In this week’s episode of I’ll Start, Victoria shares her story of depression, anxiety, and the quiet belief that she is a burden. A season of college transition left her feeling disconnected from friends, failing classes, and stuck in a cycle of numbness, panic, and loneliness. On the outside she kept showing up, but on the inside she wondered if anyone saw her, or if she even mattered to God.

One night in church, a sermon left her feeling exposed instead of comforted. As she tried to slip out unseen, a woman stopped her to pray and spoke specific words of truth that confronted the lies in her mind, “You are seen. You are loved. Do not give up.” After Victoria’s story, Heather talks about attachment ruptures, how loneliness and broken connection can register as danger in the brain, and why that can create a perfect storm of depression, panic, and withdrawal. Morgan reflects on how we often transfer our experiences with people onto God, what Scripture says about truth setting us free, and the courage it takes to let ourselves be truly seen in community.

Key Takeaways

• Attachment ruptures and changing relationships can fuel loneliness and become a setup for anxiety and depression
• Our brains can interpret emotional disconnection as physical danger, which can trigger fight, flight, or freeze responses
• Shame says “I am the problem,” and often makes truth feel exposing instead of comforting
• God often uses safe, courageous people to “co-regulate” us and speak truth into the lies we carry
• Healing usually starts with one brave step, telling the truth about what we are feeling and letting someone in

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

In this week’s episode of I’ll Start, Adam shares his honest story of anxiety, depression, loss, and the pressure to “hold it together” when life comes apart. What began as childhood fear became a quiet companion in adulthood, and a miscarriage brought every unspoken worry to the surface. As a pastor, Adam felt the weight of being strong for everyone else while silently unraveling inside.

After his story, Heather unpacks how fear and grief live in the body—and why naming our experience is a crucial step toward relief. Morgan reflects on the “why, God?” moments of faith and reminds us that God meets us in our honesty, not in our performance.

Key Takeaways

• Childhood fear often resurfaces in adulthood when life hits hard • Grief that goes unspoken can turn into anxiety, shame, or withdrawal • Naming your experience is a powerful first step toward healing • Anger, confusion, and “why” questions do not disqualify your faith

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

In this episode of I’ll Start, Hannah shares what it’s like to live inside a mind that won’t turn off. From childhood panic attacks to compulsions that made everyday moments like church, Target runs, and dinners with friends feel impossible, she names the shame, fear, and exhaustion of living with OCD. Heather unpacks radical acceptance and the Both/And mindset—learning to say, “This is hard, and I’m not alone.” Morgan reflects on Psalm 34:18 and reminds us that God is close to the brokenhearted, even when the struggle doesn’t go away.

Key Takeaways:

• Radical acceptance asks us to name our pain as the starting point for growth. • The Both/And mindset helps us hold two concepts at once: “I’m struggling, and I can still take a step forward.” • God’s presence is not measured by our circumstances; He meets us in the middle of our reality, not after it’s all resolved.

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

In the Season 2 premiere of I’ll Start, Dustin shares his honest journey through addiction, recovery, and faith. A high-school injury led to years of alcoholism and secrecy, but connection and grace changed everything. Heather unpacks shame resilience—the mental-health tool that helps us move from hiding to healing—while Morgan reflects on Psalm 40 and reminds us that confession is for our hearts, not God’s memory.

Key Takeaways:

• Shame cannot survive empathy.

• Healing begins in safe, judgment-free connection.

• God meets us in the pit and lifts us out.

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

We’re back! Season 2 of I’ll Start launches October 21! Join Heather, Morgan, and Fred as they share what’s ahead: more stories of mental health and faith, honest conversations about courage and healing, and a reminder that your story matters.

This sneak peek dives into what it means to integrate Scripture and psychology, to hold both faith and evidence-based tools with integrity, and to build a bridge where hope lives in both. If you’ve ever heard “you just need to pray harder” or “mental health struggles mean weak faith,” this season is for you.

What to look for this season:

1. Real stories of anxiety, OCD, trauma, and addiction
2. Faith-filled conversations that don’t shy away from hard questions
3. Hope, empathy, and a safe space to say “I’ll start.”

Season 2 premieres October 21. Follow I’ll Start wherever you listen to podcasts and be part of the community that’s sharing, listening, and connecting faith and mental health — one story at a time.

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

In this Season 1 finale of I’ll Start, Heather, Morgan, and Fred sit down—this time with all three mics on—to reflect on how the podcast began, what they’ve learned, and what happened behind the scenes.

They answer listener questions, talk about when it’s time to seek help, and share how faith and vulnerability shaped the season. It’s honest, hopeful, and the perfect way to close out Season 1.

If you’re struggling with depression, you’re not alone. Here are some trusted resources that can offer support, guidance, and hope;

Crisis Support & Hotlines: • 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – Call or text 988 (Available 24/7 in the U.S.) | 988lifeline.org • Crisis Text Line – Text HOME to 741741 for free, 24/7 support | crisistextline.org • National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) Helpline – Call 1-800-950-NAMI (6264) or text “HelpLine” to 62640 | nami.org/help • SAMHSA National Helpline (Substance Abuse & Mental Health Services) – Call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) | samhsa.gov

Faith-Based Support: • GriefShare – Support groups for those struggling with loss | griefshare.org • Focus on the Family Counseling – Free one-time consultations with licensed counselors | Call 1-855-771-HELP (4357) | focusonthefamily.com • Find a Christian Counselor – aacc.net (American Association of Christian Counselors)

Therapy & Mental Health Resources: • Psychology Today’s Therapist Finder – Find a licensed therapist near you | psychologytoday.com/us/therapists • Open Path Collective – Affordable therapy options | openpathcollective.org • To Write Love on Her Arms – Mental health resources & encouragement | twloha.com/find-help • BetterHelp – Online therapy platform | betterhelp.com Community & Self-Help: • Celebrate Recovery – Christ-centered support groups for mental health and addiction | celebraterecovery.com • The Mighty – An online mental health community | themighty.com • National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) – Reliable information on depression | nimh.nih.gov • Crisis Text Line: Text HELLO to 741741 (24/7, free, confidential) • Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.): Dial 988 • National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): https://www.nami.org/help or call 1-800-950-NAMI

You don’t have to do this alone. If you’re struggling, please reach out to a trusted friend, pastor, or therapist. You are not meant to carry this burden by yourself—there are people who care and want to support you. Asking for help is a brave and powerful step toward healing.

One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

This is Brian's story.

What happens when the version of success you were chasing no longer works? In this vulnerable episode, Brian shares how a season of depression led to a deeper, more honest version of his calling. As a young man in ministry, Brian wanted to be the hero—but over time, he discovered that connection comes not from perfection, but from shared struggle.

This episode explores how pride can keep us isolated, how vulnerability builds connection, and what it means to surrender to God’s voice in the quiet.

Themes:

Pride, vulnerability, depression, ministry, mental health, calling, faith, identity, healing, connection

Key Resources & Reflections:

• Isaiah 30:15 – “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength…”

• Psalm 46:10 – “Be still and know that I am God.”

• Conversation around defense mechanisms, emotional avoidance, and the difference between connection and performance

• Reflection on the spiritual formation that happens in seasons of struggle

• Prompt for listeners: Where do you connect more with the struggler or the hero?

We want to hear from you! We’re preparing a special Season One finale episode—and we’d love to include your voice. Send us your questions, thoughts, or reflections at info@illstartpodcast.com

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One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

Someone needs to start the conversation.

Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.