Alice (SO/SP 9w1 973) joins us for a profound and poetic exploration of the inner world of Nine — where the background environment can overshadow the self, and the longing isn’t for pleasure, but for the peace of never having been born. We dive into the quiet ache for pre-conscious coziness, the hesitance to disturb reality with one’s presence, and the existential ambivalence at the heart of Nine structure: Do I really want to exist? Alice reflects on the invisible toll of absorbing the world’s energies, the disorienting effects of nightlife work, and the shattering aftermath of real connection gone silent. Her story is a journey of individuation and the slow integration of disparate parts of herself — from coming out as trans, to seeing herself mirrored in others’ self-suppression, and ultimately, to saying yes to life.

LINKS

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TIMESTAMPS

00:00 - Intro

02:24 - Alice’s current life context

08:17 - Being an extremely sensitive person, social 9 absorbing the environment

17:25 - “Swirling in your own cauldron” of the 9-7 stem

28:17 - “Ruining” the tapestry, 9w1 ethics

35:03 - 9s return to the womb; the desire to be unborn

44:03 - Saying ‘yes’ to experience

46:36 - Childhood

53:27 - Living as a trans woman

1:05:28 - Submitting my whole self to gaze - social instinct, type 3, type 9

1:11:11 - Seeing myself in another’s self-suppression

1:33:53 - Opting out of autopilot and serving a new vision for life

1:49:31 - Outro

CREDITS

Interview by Josh Lavine
Edited by Kristen Oberly
Music by Coma-Media from Pixabay
Coma-Media: https://pixabay.com/users/coma-media-24399569/
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