I pulled this one from the archives. This conversation with my friend Ryan Carter was recorded more than a year ago. At the time, I wasn’t sure if I’d share it. Was my relationship ready for it? Was there enough here to make it worth posting? I kept coming back to it. And honestly, the timing couldn’t be more appropriate. I needed to hear what I said back then, because I’ve fallen into the exact pattern I’m calling out in this episode.This one is about what marriage actually demands from us. The kind of personal growth few other things require. It brings up the wounds we might otherwise avoid and forces us to either face them or settle for something less.We talked about learning to communicate, rebuilding trust, staying emotionally present, and the pressure of being providers without going numb. For men, that often means not withdrawing, not checking out, not losing ourselves in anger, and not silencing what we really feel just to keep the peace. For women, it can show up as stepping into control mode, trying to manage the relationship instead of staying open to receive. Both patterns create distance.The real work in a relationship is staying present within it. That’s what this conversation is about. Two friends being honest about what it takes to grow through the hard stuff.See you on the other side,Eli

In this episode, I sat down with Jack Cohen, Head of Jewish Education at Hebrew Academy high school in Miami Beach, to talk about what it really takes to lead and educate in today’s world. Jack didn’t come from the typical background—he grew up outside the traditional Jewish system and found his way into it later, which gives him a different lens. Where most people see a tug-of-war between individuality and tradition, Jack doesn’t. He sees them as deeply connected, even dependent on each other—and once he explains it, I doubt you’ll be able to see it any other way. His whole life and message are about harmony—Tiferet in its truest sense. Not by accident, but through both the circumstances life handed him and the intentional choices he’s leaned into. He roots his ideas in Torah, in higher education, and in real-world experience. It’s not just talk—it’s integrated, lived. And what an appropriate time to release this conversation—during the Sefira cycle of Tiferet, when balance, truth, and beauty are at the center. We talked identity, mental health, humility, and what it means to lead without ego. Grounded, honest, and refreshingly unpolished.See you on the other side,Eli

This one’s close to home—and it feels urgent, especially for Jewish teens right now.I sat down with Saadiah Klein to talk about something a lot of people don’t want to touch: Porn. It’s everywhere. Quiet, constant, and doing real damage. Saadiah shares his story—starting from the first time he got exposed—and we talk about how easy access through tech is messing with our heads, hearts, and connection to something deeper.I’ve spoken about porn addiction before, but what Saadiah shares is something completely different. We’re 20 years apart—and the gap is massive. I was already in my 20s when the iPhone came out. He grew up with one in his hand. That changes everything. The speed, the access, the intensity—it’s a whole different beast.This isn’t just about right and wrong. It’s about what happens when we forget who we are. When fake connection starts replacing the real thing. When we lose touch with ourselves, with each other, with God.If you’re a teen, a parent, or just trying to find something real in a world full of noise—this one’s for you.See you on the other side,Eli

In this episode of In Search of More, I sit down with my brother and friend Omar Pinto. We just got back from a men’s retreat, and honestly, we’re still in it—raw, cracked open, figuring it out in real time. We talk about what happens when men actually have space to move, to feel, to drop the act and remember who they are underneath it all. Omar shares his path—addiction, ayahuasca, emotional sobriety, real growth. Not the Instagram version. The kind that costs you something. At one point, Omar talks about a decision he made after a powerful ayahuasca experience—he started drinking again, convinced he was no longer an addict. Three years later, the truth of that choice has come into focus, and he doesn’t shy away from what that reckoning looked like. We get into fatherhood, childhood wounds, old stories we didn’t even know we were still carrying. The quiet ways we check out. And what it takes to come back.

This one’s an invitation—to feel more, hide less, and lead from your gut even when it scares you to the core. If you’re on the path, or trying to be, this one’s for you.

See you on the other side,

Eli

In this episode of In Search of More, I sit down with Levi Shmotkin for a conversation that felt less like an interview and more like a farbrengen—a raw, real, and deeply honest exchange about what it means to grow, to heal, and to live with purpose. We touched on the teachings of the Rebbe, our personal stories, and how the descent—yeridah letzorech aliyah—is often where the real work begins. We didn’t shy away from the hard stuff: addiction, isolation, the pain that comes with family, and the complicated process of reconnecting with yourself and with others.What I appreciated most was how naturally the conversation moved between Chassidic ideas and real-world experience. We spoke about how healing doesn’t mean escaping life, but learning how to show up fully within it—through practices like Shabbat, through structure, through community, and most importantly, through truth. This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt stuck between who they were raised to be and who they’re becoming. If you’re on a path of healing, this one will speak to you.Eli Nash

In this episode of In Search of More, Eli Nash sits down with Moshe Haim Srour for a heartfelt, honest, and at times deeply emotional conversation about what it really means to heal. They talk about everything from childhood trauma and the lasting impact of CPTSD to the daily challenge of showing up for yourself and the people you love. Moshe Haim shares openly about his own journey—how practices like breathwork, deep self-reflection, and leaning into community have helped him come back to himself. They also touch on parenting, and how being present with your kids—really present, not just doing things but being with them—is one of the most healing things you can offer. This episode feels like sitting in on two old friends catching up, unpacking big truths with rawness, laughter, and a whole lot of heart. It’s about trust, connection, and the slow, beautiful work of becoming whole again.

In this episode of In Search of More, Eli Nash sits down with Bassy Kutten for a heartfelt and deeply personal conversation about her journey—from growing up in the tight-knit community of New Square to bravely speaking out about her past experiences of abuse. Bassy opens up about the emotional challenges of processing her trauma, the struggle of reconciling her childhood memories with difficult truths, and the importance of allowing herself to fully feel and heal. Together, they explore the complexities of family dynamics, the weight of silence, and the ongoing path toward self-acceptance and self-care.

Beyond Bassy’s personal story, the discussion expands into the broader cultural challenges surrounding abuse, particularly within Jewish communities. Eli and Bassy take an honest look at why survivors often struggle to find support, how societal biases shape responses to abuse, and the difficult but necessary work of shifting these conversations. They also touch on the role of psychedelics in healing, the impact of spirituality, and the power of open dialogue in creating lasting change. This episode is a moving, thought-provoking, and ultimately hopeful exploration of resilience, truth, and the courage to break cycles of silence.

In this episode of In Search of More, Eli Nash sits down with Rav Avshi Weingot to explore the intersection of personal spirituality and Jewish mysticism, particularly through the lens of the Remak and Kabbalah. They discuss the relevance of Kabbalistic teachings in modern life, touching on themes of identity, trauma, and the pursuit of deeper meaning. Rav Avshi emphasizes the importance of joy and authenticity in spiritual practice, advocating for a connection to faith rooted in love rather than obligation. The conversation also delves into the balance between tradition and personal growth, highlighting how struggles can serve as pathways to transformation and deeper connection with the divine.