Ever wondered how someone goes from addiction to ministry leadership? In this deeply personal episode, I share my raw, unfiltered testimony for the first time publicly. After introducing listeners to my family background in previous episodes featuring my mom, I now pull back the curtain on my own journey—from being raised in a multi-generational pastor's family to my struggles with identity, addiction, and finding my own faith.
My story doesn't follow a neat, predictable path. I share candidly about battling same-sex attraction from childhood, experiencing sexual assault in college, an unplanned pregnancy, and years of marijuana addiction. Through tears, I reveal how God spoke to me during my pregnancy, promising that my daughter would be "the ram in my bush"—the very thing that would save me from self-destruction.
The turning point came when my body began rejecting marijuana after years of heavy use. In that moment of forced sobriety, I heard the Holy Spirit whisper, "It's something that you did, it's not who you are." This profound revelation exposed one of the enemy's most effective tactics—connecting sin to identity. The journey from there wasn't easy, but through Christian community and small groups, I found healing, accountability, and a path toward serving in ministry.
This testimony speaks to anyone caught between kingdom values and cultural pressures. If you're struggling to break free from addiction, identity confusion, or past trauma, know that God hasn't given up on you. Your darkest moments can become the backdrop for His most powerful redemption story. What He has for you isn't necessarily easier, but I promise it's better than anything culture offers.