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This episode touches on grief, loss, endometriosis, fertility, and mental health. If any of these topics are close to home for you right now we hope this conversation makes you feel less alone, not more overwhelmed.

Everyone's Performing Fine. Nobody's Performing Fine. Christina Pengilly

We're all exhausted by the highlight reel.

In this episode I sit down with Christina Pengilly host of Talk Therapy.. for one of the most honest conversations I've had on this podcast.

We didn't follow a plan. We just talked. And what came out of it was exactly what this space needs more of.

Christina is someone who has lived multiple lives elite basketball player, psychology graduate, small business owner, coach, creator and she's built something real out of every single one of them. But behind the polished online presence is a woman navigating the same fears, doubts, and dysregulation that most of us are too scared to admit out loud.

This one goes deep.

In this episode we cover:

The queen of the pivot ..why Christina has never been willing to stay in something just to prove a point and what that's actually cost her

The basketball identity ... two ACL reconstructions, losing everything she thought she was at 15, and the years it took to find herself again

The psychology degree she stood on stage with and immediately knew she'd never use the traditional way

Why she built Talk Therapy right in the middle of her hardest season .. not after she figured it out

The online space and why the independent narrative is quietly wrecking relationships

Cruise what it actually looks like behind closed doors, how she shows up for him as a man, and why she refuses to speak about him any differently in rooms he's not in

Endometriosis, fertility fears, and trusting your body when everyone around you is moving into a chapter you're not sure you're ready for

The protector pattern and the moment I turned down a Brisbane Broncos contract because of one

Why 10k followers hit different even when you know your worth has nothing to do with a number

What you actually owe the people who created you

And the one takeaway she's taking into the rest of her life from today

Connect with Christina:

Instagram: @christinapengilly

Podcast: Talk Therapy , available on all platforms

Connect with Travis:

Instagram: @the.technician__

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You're Not Fucked Up. You're Protected.

Most people spend years thinking they're broken. They're not. They're just running outdated protection software from a younger version of themselves that still thinks they're in danger.

In this episode I break down the five most common protectors I see running the lives of high performers..and how they're quietly capping your money, your relationships, and your identity without you even knowing it.

We cover:

• The Peacekeeper — loved by everyone, known by no one
• The Achiever — high functioning panic attack dressed as ambition
• The Lone Wolf — strong as hell, lonely as fuck
• The Performer — charismatic mask, zero belonging
• The Controller — safe, stuck, and missing every opportunity

This isn't therapy speak. This is pattern work. And once you see these running.. you can't unsee them unfortunately my friend..

If any of this lands, share it with someone who needs to hear it.

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Grieving My Kids While They're Still Alive — Luke O'Neill

Some episodes change you. This is one of them.

Luke O'Neill is one of my closest mates ..someone I've known for over 20 years. And for the first time, he sat down and told his story publicly.

Four years ago Luke came home from work and his kids were gone. What followed was 3.5 years of family court, $180,000 in legal fees, ambiguous loss, identity collapse, and a fight to stay alive.. not for himself, but so his kids would one day know they were worth fighting for.

This episode isn't about the system that failed him. It's about the man who had everything stripped away and refused to break.

We go deep on:

• What ambiguous loss actually is ..and why it might be harder than grief
• How Luke future-paced his way through the darkest days
• What real support looks like when someone is suffering
• Why isolation can be healthy..and when it isn't
• The identity death that comes with losing your role as a father
• How love ..not anger ..became the thing that kept him going

This is the conversation men need to be having. No performance. No anger. Just the truth of what it costs to stay standing when everything is taken from you.

Part 2 is coming. There's a lot more story to tell.

If this episode hit you ..if you've been through something like this or you're in it right now ..reach out. To Luke directly at @luke_o.neill_ on Instagram. Or to me at @thetechnician — I'm always open to hearing what landed for you and what questions you want answered in Part 2.

You are not alone in this.

Trigger warning: This episode contains discussions of grief, family separation, mental health, and the emotional impact of family court on children and parents.

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This is INNERCINEMA.

Not a meditation. Not a therapy session. Not a breathing exercise with some lo-fi music underneath it.

INNERCINEMA is a full somatic experience designed to take you somewhere most personal development content is too scared to go inside. To the parts of yourself that sit underneath the achieving, the performing, and the relentless forward motion you've been calling ambition.

This episode is for the high performer who has built something real, hit real numbers, done real work on themselves and still can't shake the feeling that something is missing.

If the wins keep coming but the fullness keeps not coming ..this one is for you.

Disclaimer: This experience is intentionally intense and emotionally activating. If you're looking for a relaxing wind-down meditation this isn't it. If you're ready to crack something open press play, find somewhere quiet, close your eyes, and stay with it.

If anything comes up that feels too big to sit with alone..reach out. That's what I'm here for.

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WHAT IF YOUR DAD DIDNT HURT YOU?

What if the thing you've been carrying your whole life..the wound, the unworthiness, the need to prove yourself .. was never actually about what happened to you... but about the story your child brain made up about what happened?

This week I sat down with Mitch Hunter - physiotherapist turned meditation teacher, academic turned mystic, and one of the most grounded spiritual humans I've ever met.

