What do you do when God feels silent, prayers feel unanswered, and everyone else seems to be receiving the blessing you've been waiting for? In this deeply honest episode, Bekah and Pastor Lisa unpack what it truly means to trust God in seasons of disappointment, waiting, grief, and uncertainty. From miscarriages and delayed prayers to surrendering control and learning how to celebrate others while still hurting yourself, this conversation is raw, vulnerable, healing, and full of hope. If you've ever asked God,"Why not me?", this episode is for you.

In this new six-week series, Bekah and Pastor Lisa dive into the difficult yet transformative journey of trusting God, especially when life doesn't make sense. Together, they share personal stories about strained relationships, waiting seasons, miscarriage, emotional healing, and learning how to surrender control to God. Through stories of Hannah, Hagar, and Job, they remind listeners that trusting God isn't always pretty; sometimes it looks like crying in your closet, wrestling with disappointment, and choosing faith even when your heart is hurting.

Pastor Lisa reflects on waiting 9 years to conceive, while Bekah opens up about miscarriage, delayed prayers, and how God taught her to celebrate others while still waiting for her own miracle.

This episode is a reminder that:

• Trust isn't transactional.
• Waiting seasons can grow your faith the deepest.
• God sees you in your pain.
• Peace comes from returning to Him again and again.

Whether you're waiting for healing, restoration, a breakthrough, provision, or a promise, this conversation will encourage you to keep trusting God, even when you don't understand the process.

00:00 – Introduction

Bekah introduces the new six-week series Conversations With My Mother and today's topic:

trusting God even when you don't understand it.

01:00 – Trusting God Through Relationships & Family

Pastor Lisa shares how trust impacts parenting, marriage, friendships, and relationships through

every season of life.

02:50 – Growing Into Mature Conversations

Bekah reflects on how her relationship with her mother evolved over time and the importance of

maturity in communication.

04:40 – What Trusting God Really Looks Like

Pastor Lisa explains that trusting God means stepping into the unknown without knowing the

outcome.

07:30 – Trusting God During Waiting Seasons

Discussion about unanswered prayers, disappointment, confusion, and learning to trust God

when life feels uncertain.

13:50 – Pastor Lisa's 9-Year Waiting Season

Pastor Lisa vulnerably shares her infertility journey and how God strengthened her during the

wait.

18:46 – Pretending to Trust vs Actually Surrendering

Bekah opens up about struggling privately while publicly saying she trusted God.

30:00 – Miscarriage, Grief & Choosing Celebration

Bekah shares her miscarriage story and how God challenged her to celebrate other women's

pregnancies despite her pain.

38:52 –

"One Day You Will Understand.

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Pastor Lisa encourages listeners that delayed blessings often deepen gratitude and

appreciation once they arrive.

41:18 – Prayer for Those in the Waiting

Pastor Lisa prays over everyone currently waiting for healing, breakthrough, restoration, or

answered prayers.

43:07 – ClosingBekah closes the episode and encourages listeners to like, share, subscribe, and continue

following the series.

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Throwing it way back this episode holds a special kind of weight.

This marks the very first time Bekah and Pastor Lisa came together for a podcast conversation, diving into a question many people quietly wrestle with: what does it truly mean to be all in with God?

Not halfway. Not casually showing up. But living fully immersed in faith.

Through a powerful and relatable picture of jumping in headfirst despite fear, hesitation, or uncertainty, this episode challenges listeners to move beyond the edge and into full surrender.

For anyone who has ever felt stuck, distracted, or unsure about taking that next step with God, this conversation offers both perspective and encouragement.

Watch now you won't regret it.

