When I became a mom, guilt showed up before I even made it home from the hospital. Aria came early. Tiny, fragile, and fighting. And for 23 days I watched her form behind NICU glass, feeling like my body had failed her.

This week, I'm opening up about that very first experience with mom guilt, the kind that attaches itself to your heart and whispers "you should've done more." I'll share what those 23 days taught me about surrender, self-forgiveness, and redefining what it means to be a "good mom."

If you've ever carried guilt for something you couldn't' control... this one's for you.

Take a breath mama. You're healing.

Welcome to the very first episode of Mother, May I Spill? -- a space where motherhood and healing finally meet.

In this raw and unfiltered introduction, I'm recording right from my car (because that's real mom life, right?) and opening up about what led me here -- the chaos, the trauma, the love, and the longing for community. I share what it means to be a "motherless mother," how becoming a mom revealed the unhealed parts of me I didn't even know were there, and how I'm learning to rebuild myself while raising my daughter.

If you've ever felt like you're healing and parenting at the same time, this space is for you. You're not alone, mama -- and this is just the beginning.

Welcome to Mother, May I Spill? a Podcast for Moms Healing from Trauma.