Mitch has 30+ years of meditation practice, has trained in Buddhist monasteries and caves in India, worked in chronic pain at university level, and had a stabilised spiritual awakening in 2019 that completely redirected his life.

This conversation went places I didn't expect. We talked about what meditation actually is (and why most people are doing it wrong), how your nervous system holds onto experiences your conscious mind has forgotten, and why the most powerful healing tool on the planet isn't a technique, it's your own awareness.

Mitch shared the story of a childhood memory that surfaced during deep meditation.. his dad burning two sticks that meant the world to him as a 9-year-old ..and how seeing that moment through adult eyes dissolved decades of overachieving, people-pleasing, and proving his worth. No therapy. No framework. Just objective truth.

We also went deep on my own journey — a past life experience during holotropic breathwork that unlocked a shame pattern I'd carried my entire life, and how one moment of being truly seen cracked it wide open.

In this episode:

— Why concentration comes before meditation and why most people skip the step that matters most

— The difference between data and drama, and how your brain weaponizes meaning against you

— How Mitch went from physiotherapy clinic to Buddhist monasteries to a 5,000-year-old temple ceremony with 2 million people

— What actually happens in the body during a spiritual awakening (and why Mitch lost 10kg in 3 weeks)

— The one question that changes everything: "What literally happened?"

— Why the people most triggered by your truth are the ones who need you most

— How living your truth isn't about chasing peak experiences

— it's about being fully present while you take your sausage dog for a pee

This one's for the men who've done the work but still feel like something's missing underneath it all.

Connect with Mitch Hunter: Instagram: @_hunterhealing

Website: hunterhealing.com

Email: hunterhealing@gmail.com

Connect with Trav: Instagram: @thetechnician

Podcast: The Technician Podcast

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What if your anxiety isn't actually the problem but just a signal that you're performing for others instead of expressing yourself?

In this raw conversation, I sit down with voice coach Mitchell Ryan to explore shadow integration, nervous system regulation, and what it truly means to be present in a world demanding constant performance.

From childhood isolation to finding flow through music, this episode is a masterclass in authentic communication and masculine vulnerability.

You'll discover:

• The "Monster at the Pub" approach to shadow integration (game-changing)
• Why curiosity is the only real form of meditation
• How hustle culture traps you in doing energy vs. being energy
• The bullying paradigm shift that changes everything
• What happened when Travis spoke to 400 kids about depression
• Mitchell's journey from isolated kid to voice coach through music

This episode is for you if:

• You feel like you're constantly performing in conversations
• You struggle with parts of yourself you wish would disappear
• You're sick of spiritual bypassing and want practical tools
• You've been hustling hard but still feel empty
• You want shadow work without the woo-woo jargon

Key Moments

"Take Your Monster to the Pub" - Travis's shadow integration method that changed a client's life

"Curiosity is Presence" - Why you can't be curious in the future or past

The School Assembly Story - 400 kids completely engaged, and the note left on Travis's car

Mitchell's Origin - Years of isolation, one conversation about guitar, everything changed

Guest Bio

Mitchell Ryan is a voice coach and energy worker specializing in authentic expression and nervous system regulation. Find him on Instagram: @mitchellryan

Quotable Moments

"Curiosity is presence. You can't be curious in the future or the past." - Travis

"What if you went to the pub WITH your monster? He doesn't need to fight anyone—he just needs to be heard." - Travis

"When spiritual people can't explain their work simply, they don't actually understand it." - Mitchell

"You can build a multimillion-dollar business through hustle—but you'll be trapped in doing energy forever." - Mitchell

Resources Mentioned

• Alan Watts - On presence and the illusion of control
• Luhan Matus - "Whisperings of the Dragon
• The Offspring - "Come Out and Play"

Connect With Travis

🎙️ Instagram: @the.technician.au
🎙️ Work With Travis: REWIRE, Simplified Depth, Blueprint Retreats

Rate, review, and share this episode. You don't know who needs to hear this today.

Let's fucking go. Trav 🐻⚡

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She Had Everything on Paper... Here's Why She Walked Away | Pippa Martin

Six years ago, Pippa Martin had it all: the house, the car, the degree, the relationship. She was 110kg, deeply unhappy, and living someone else's dream.

Then she made a decision that changed everything.

She quit her job, sold her house, and moved to the other side of the world with someone she'd known for just three months. She lost 75 pounds, built a multi-six-figure fitness business, and lived across Thailand, Vietnam, Spain, and the UK.

But that was just her first reinvention.

Recently, she walked away from that thriving business to pursue something even more aligned with her truth.

In this conversation, we explore:

→ The moment she realized "success" was suffocating her → What it actually takes to burn your life down and start over → Why the 50/50 relationship myth is destroying partnerships → How to know when it's time to choose yourself → The real cost of following someone else's blueprint

This isn't about chasing viral moments. This is about honoring the courage it takes to become who you actually are.

If you've ever felt trapped in a life that looks perfect on paper, this episode is for you.

CONNECT WITH PIPPA: Instagram: @pippamartin

WORK WITH TRAVIS: Instagram: @thetechnician__

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• $1-3M: Power through with control
• $3-10M: Must delegate (triggers abandonment fears)
• $10M+: Leadership requires healing survival patterns