I spend devotional time in communion with the Seraphic Hosts developing in myself the superior power to cast out demons

and take dominion over the outer world of form

Blissful Inner Heat Yoga of the Fierce Goddess

is associated with the navel chakra

Dream Yoga is associated with the throat chakra

memories of the sun on his skin, the marks, the coloring left behind

their suntanned faces above finally bleached linen robes,

Sun kissed

longing for the Sun, longing for the Sun and the Moon

desire of the Moon for the Sun and Sun for the Moon

Moon kissed by the Sun, the hunger for his skin,

kissed by the Sun

the warmth of the Sun on my skin, I let myself have the yearning

I offer it up

stroking, nesting, intimacy, the joining of magnetic fields

the nesting of the male initiate

in the magnetic field of the female initiate

reproducing being in utero of the mother

I recognize this, I hold it sacred, Pure Intention

the good fortune of the female initiate

my heart grieves, my pain body cannot comprehend

that Creation could have made this mistake

I Am made for this, the training to stay awake and be the Love

tender and fierce, where there has been deep injury

Angels of Mercy and my own True Essence, teach me to see clearly

I find my home inside myself, I find my family, I find my Beloved

I ring the bell, I Am the ringing of the bell

the vibration rippling through Creation

manifestation through the Tree of Life that I Am, Wordless place

each alchemical center has an atomic configuration

electrons orbiting around central nucleus

Buddhas with their Dakinis, Seed Essence through Mandala

I watched him shoot up the heroin, except that I am not the drug

I Am the Goddess

Vajra Pride, spiritual confidence, knowing that I am the deity

this is unfathomable, the faith and trust that even though

I feel like the dead body, and I think I am the dead body

I am actually the One who resurrects the dead body

I am needed for this, this is my Prayer and my mission

take the posture

I was not really in my body, I came into my body to meet him here

and now here I am, feeling all of it

releasing every limited and confused attachment

from every cell, every thought form, every electron and every Prayer

I didn’t realize until I did

the awareness dawns slowly now and the ground shakes

Steady, girlfriend…

my penance is to take the Medicine. Cultivate the Nectar

press on the heart and belly and ride the Chariot

look up into the Face of God, my Prayer and the answer to it

the sin is that he came to the holy union with me in a profane way without fully choosing me or it, and I agreed

At-one-ment