In this episode of the Just for Today podcast, Adriana sits down with Amanda to hear her incredible story of addiction, survival, and recovery. What started as secretly abusing pills while working in a pharmacy spiraled into a full-blown heroin addiction that consumed her and her two sisters.

At rock bottom, living in chaos under her parents' roof, Amanda wrote a desperate letter to the Dr. Phil show. Two years later, she received the call that would change everything. Amanda gives a raw, behind-the-scenes account of the show's producers filming their lives, the emotional on-air confrontation, and the life-altering moment she walked off set and into treatment. Now, 11 years sober, married with two kids, and both of her sisters also in recovery, Amanda's journey is a powerful testament to the fact that recovery is possible, even when it feels hopeless.

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Grief, addiction, and motherhood collide in one of Adriana’s most vulnerable conversations yet. Answering listeners’ toughest questions, she traces Eric’s relapse from heroin to fentanyl, the everyday tells she missed at first—long “gas station” runs, restless energy, and a different cadence in his voice—and the moment a hidden wrapper shattered her denial. She recounts how she chose clear, concrete language to explain death to her kids, and why “passed away” felt more confusing than kind.

Adriana speaks candidly about the limits of love in the face of addiction, why ultimatums didn’t work, and how her experience with a non-abusive, high-functioning partner may differ from those in unsafe relationships. She opens a difficult window into her children’s grief—openhearted talks, sudden public tears, anger seeking a safe outlet—and her own guilt from surviving while parenting. Finally, she shares the controversial choice to leave California—and her nearby parents—to return to Arizona, prioritizing mental health, stability, and a sense of home over proximity to support.

Content warning: discussions of addiction, overdose, and children processing death.

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In this deeply personal and unfiltered episode of Just for Today, host Adriana Sansam opens up about her experience with ketamine-assisted therapy after years of battling depression, postpartum struggles, and the devastating loss of her husband, Eric. Adriana shares why traditional antidepressants stopped working, what led her to try ketamine, and exactly what the sessions were like, from the IV setup and music to the vivid, Space Mountain-like visuals and emotional breakthroughs.

She speaks candidly about revisiting childhood trauma, processing grief, finding unexpected forgiveness, and how ketamine created “space” between her and her pain, helping her build new habits, show up more patiently as a mom, and move from “Why me?” to “What now?” Adriana also covers the practical side: session structure, recovery time, maintenance, cost, and why doing the work afterward matters just as much as the medicine.

If you’re curious about ketamine therapy for depression, PTSD, anxiety, grief, or addiction, or you’re simply seeking hope when nothing else seems to help, this episode offers a grounded, compassionate, and honest look at what healing can really feel like.

Highlights:

• What ketamine therapy is (and isn’t), and how it promotes neuroplasticity

• The exact structure of Adriana’s 6-session protocol and how each one felt

• Processing childhood abuse, grief, and anger, and finding acceptance

• The immediate next-day shift: energy, routines, and relief from the “bed gravity”

• Parenting after loss: more patience, less panic

• The realities: cost, timelines, upkeep, and integration beyond the clinic

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⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING

If you or someone you know is struggling with loss, please know you're not alone. This conversation contains mature themes about death, grief, addiction, overdose, and trauma.

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