This week on Therapy is Dope with Alicia and Laura, we sit down with Nahum "Justin" Vizakis — a former Army veteran who served in Iraq and came home carrying the kind of weight that doesn't show up on a scan. Nahum's story moves through loss, a near-death experience, and the slow unraveling that so many veterans and trauma survivors know well: the moment the armor that protected you starts to suffocate you instead.
Nahum gets honest about what his healing actually looked like — not a straight line, not a single breakthrough, but years of reaching for meaning in different places. He shares how plantmedicine became part of his personal journey, how he turned to bodybuilding as a daily ritual of reclaiming himself, and why he came to believe that emotional pain we don't process tends to find a home in the body. This episode is a raw, honest conversation about masculinity, grief, trauma, presence, and the long work of coming home to yourself.
This one's for anyone who's ever wondered what's underneath the things they don't talk about.
In this eposide we discuss:
• Nahum's path from bomb technician in Iraq to author andembodiment coach
• How unprocessed trauma and grief can settle into thebody
• What his personal healing journey actually involved —and why it wasn't linear
• Plant medicine as part of his own story, told as livedexperience rather than prescription
• Bodybuilding and physical discipline as a form ofself-reclamation
• Masculinity and emotional honesty
• What "radical self-responsibility" means
Nahum Vizakis is a former Army bomb technician, author, and holistic coach whose work centers on trauma recovery, embodiment, and what he calls "spiritual bodybuilding." Heis the author of The Indigo Flame, a memoir of his journey from war and trauma to healing, and The Biohacker's Guide to Spiritual Bodybuilding. Through his practice, Optimizing Human, he works with men and women on nervous-systemhealing, physical strength, and reconnecting with a sense of purpose.
You can find him at optimizinghuman.com and on Instagram @spiritual_bodybuilder.
Note for listeners: Nahum shares his personal experiences with plant medicine and alternative healing practices. These reflect his own journey and are not medical advice or a treatment recommendation. Substances like ayahuasca, iboga, and kambo carry real physical and psychological risks and are not appropriate for everyone. If you're navigating trauma, mental health concerns, or substanceuse, please work with a licensed professional. Therapy is Dope is for education and conversation — it isn't a substitute for individualized care.