Sometimes we find ourselves in a lose-lose situation, a place we know that we aren't supposed to be, that we know isn't quite right. Sometimes, we choose to stay anyways.

"My Kobayashi Maru" is the story of my realizations around lose-lose situations, what staying in them costs us, and what we can do when we end up in one.

In this episode, I step back from the narrative (gotta build that tension!) and introduce myself properly. Not the polished version, just the real one. ADHD, anxiety, attachment wounds, and CPTSD all shape the way I move through the world, and they shape the story I’m telling here.

I talk about what it means to start a podcast from the middle of a life collapse, why my brain operates in patterns and hypervigilance, and why the title I Hope I’m Wrong captures the way so many of us live: hoping the bad signs aren’t what we think they are, even when they usually are.

This episode is about connection, honesty, and learning to speak your story out loud... even when it scares the hell out of you.

Welcome to the beginning of this whole thing. This episode isn’t about heartbreak so much as the moments before heartbreak... the slow-building warning signs we pretend aren’t there, the excuses we make for people we care about, the tiny ways we lose ourselves a little at a time.