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0:00 - Welcome & opening prayer
1:00 - Arise 2018 intro - "You're gonna laugh, cry & have Aha God moments"
2:00 - Breaking the ice: the lady next to you really likes you
3:00 - How Arise started from a whisper God gave Lisa at Hillsong Sydney
4:00 - A prophet in Australia sends a vision for the conference
5:00 - "This is the 8th year and it feels different" - sensing something new
6:00 - The labor pains before the conference (it's giving birth energy
7:00 - Theme revealed: IMMERSED - and God already flooded the island
8:00 - What does it mean to be fully immersed? All in. No halfway.
9:00 - Romans 13:14 - clothe yourself fully in Jesus
10:00 - Galatians 2:20 - dying to your old self through full immersion
11:00 - Lisa's pool confession: "I never put my head in the water"
12:00 - Extensions, hair days & all the excuses we make not to get in
13:00 - The video of Lisa actually jumping in (her shirt went up
14:00 - What it felt like to finally go under - and what God showed her
15:00 - "'Can you imagine what we could do for the kingdom if we were ALL in?"
16:00 - The kind of team God is calling us to be - united, competing together
17:00 - Why so many of us aren't fully all in with Jesus
18:00 - John 4: He is the living water - why we need to immerse in Him
19:00 - What's holding us back: doubt, trust, not feeling good enough
20:00 - Lisa's testimony: the broken relationship that led her to God
21:00 - The 5-minute prayer that got answered with a phone call
22:00 - "God, if I give you my life, will you bring my boyfriend back?"
23:00 - The year she tested the waters & gave God a deadline
24:00 - "I went all in and never looked back" - what full immersion produced
25:00 - Sheila Walsh quote: stop standing on the edge of the water of life
26:00 - Eliminating excuses - lashes, hair, breathing & "Christians are weird"
27:00 - God always throws us a life ring when we feel like we're drowning
28:00 - God has your back when you jump in not knowing what's underneath
29:00 - Isaiah 43:19 - God is doing a new thing, plunge in
30:00 - Raising the next generation to love Jesus (the kids' church years
31:00 - Introducing Bekah - "she has her own fan base"
32:00 - Bekah's story begins: turning 21 & what God was preparing her for
33:00 - The college years, watching from afar & praying every night
34:00 - The moment Bekah chose God over her friend group
35:00 - God's word for Bekah: "preparation" - two years in a row
36:00 - Pastor Leanne's prophecy over Bekah at Arise: "you'll be like your parents"
37:00 - Finding her people: aligning with those going the same direction
38:00 - Posting her devos on Instagram - and the DMs that started flooding in
39:00 - A guy friend asks her to breakfast to ask about God
40:00 - "God told me to start a connect group - next week" - and she did it
41:00 - Lisa reflects: "She was the prime definition of a lukewarm Christian"
42:00 - How do we reach a generation that loves God but isn't fully in?
43:00 - Why Bekah wanted the Bible study outside the church building
44:00 - Bekah's two scriptures: Luke 1:45 & Habakkuk 2:3
45:00 - "You cannot be lukewarm - your purpose is tied to full immersion"
46:00 - A word to the moms: keep praying, keep believing, it will come to pass
47:00 - Lisa's closing charge: I felt like a coach - I need you ALL in
48:00 - Bobbie Houston, Lisa Bevere & the women pouring into this movement
49:00 - Final call: don't be a half Christian - jump all the way in
50:00 - Closing prayer: "Help us immerse all in and hear how much You love us"

Are you truly living like you're engaged to Jesus... or just

casually connected?

In this episode of the I AM HER Podcast, Pastor Lisa Kai and Bekah dive into the powerful analogy of engagement, both in relationships and in our walk with Christ. From hilarious proposal stories to deep spiritual truths, this conversation will challenge you to examine how you're living in the "waiting season."

This isn't just about waiting... It's about preparing.

Whether you've just said "yes" to Jesus or you've been walking with Him for years, this episode will stir your heart to live with urgency, devotion, and purpose.

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00:00 – Welcome + podcast banter
00:55 – Engagement topic introduction 01:24 – Ice cream sundae proposal story 04:37 – Beach surprise proposal
11:19 – Engaged to Jesus: the bigger picture 12:10 – Preparing as the bride
13:46 – Jewish wedding traditions explained 16:28 – Your first "yes" to Jesus
17:01 – Waiting with purpose (Part 1)
17:40 – Waiting with purpose (Part 2)
18:44 – Lessons in preparation

20:04 – Warning against casual faith
21:40 – Jesus prepares a place for us
23:38 – Wedding planning & spiritual parallels 25:12 – Undivided devotion to God
28:32 – Inviting others to the wedding feast 31:28 – Keeping your lamp full
34:33 – You need your own oil
37:57 – Encouragement + closing prayer