In the opening episode of Season 4: The Becoming, Alyssa invites listeners into the most intimate and unraveling chapter of her journey yet—the chapter where everything begins to fall apart, and the only way forward is through.

This isn’t just a story about surgeries. It’s a reckoning.
It’s the moment when your body goes from something you can push through… to something you have to listen to.

Alyssa shares the long-overdue truth behind the pain she’s carried for years—undiagnosed, dismissed, and minimized. She talks about what it's like to live in a body that’s constantly screaming for help, only to be told to "lose weight" or "tough it out." She breaks down the physical symptoms that led to the discovery of multiple serious medical conditions, including a failing gallbladder, the need for bariatric surgery, and the shocking diagnosis of bilateral pars defects that require spinal fusion surgery.

But more than anything, this episode is about what happens when your body is in full-blown crisis mode and no one seems to see it but you.

It’s about the emotional toll of being strong for too long.
The spiritual ache of wondering if God still sees you when your body doesn’t work the way it should.
The fierce, painful decision to still show up—even when you're afraid you might not survive what's coming.

Alyssa doesn't sugarcoat the fear, the grief, or the fatigue. She honors it.
And in doing so, she offers a torch to anyone stumbling through their own darkness—reminding them that they are not alone, not crazy, and not weak for needing help.

This is the beginning of a season that will follow her step-by-step through surgery, recovery, identity, and healing—not as a tidy inspirational arc, but as the sacred mess it truly is.

🩺 This is what it looks like to become when your body is breaking.
🎧 Listen in—because healing deserves to be witnessed.