What happens when one child feels like home at the door and another, from the same sibling set, feels impossible to love? We open our front door and our hearts to a brutally honest journey through foster care: the instant bond that made love feel effortless, the second placement that brought our family to a breaking point, and the teen whose silence turned a celebration dinner into a night of cold rage and hard truths.

We explore what it means to expand love beyond a feeling. When warmth won’t come on command, action anchors us. That shift—love as a verb—keeps families steady while the nervous system catches up and connection rebuilds in small, faithful steps.

Then we move into the deep end: how to keep showing up when loving hurts. We unpack perception—naming “the story I’m telling myself”—to stop letting untested narratives drive our reactions. We define boundaries that are clear, kind, and enforceable. And, we explore what we really have control of... the quick answer is, on a good day, ourselves! That mix of agency and empathy lets us offer full love while limiting access to the most tender parts of our hearts until safety returns.

If you’re parenting through foster care, adoption, or any hard relationship, this conversation offers practical language, scripts, and a sustainable framework—perception, boundaries, and control—to reduce burnout and keep your care aligned with your values. Subscribe, share this episode with a friend who needs it, and leave a review with one boundary that helped you love well.

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A single keepsake cracked open a lifetime of hidden feeling. When Simon Ben learned that his childhood teddy bear came from his birth mother, a wave of grief and anger surfaced—and so did a clear path to freedom. We sit down with Simon to explore what thriving really means for adoptees and anyone healing from old narratives: being grateful in the highs, graceful in the lows, and far less bothered by being bothered.

Simon shares how Internal Family Systems helped him see parts without becoming them, and why he trusts action over sacred thoughts. We dig into perfectionism, negativity bias, and the pull of the inner critic, plus the practical language that validates kids’ emotions without welding identity to pain. You’ll hear how a simple reframe—“fear came to visit”—can calm storms, and why “I feel” beats “I am” when it comes to healing.

We also get honest about generational context. Many adoptees felt invalidated by parents who lacked today’s trauma literacy; holding harm and goodwill together takes nuance. Simon’s biggest claim may be his most liberating: insights, not time, are the greatest healer. Beneath every story is an unwoundable Self—awareness, presence, wholeness—that trauma can hide but not harm. From that ground, therapy deepens, habits stick, and humor returns.

If you’re navigating adoption, wrestling with identity, or tired of the mental tornado that starts when thoughts judge thoughts, this one offers a map and a mirror. Listen, share with someone who needs a reframe, and tell us the insight you’re taking with you. Subscribe, leave a review, and help more listeners find their way to thriving.

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Some crises should never cost a child their family. When a single mom in a new city was admitted for kidney stones with no one to call, the default answer was removal. Instead, a host family took her daughters for one night—and that brief stay opened the door to lasting friendships, school support, and a church community that refused to let isolation write the ending. That’s the power of upstream care: precise help at the right moment that prevents unnecessary trauma.

We sit down with Melody Marshall, co-executive director of My Village Ministries and Upstream Collaborative, to unpack a model that’s reducing foster care entries and restoring dignity for parents in crisis. Melody traces her path from house parenting to hosting hundreds of nights to building a national network that equips churches to meet real needs—short-term child hosting, parent allies, care communities, and practical support that stabilizes families. We talk about the hard truths, too: most removals are tied to neglect driven by poverty and thin support systems, not malice. Poverty isn’t a crime; social isolation is the accelerant. When churches step in relationally, kids remain safe, parents regroup, and reunification becomes the norm.

Melody shares data from Columbus—99.9% reunification and a 40% drop in foster care numbers over five years—as well as the systems work behind those outcomes: shared policies, training, legal and insurance frameworks, and a resource bank that helps new ministries launch without reinventing the wheel. We explore the spiritual core of this calling, from standing firm when the work gets costly to trading judgment for compassion through proximity and presence. If you’ve felt drawn to foster or adopt, this conversation offers a vital first step: start upstream, build the village, and keep families together whenever safely possible.

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What happens when grit becomes a trap and control masquerades as love? I open the curtain on nine years of foster care and adoption, from my early "This is a sprint" mindset to the slower "marathon" pace of adoption. The story moves through the highs of first placements, the heartbreak of an international adoption falling apart, and the relentless push to “fix” what was never mine to heal. Along the way, you’ll hear about the Kintsugi moment that mirrored my need to make the pieces fit, the overlapping placements that stretched our home to the edge, and a pandemic pause that revealed what I really needed was rest.

