Lama Khyen, Lama Khyen, Guru, watch over me

Let the view be as vast as the sky, descend with it,

let the conduct be as refined as the finest barley flour, ascend with it

We listen to the words of a teaching, thank you

they are someone else’s interpretations but steady, steady

no need to let the mind fixate or projections gain power

we still bow to the Inner Guru

the blessing of having a rich sexual yogic practice with your partner

the sacred consort who is a good match,

this alone does not bring you to enlightenment

but it is the profound fulfillment of one aspect of life in form

Yuthok, my deepest desires…

mind training, Lojong , body training Lujong

we can spend the day training in breath, breath in the body,

feeling in the body, the desire body,

breath in the belly, breath in the emotions, gentle here

I receive the Four Empowerments through the strength

of my commitment, the Samaya, and I pass out

of the two witnesses hold the principal one

it may all be illusion, but it is holographic

every cell, every emotional frequency of this vehicle

that’s what the body is for, blessed service

faint sunlight on new green shingles on the roof next door

my friend in the sauna yesterday said,

I’m sensitive, but I’m glad I’m not as sensitive as you.

extra slab of flesh on my belly, too much popcorn and chocolate

impulse to try to soothe through the mouth,

which only seems to inflame it. except for one thing

smell touch taste, sharing tendrils of light.

though my mouth did not inflame, my desire for him did,

a thousandfold, so be it. now I suffer the loss