An honest conversation about what 12 years of perimenopause has been like.

Episode 8: Perimenopause & The Decade of Rage — a no-holds-barred, deeply personal and trauma-informed look at what really happens when women hit their 30s, 40s, and 50s.

Host Amanda shares her raw, unfiltered experience navigating over a decade of perimenopause, busting medical myths, confronting historical misogyny in women’s healthcare, and spotlighting the overlooked emotional, hormonal, and spiritual impacts of this massive life transition.

In this episode, you’ll hear:

• Why perimenopause often starts way earlier than you think

• The truth about the “decade of rage” nobody talks about

• How trauma, undiagnosed neurodivergence, and hormone shifts collide

• Why gaslighting by medical professionals makes it worse

• What every woman deserves to know—and why it’s never “just in your head”

Amanda also shares insights from her training as a trauma-informed coach, how to find a therapist who actually listens, and why it’s okay to scream, shift, change, and reclaim your damn life.

Trigger Warning: This episode contains adult language, mentions of substance use, and references to trauma, including medical gaslighting. Not medical advice. For mature audiences.

Topics: perimenopause podcast, menopause symptoms, women’s rage, hormone imbalance, trauma-informed therapy, medical gaslighting, midlife awakening, ADHD in women, menopause mental health, neurodivergence and hormones, healing after trauma, dysregulation, nervous system support, therapy journey, aging women podcast, women's health

You thought a fist could make me stay, That fear could shape what I would say. But I took the hit and kept my spine, Now watch me rise, bitch got outta line.

You slammed the door, thought you were king, But only cowards do that kind of thing. Your strength was fake, all bark, no bite— I packed my rage and lit the night.

**Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line.

You threw words like knives to skin, But my fire burned too bright to dim. You called it love, I saw the trap, Danced through the ashes, never looked back.

**Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line.

**Bridge** So here’s to every scream you feared, To every bruise that disappeared. I wear my scars like medals now— You lost me when you showed me how.

**Final Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You thought you'd win by breaking me— But I was never yours to keep. I walked through fire and crossed that line— Bitch got brave, bitch got outta line.

**Outro** So next time you raise that hand in pride, Just know who ran and who survived. I’m not the one who lost their spine— You’re the bitch who got outta line. Yeah you're the bitch, who got outta line (few chords of outro music)

A former insider exposes five years inside a toxic spiritual company using cult tactics, gaslighting, dark psychology, and claims of fake energy healing machines.

From love bombing and manipulation to misogyny and the discard, this raw personal account reveals how trauma bonding, fake angels, and placebo-based services were marketed as salvation.

This episode dives deep into spiritual abuse, narcissistic leadership, and the emotional toll of working inside a narcissistic organization disguised as healing. Perfect for listeners recovering from cults, MLMs, religious trauma, and New Age manipulation.

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