The turning point wasn’t pretty. A destroyed patio set and a red-alert text to my best friend cracked my certainty wide open. Therapy helped me name superhuman expectations and the codependency hiding beneath them. I started using a simple backpack metaphor to right-size my responsibilities: my time, choices, values, and behavior belong to me; my kids’ outcomes, healing timelines, and adult friendships do not. That shift allowed me to set down the heavy, invisible loads I’d been dragging—like making siblings become best friends or proving I was a “good” wife by appearances alone.

Here’s the paradox that changed our home: connection thrives where control ends. When I stopped clawing my way toward attachment and started showing up with clear boundaries and humble repair, everything softened. School days got calmer, sibling tension eased, and my own nervous system finally exhaled. This episode offers grounded takeaways for foster and adoptive parents, educators, and anyone navigating trauma-informed care: honor limits, release the script, and trust that presence beats performance. If you’re carrying too much, consider this your invitation to lighten the load.

If this resonates, follow the show, share it with a friend who needs relief, and leave a review—then tell me one expectation you’re laying down this week. You can message me on Instagram @behindthecurtainpod or email rebecca@havenretreatsinc.org.

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We open the door on incontinence in foster and adoptive homes and talk plainly about shame, trauma, and the mental load. Peter Mutabazi, founder of Now I am Known, shares the daily realities of children with incontinence issues and advocacy wins. Mica Phillips, Vice President of Aeuroflow Urology, explains how to qualify for medical-grade supplies through Medicaid and why it restores dignity.

• why stigma follows older kids who need diapers
• trauma, autism, ADHD, and constipation as drivers
• the true cost burden and poor retail fit for bigger sizes
• using physicians as allies and documentation that works
• navigating Medicaid, managed care, and approvals
• school and camp accommodations, IEP hurdles, and dignity
• refill timing, product quantities, and fewer last‑minute store runs
• practical steps to apply via Aeroflow Urology and what to expect

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If you're a foster parent or adoptive parent who wants to build a life that you recognize at 80. Or, if resolutions leave you burned out by February, you’re not broken—you’re using the wrong tool. Rebecca opens the door to a gentler, smarter approach to change: a clear year-end review, a vision board that serves as a compass, and one tiny 1% shift that you can actually do every day. No overhauls. No shame. Just practical steps that compound into a life you recognize and want to live.

We walk through how to audit last year with honesty—what worked, what didn’t, and which relationships need new attention—and then translate those insights into a vision board placed where you’ll see it in real life. From there, we anchor the smallest possible action to an existing routine, a method known as habit stacking. Rebecca shares a vulnerable, hopeful story of rebuilding connection with an adopted child through micro-habits: reading a grounding line by the sink, recalling one good moment, and adding a brief hallway ritual. Over months, those tiny cues rewired attention, softened defense, and made connection feel natural again.

This conversation also explores choosing peace as a north star for the year and making it visible in daily life—even through something as simple as one consistent nail color that quietly reminds you to ask, "What’s in my control right now?" Whether you’re navigating foster care, adoption, or just craving steadier rhythms at home, you’ll get practical, repeatable steps to move forward without the self-sabotage cycle of grand promises.

Join us as we trade brittle resolutions for durable habits and build lives with intention, not accident. If this resonated, subscribe, share with a friend who needs a gentler path to change, and leave a quick review so others can find the show. Then tell us: what’s your 1% this week?

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In part two of two, we explore authoritative parenting as a blend of warmth and structure that forms character for the long game. Faith and research meet in practical steps that build trust, align kids with reality, and make the teen years a joy rather than a warning.

• greeting rituals that prioritize presence over logistics
• using fewer words to lower defensiveness and increase responsiveness
• humor as connection that supports timely correction
• creating buffer zones like car rides for debrief not discipline
• aligning kids with reality through natural consequences
• treating lying as a trust issue with repair and restored freedom
• trust as the currency that expands autonomy in teen years
• tailoring authority to readiness, not age, and coaching growth
• why authoritative parenting suits trauma, ADHD, and high-demand needs
• staying in community with schools while resisting over-rescue
• repairing quickly and parenting toward the future adult

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In part one of two, we explore kind, authoritative parenting for foster and adoptive families, weaving research, faith, and real-life practice into a clear path that balances warmth with firm guidance. Rachel Medefind shares how discipline means training for growth, not punishment, and why community and mindset shape outcomes.

• what authoritative parenting is and is not
• warmth plus discipline as twin levers for growth
• the four parenting styles and long-term outcomes
• why “discipline” equals training, not punishment
• TBRI as a helpful tool within kind authority
• research from Baumrind and Christian Smith
• faith, formation, and limited purpose of authority
• community as a stabilizer for stressed parents
• mindset shifts toward growth and releasing outcomes
• consistency with flexibility in daily practices

Come back next week for part two.

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