An honest conversation about what 12 years of perimenopause has been like.

Episode 8: Perimenopause & The Decade of Rage — a no-holds-barred, deeply personal and trauma-informed look at what really happens when women hit their 30s, 40s, and 50s.

Host Amanda shares her raw, unfiltered experience navigating over a decade of perimenopause, busting medical myths, confronting historical misogyny in women’s healthcare, and spotlighting the overlooked emotional, hormonal, and spiritual impacts of this massive life transition.

In this episode, you’ll hear:

• Why perimenopause often starts way earlier than you think

• The truth about the “decade of rage” nobody talks about

• How trauma, undiagnosed neurodivergence, and hormone shifts collide

• Why gaslighting by medical professionals makes it worse

• What every woman deserves to know—and why it’s never “just in your head”

Amanda also shares insights from her training as a trauma-informed coach, how to find a therapist who actually listens, and why it’s okay to scream, shift, change, and reclaim your damn life.

Trigger Warning: This episode contains adult language, mentions of substance use, and references to trauma, including medical gaslighting. Not medical advice. For mature audiences.

Topics: perimenopause podcast, menopause symptoms, women’s rage, hormone imbalance, trauma-informed therapy, medical gaslighting, midlife awakening, ADHD in women, menopause mental health, neurodivergence and hormones, healing after trauma, dysregulation, nervous system support, therapy journey, aging women podcast, women's health

You thought a fist could make me stay, That fear could shape what I would say. But I took the hit and kept my spine, Now watch me rise, bitch got outta line.

You slammed the door, thought you were king, But only cowards do that kind of thing. Your strength was fake, all bark, no bite— I packed my rage and lit the night.

**Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line.

You threw words like knives to skin, But my fire burned too bright to dim. You called it love, I saw the trap, Danced through the ashes, never looked back.

**Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You called me crazy, called me wild, But I’m not your pet, not your child. I walked away and that was fine— Bitch got free, bitch got outta line.

**Bridge** So here’s to every scream you feared, To every bruise that disappeared. I wear my scars like medals now— You lost me when you showed me how.

**Final Chorus** I got louder when you tried to hush, Stood taller in the silent crush. You broke the mirror, but not my mind— You lost control when I declined. You thought you'd win by breaking me— But I was never yours to keep. I walked through fire and crossed that line— Bitch got brave, bitch got outta line.

**Outro** So next time you raise that hand in pride, Just know who ran and who survived. I’m not the one who lost their spine— You’re the bitch who got outta line. Yeah you're the bitch, who got outta line (few chords of outro music)

A former insider exposes five years inside a toxic spiritual company using cult tactics, gaslighting, dark psychology, and claims of fake energy healing machines.

From love bombing and manipulation to misogyny and the discard, this raw personal account reveals how trauma bonding, fake angels, and placebo-based services were marketed as salvation.

This episode dives deep into spiritual abuse, narcissistic leadership, and the emotional toll of working inside a narcissistic organization disguised as healing. Perfect for listeners recovering from cults, MLMs, religious trauma, and New Age manipulation.

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spiritual abuse, cult recovery, fake healing, gaslighting, narcissistic boss, trauma coach, energy scam, New Age cult, spiritual manipulation, workplace trauma, narcissistic abuse, emotional healing, toxic positivity, spiritual gaslighting, dark psychology, placebo effect, invisible energy, false gurus, healing podcast, survivor story

In this episode the conversation continues as Raven & Amanda discuss how difficult relationships affect women's physical health, and the weight changes often associated with marriage and love/limerence.

00:00:00 Content warning 00:00:10 Intro clip 00:01:09 Weight gain/weight loss and the correlation between health and happiness. 00:6:30 Partner rejection, and the transactional nature of how men often participate in relationships. 00:8:25 Codependency, and learning how to give and receive in a healthy way. 00:9:35 Marriage: The long con with negative ROI. 00:11:45 Women as property: Why do our fathers need to "give us away"? 00:15:00 The magical power of the beauty of women. The exhaustion of pleasing men with our appearance. 00:16:28 An awkward dolphin tangent. 00:20:45 Raven calls out middle aged white men. 00:21:40 What we do with our hair... is none of your business. 00:24:21 More on pink hair (from intro) The religious Republican right whining about pink hair/how to deter creeps from hitting on you.

In this episode, the conversation continues, as Raven and Amanda discuss the toxic culture we live in, women as agents of the patriarch, and how religious cultural expectations are leading to violence toward women.

00:00 Intro clip + explicit content warning.

00:44 Being controlled with the threat of losing your children and a message from Raven to those who resort to this type of control. 02:00 Codependents and addicts, "I believed I could change anyone." 04:00 Can we please talk about alcohol and our alcoholic society? 07:40 Losing friends when you heal and the challenge of setting new boundaries with old friends. 09:30 Who's bringing home the bacon? 12:25 Are you the narcissist's litmus test? Empowered women triggering men. 14:30 Women in entertainment, Women of Hip Hop Documentary 16:00 They stay closeted, we get beaten. The systems of oppression that lead to women being impoverished. 24:00 PTA moms and playground politics. 26:30 The gaslighting of Christian values. Who really benefits, and why are we so afraid of women who enjoy their bodies? 37:00 The big D flow state. 41:00 The conditions that lead to choosing a second violent partner.

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In this episode Raven & Amanda continue discussing the wildly unrealistic expectations women are held to, the emotional load misalignment in relationships, and the origins of our codependency.

00: Intro clip 1:00 All he needs is a beer, a sandwich and a piece of ass, so DO NOT feed him. 4:20 Cheating and intimidation: they can't please the woman they have so they go find others to disappoint. 7:30 Training the dog (me). How men can lead in a relationship. 9:30 Women supporting women and the culturally shared experience of carrying the emotional load of the family. 10:20 The angry daddy religions and their unrealistic expectations of women. 12:00 Why aren't you eating? The origins of our eating disorders and the value in our physical appearance. 16:30 Bitch gets out of line, at work. (funny) 19:10 Making ourselves smaller. 21:00 Witches, demons, and femicide. 28:00 Marriage changed us, but not the way we expected. 29:00 How codependency is embedded in our religions, culture, and belief systems.

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In this episode Raven & Amanda discuss early marriage, and what it was like waking up inside of the biggest tale ever told.

00:45 Waking up to the oppression of the institution of marriage, we're done putting up with your sh*t. 2:05 Unromanticizing men. Film "This Changes Everything" 5:25 Raven discusses big D energy 7:45 Two sexless marriages 15:45 They don't know what they have until it's gone. 19:45 The foul temptresses failing at marriage 27:15 Video games & relationships 40:45 Where's my pizza (piece of...)?

Media mentioned in this episode: Bunnie & Jelly Roll, podcast Lemonade, Beyonce, album This Changes Everything, film

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Correction: Tom Cruise is 5' 9" not 5' 7" :)

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In this episode, Amanda and Raven continue discussing modern dating, domestic violence and the state of relationships in 2024.

:00 Disclaimer :09 Preview clip 1:02 Where are the good guys? Dating in 2024. 3:25 Learning about limerence. 5:50 The art of pursuit. 11:55 The journey to liking myself. 15:15 Gray hairs, distinguished men, and smart cookies. 22:50 The danger of getting out of an abusive relationship. 26:50 The abuse and how it escalates over time. 33:50 The history of the hysterectomy. 35:50 Needing vs. wanting men.

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