Hello, dear soul. If you are struggling with sadness, grief, anger, or deep loneliness this holiday season—especially because you've had to put up necessary boundaries with family—please know you are not alone. My heart is with you. It's okay to not feel "merry and bright" when you are dealing with real pain.

In this Christmas journal entry, I'm sharing my own experience of moving through the anger and hurt that comes from rejection and mistreatment. I also discuss my tendency as an INFP to idealize situations, and why self-love is the kindest thing you can do for yourself right now.

I see you, I hear you, and I’m sending you so much love. Hang in there.

XOXO,
Kate Harmony

📖 Journal Notes

0:00 Welcome to the Lightbearer's Library (A Message for the Lonely)
0:53 You Are Not Alone (Grief, Sadness, and Loneliness)
1:50 INFP Struggles: Idealism vs. Reality
3:19 Why Excusing Bad Behavior Hurts Your Self-Worth
4:45 Honoring Your Own Feelings: Why I'm Done Pretending
5:33 Dealing with Family Anger at Christmas
6:36 Processing Anger as a Stage of Grief
7:07 Self-Love: Protecting Yourself with Boundaries
7:49 Emotional Containment (The Plexiglass Analogy)
9:34 Hang In There, Dear Soul

🌿 About Kate Harmony 🌿

My main channel (Hack Music Theory) has over 250K subscribers and 10 million views. I've been a full-time YouTuber since 2017 and launched this personal channel (Lightbearer's Library) in 2025, where I'm making video versions of my journal entries.

Some of my favourite topics to talk about are practical philosophy, positive psychology, and personality type (I'm an INFP). But honestly, my journals contain counter-cultural thoughts about everything, so expect the unexpected! I also share practical ways I'm improving my mental health, with the hope that you might find them useful too.

I deleted all my social media accounts over 10 years ago, so I offer a loving perspective that's free from the divisive language commonly found in feeds nowadays.

If this sounds like your cup of tea, then I warmly welcome you into the Lightbearer's Library. Stay for a while, and please remember to subscribe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV2wps4NID9rrO08OuwZ5Lg?sub_confirmation=1

Are you struggling with anger that seems to be poisoning your mental, physical and energetic fields?

You're not alone, dear soul. In today's journal entry, I’m sharing how to navigate intense emotions through the "age-old" method of blasting metal music!

Song mentioned in the video:
At the Bottom by Leprous @leprouschannel
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T-Fa84wau4g

✨What is one song—heavy or not—that helps you move emotional energy through your body? Let me know in the comments below :)

Next ▶️
In [ Music soothes the soul: Grief playlist guide ], I dive into the discussion of why your daily soundtrack is programming your mind and shaping your mental health. Watch here: https://youtu.be/LOFs27Qt6PM

XOXO,
Kate Harmony

📖 Journal Notes
0:00 Welcome to the Lightbearer's Library
0:45 The Danger of Internalized Anger (Self-Anger)
2:04 Heavy Music for Emotional Release: Viewer Question
3:00 My Unexpected Tool: Blast Metal Music for Anger
4:32 Leprous Lyrics: Finding Inner Strength at the Bottom
6:08 The Practice of Infinite Forgiveness (70x7)
7:24 Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Your Anger
10:00 The Ultimate Litmus Test for True Forgiveness
11:09 Final Thoughts & Asking for Your Songs

#angerrelease #forgiveness #metalmusictherapy #emotionalhealth #shadowwork #introvert #lightbearerslibrary #journaling #emotionalhealing #personalgrowth #spiritualjourney

🌿 About Kate Harmony 🌿

My main channel (Hack Music Theory) has over 250K subscribers and 10 million views. I've been a full-time YouTuber since 2017 and launched this personal channel (Lightbearer's Library) in 2025, where I'm making video versions of my journal entries.

Some of my favourite topics to talk about are practical philosophy, positive psychology, and personality type (I'm an INFP). But honestly, my journals contain counter-cultural thoughts about everything, so expect the unexpected! I also share practical ways I'm improving my mental health, with the hope that you might find them useful too.

I deleted all my social media accounts over 10 years ago, so I offer a loving perspective that's free from the divisive language commonly found in feeds nowadays.

If this sounds like your cup of tea, then I warmly welcome you into the Lightbearer's Library. Stay for a while, and please remember to subscribe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV2wps4NID9rrO08OuwZ5Lg?sub_confirmation=1

The power to kindle the light within and stop the downward spiral into darkness is all about consciously choosing what we focus on. This is the only thing we truly control.

In this journal entry, we explore a transformative practice that can change your life, without having to change anything else. The practice of choosing what you place your attention on.

Have you noticed how much time you spend dwelling on the dark? That is time and energy you could be using to build self-trust and healthy habits. Join me as we discover how to:

- Recognize when we're dwelling on darkness and how to gently guide our minds back to the light.
- Understand why positive thinking is a daily habit, not an avoidance of reality.
- Cultivate light-bearing through simple practices like mindful meditation and breath awareness.
- Encourage ourselves to cut out negative inputs (news, social media) that drain our mental health.

This isn't about ignoring the bad; it's about valuing your soul enough to choose the path of spiraling upwards. Are you ready to make that choice?

✨ If this message resonated with you and you're ready to kindle the light within, reply with a 🌞 (sun emoji) in the comments below.

Next ▶️
In "Stop quitting your goals, change your identity" (https://youtu.be/Snq4f3Jr-VM) I dive into the foundational identity work necessary to not give up on your goals, reinforcing how the light-focus habit helps you build the self-trust needed for lasting change.

XOXO,
Kate Harmony

📖 Journal Notes

0:00 Solstice Reflection: Light vs. Darkness
0:52 Your Attention is the One Thing You Control
2:52 Breaking the Downward Spiral
4:45 Why Positive Thinking is a Habit, Not a Lie
7:20 Simple Meditation: Cultivating Presence
9:02 Breath Awareness & Grounding
9:52 Listen to Peaceful Music
10:29 Cutting Negative Inputs (Social Media & News)
11:35 Why Self-Trust is the First Step

#consciousfocus #mindsetshift #personaldevelopment #spiritualpractice #mindfulness #healingjourney #selfcompassion #selfcare #mentalhealth #solstice #dailymeditation #introvert #lightbearerslibrary #journaling #selfhelp

🌿 About Kate Harmony 🌿

My main channel (Hack Music Theory) has over 250K subscribers and 10 million views. I've been a full-time YouTuber since 2017 and launched this personal channel (Lightbearer's Library) in 2025, where I'm making video versions of my journal entries.

Some of my favourite topics to talk about are practical philosophy, positive psychology, and personality type (I'm an INFP). But honestly, my journals contain counter-cultural thoughts about everything, so expect the unexpected! I also share practical ways I'm improving my mental health, with the hope that you might find them useful too.

I deleted all my social media accounts over 10 years ago, so I offer a loving perspective that's free from the divisive language commonly found in feeds nowadays.

If this sounds like your cup of tea, then I warmly welcome you into the Lightbearer's Library. Stay for a while, and please remember to subscribe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCV2wps4NID9rrO08OuwZ5Lg?sub_confirmation=1