Everyone loves a comeback story. But what about the part where you’re just… sitting in a garage at 2 a.m., surrounded by half-charged batteries, broken gear, and a growing sense that something inside you might be cracking?

This episode isn’t about triumph. It’s about that strange, quiet middle, the one nobody posts about, where you’re not broken, not healed… just angry. Angry at the industry. Angry at yourself. Angry at the space between who you are and who you thought you’d be by now.

But that anger? Maybe it’s not a problem to solve. Maybe it’s fuel.

Topics Include:

• The weird middle space between burnout and breakthrough
• How anger can be creative fuel—if you let it
• Why “healing” and “finding joy” aren’t the point
• The choice to keep working, even when the work feels pointless
• Depression, resistance, and what it means to show up anyway

Opening Song:

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Mentioned in the Episode:

• A broken laptop stand
• The hum of depression
• That 2 a.m. garage air
• The space where the butterfly might land

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What happens when you still love photography but start to wonder if there’s any place left for you in the industry?

In this raw, vulnerable episode, Patrick Fore gets brutally honest about what it means to be a working photographer in 2025. From a moment of personal crisis in a cluttered garage to the soul-draining grind of cold outreach and algorithm-chasing, this episode pulls back the curtain on the emotional and existential cost of staying in the game.

You’ll hear:

• Why radical honesty might be the only antidote to creative burnout
• The tension between art and commerce, and why it matters more than ever
• A reflection on the dark side of the photography education economy
• A personal story about hitting the wall, and choosing not to walk away
• A deeper dive into the concept of Flow vs. Resistance, and how to find your way back to meaning in the chaos

Whether you’re a full-time freelancer, a weekend warrior, or someone questioning the whole damn thing, this episode isn’t about pretending. It’s about naming the mess, wrestling with it, and finding a way to keep going.

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This episode contains a referenced clip from “How to enter ‘flow state’ on command” by Steven Kotler for Big Think (Watch here) and a short excerpt (under 30 seconds) from Pixar’s Soul, used to illustrate the concept of creative flow.

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Episode Title:

Why Shapes How

On Intention, Execution, and the Lie of Objectivity

Description:

You can nail the lighting. Get the shot. Hit all the settings.

But if you don’t know why you’re making the image, it’s just visual noise.

In this episode of The Terrible Photographer Podcast, we dig into the lie at the heart of modern photography — that technical mastery is the pinnacle of the craft. It’s not. Intent is. And most people are scared of it.

We talk motorcycle maintenance, emotionally hollow images, and what happens when a “family photo session” turns into something that actually means something.

Whether you shoot portraits, weddings, branding, or weird experimental self-portraits at 2am with a desk lamp, this episode is a reminder: your camera doesn’t make meaning. You do.

Inside this episode:

• Why so many photographers stop learning once they hit “base camp”
• The family shoot example that reveals what intentional work really looks like
• The myth of photographic objectivity — and why your perspective always leaks in
• Why TikTok’s rough, real content hits harder than a polished campaign
• What separates technically perfect images from the ones that actually stick

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• Music licensed and used by permission through Artlist.io
• Episode Art Photography by Earl Wilcox – shot in Santa Barbara.

This episode wasn’t planned.

But with federal troops deployed in Los Angeles, students arrested, immigrants targeted, and journalists silenced — it felt dishonest to pretend everything was normal.

In this special essay-style episode, I explore the role of photography in moments of protest and power:

• Why the frame is never neutral
• How truth is shaped, and sometimes distorted, by the camera
• The difference between documenting and performing
• What it means to be a witness, not a tourist

I also share a powerful on-the-ground reflection from LA-based photographer @chelsealaurenla, whose words remind us that not everything makes the news, but it still matters.

If you’ve ever questioned whether photography can change anything… this one’s for you.

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At some point, every artist has to choose:

Keep making work that gets likes.

Or make work that actually says something.

This is an episode about the quiet uprising.

The moment you stop painting for the academy.

The moment you realize you’re not burned out from doing too much, you’re burned out from doing too much that means nothing.

We start with a true (and strange) story from 1863, when fourteen painters staged a creative rebellion and changed the art world forever.

And then we bring it back to you. To now.

To that feeling you get when you scroll your own grid and wonder if any of it matters.

If any of it’s even yours.

This is The Revolt.

Not with swords. With silence.

With risk.

With art that doesn’t beg for applause.

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This week, I throw out the episode I was planning and respond to an email from Carri, a baby photographer from Michigan, whose words hit like a punch in the face. We’re talking about a different kind of burnout. Not from hustle, but from creative absence. From stillness. From not getting to do the thing you love.

This is for the photographers, and all creatives, who feel the slow ache when the work dries up, and the silence gets loud. If you’ve ever questioned your worth when the gigs disappeared, this one’s for you.

This Week’s Light Leak: “The Work I Would Love to Make”

Find one image, anywhere (Pinterest, a book, a magazine, Instagram), that captures the kind of work you wish you were making if you had no restraints. No budget. No client. No algorithm to please.

Then describe it. Not visually, use words. Mood, tone, feeling, intention.

The goal isn’t to recreate the image. It’s to tap into the honesty of what you want to say through your work—whether that scares you or not.

This is where we begin.

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You ever clean your entire house and still smell something rotting?

This episode is about that. Except the smell is coming from your portfolio.

In Episode 10, we’re talking creative decay — that slow, invisible rot that sets in when your work looks good but feels dead. From personal stories (including one involving a bathtub and a topless model reading Vogue) to a breakdown of the 60/40 Rule for survival, this is a brutally honest reflection on boredom, brand, and the danger of playing it safe for too long.

We dig into:

• What happens when your “style” becomes a straitjacket
• The illusion of consistency in the age of the algorithm
• Why your safest work might be your most forgettable
• How to cheat the system and make space for personal, reckless, real creative work
• A dead rat story. Literally.

If you’ve ever looked at your own work and felt… nothing?
You’re not broken.
You’re just ready to break out.

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“Born to Become” by Maya Johnson – licensed via Artist.io
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Some nights, what keeps you up isn't anxiety, it’s the quiet ache of misalignment. In this episode, we dive into the emotional and economic toll of creative work: the burnout, the spirals, the slow erosion of joy when your art becomes your paycheck. Patrick opens up about nearly quitting photography, the paradox of making a living off your creativity, and what it really means to protect your spark in a world that constantly demands more.

We explore Rick Rubin’s philosophy of creativity as a muscle, not a resource to be drained, but a force to be nurtured. If you’ve ever felt the tension between your soul work and your client work, this one’s for you.

You’re not behind.
You’re just tired.
And that’s okay.

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Featuring music by:
🎵 Jalowo – I Can’t Sleep feat. Michi
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