimagine male intimacy in a culture that leaves men lonely.

We share our vision for a men’s Reevaluation Counseling group — a rolodex of brothers willing to witness and be witnessed in raw, messy expression. A sacred space for men to co-regulate, discharge emotions, and reclaim the power of being fully seen. If you feel called, reach out to be part of this experiment in sacred masculine witnessing.

This episode is a personal and somatic reflection on how screen use has impacted my nervous system — and how it became a hidden part of my developmental trauma.

I define trauma as an overwhelm of charge the body cannot digest, and screen time — especially scrolling through YouTube, Instagram, reels, and Facebook — has often left me frozen, overstimulated, and disconnected from my body.

This isn’t about shaming ourselves for using screens. It’s an invitation to feel what they’re doing to us.

I also talk about my time working in a forest school with 3–7 year olds, children who spend all day immersed in play, presence, and creativity — without a single screen in sight. The contrast was humbling, and it showed me what real regulation and aliveness look like.

In this episode, I sit down with my little brother Bij for one of the most vulnerable, hilarious, and healing conversations I’ve had on this podcast.

We talk about:

-What it was like when Bij ended up in a relationship with someone I had been sleeping with— and the rupture that created between us

-A real, tender conversation about early childhood touch and the process of revisiting that memory with honesty and care

And in between, we improvise songs like “Eskimo Brothers” and “I Will Stand By You, Brother”

This is a raw and playful portrait of brotherhood — one that holds the messy, the beautiful, and the truth that love can grow stronger when we choose to face the hard stuff, together.

At age 30, I set out on foot and walked over 220 miles from Fort Collins to Pueblo, Colorado. For two weeks, I moved through landscapes, grief, longing, and memory — and in doing so, I crossed a threshold into a deeper experience of manhood.

In this episode, I reflect on that pilgrimage as my first true rite of passage. I speak about the profound mentorship of Jonathon Stalls of Intrinsic Paths, the power of land-based healing, and the songs that emerged as my voice liberated itself through walking.

We live in a society that offers men very few real initiations. This was mine — a journey that reminded me: I have what it takes.

This episode includes live performances of:

• “We the Same Family”
• “Ocean of Our Dreams”

Whether you're longing for a rite of passage of your own, or curious what it means to walk toward the man you truly are, this story is for you.

Before Grindr, there were Craigslist M4M personal ads — and that’s where I first started chasing anonymous hookups. In this episode, I revisit my relationship to cruising apps and fast sex through a somatic lens.

We explore:

• How Grindr conditions the nervous system for urgency and disembodiment
• The collapse and numbness that can follow fast, ungrounded sex
• And the craving for deeper contact underneath it all

This isn’t a takedown of queer hookup culture — it’s an invitation into honesty, curiosity, and embodied awareness.

Let’s unshame what’s real.

In this first episode of From Boys to Men, I open up about my journey with addiction — from smoking weed after the death of a close friend, to years of codependent relationships and love addiction. I share how grief, loss, and a lack of safety in my body shaped these patterns, and how psychedelic medicine began to bring me back to feeling.

This episode features two songs: “I’m an Addict,” a raw reflection on my entanglement with my ex, and “Stepping Up,” a tribute to my best friend Tyler.

This is a story of unshaming, returning to the body, and learning how to feel again.