Lies, cheating, broken trust, and everybody in your business. But through all the bullshit, that person still feels like home.

Big Smash gets personal about love, hypocrisy, forgiveness, and fighting for a relationship you might be helping destroy.

Are you really fixing what’s broken, or just refusing to let go?

Sometimes fixing the relationship starts with fixing yourself.

🎙️ I’ll Explain All This Later

Big Smash is getting into leadership, trust, submission, boundaries, and family loyalty. What happens when the family you came from starts interfering with the family you’re building?

Everybody wants someone they can follow, but can you trust their leadership when you don’t agree with their decisions?

Because leading ain’t controlling, and following ain’t always agreeing.

I’ll Explain All This Later

Everybody depends on the strong one until the strong one starts running out of strength.

This episode is about the weight of always being the person who handles it the relationship, the kids, the family, the bills, the problems, the pressure, all of it.

Because sometimes you don’t need more advice or another responsibility. Sometimes you just need somebody to realize you’re tired too.

Being dependable doesn’t mean being unlimited.

What happens when both people are tired, both people are contributing, and somehow both still feel unseen?

In Episode 4 of I’ll Explain All This Later, Big Smash and Chan break down the weight people carry in relationships money, kids, housework, planning, emotional support, family responsibilities, intimacy, and all the invisible things that keep life moving.

Because sometimes the problem isn’t that your partner does nothing.

Sometimes you’re both carrying a lot you just don’t realize how heavy the other person’s load is.

How do you miss somebody you’re still with?

In Episode 3 of I’ll Explain All This Later, Big Smash talks about what happens when the love is still there, but the relationship starts feeling too routine. This isn’t about wanting somebody new—it’s about wanting something new with the person you already chose.

Because sometimes you don’t miss the person.

You miss the intention, the effort, the curiosity, and the version of “us” that got lost in everyday life.

How much does your partner really need to know about you?

In Episode 2 of I’ll Explain All This Later, Big Smash takes the conversation from personal space to personal privacy. If you’re allowed to have time that belongs to you, are you also allowed to have parts of your past, thoughts, conversations, and experiences that stay yours?

This episode digs into privacy vs. secrecy, phone access, past relationships, old mistakes, personal boundaries, and the difference between being honest and giving somebody complete access to your life.

Because there’s a difference between hiding something that can affect the relationship… and simply believing not everything has to be explained.

Does loving somebody give them the right to know everything about you?

Make your choice.

Can you be completely in love with somebody and still need time away from them? In the Season 5 premiere of I’ll Explain All This Later, Big Smash tackles the uncomfortable truth about loving your relationship while still loving your own space, freedom, and peace.

When a simple request for a day alone gets interpreted as rejection, Smash has a choice to make—and he’ll have to explain why he made it. We’re talking me time vs. quality time, independence vs. neglect, missing parts of single life without wanting to be single, and whether you can give your partner the same freedom you expect for yourself.

Because sometimes you don’t need space from your relationship…

You just need space from being needed.

Make your choice. Then explain it later.

This season we talked about love, loyalty, temptation, protection, parenting, friendships, mistakes, pain, and growth.

But for the finale, the focus turns inward.

After everything life put you through… did it make you wiser, stronger, colder, more guarded, or more honest with yourself?

This episode is about the lessons we paid for, the people we outgrew, the mistakes that changed us, and the moments that forced us to become somebody new.

Because surviving the experience is only half the story.

The real question is…

After everything… who did you become?