エピソード

  • Reverend Jide Macaulay: Faith, Freedom, Fellowship

    Reverend Jide Macaulay: Faith, Freedom, Fellowship
    2026/08/27
    A Nigerian-born Anglican priest who spent years praying the gay away, married a woman under church pressure, came out in 1994, was diagnosed with HIV in 2003, and founded the first inclusive church in Nigeria - now operating across 22 countries.SummaryJide Macaulay grew up in Nigeria, the son of a powerful conservative theologian. His father was not available emotionally and would later support a Nigerian bill that could imprison his own son for 14 years simply for being gay. He called Jide a disgrace. But before any of that, Jide tried to fix himself. He fasted for 40 days, pleading with God to remove his same-sex feelings. When a woman said yes to a relationship, he believed the prayer had worked. It hadn't. The feelings never disappeared. After four years of pressure from church leaders and family, they married. Three years in, Jide sat his wife down and told her the truth. The marriage became acrimonious. He came out as gay in 1994.Eight years later, in January 2003, Jide tested positive for HIV. He got it through sex, and he says so directly. The first person he called to share the news cast him out and called him a slut. But before sunset that same day, he called someone else - a friend who drove straight to his house, packed him a bag, ran him a bath, and left the bedroom door open through the night to keep watch. For six years after his diagnosis, Jide travelled the journey with only his medical team and one other person. It took him 15 years to speak about it publicly.In 2006, Jide founded the House of Rainbow in the heart of Lagos - Nigeria's first inclusive Christian ministry for LGBTQ people. It now operates across 22 countries, supporting people seeking asylum, survivors of trafficking, and people living with HIV. He also served as chaplain at the Mildmay Hospital in London, walking the wards of the institution Princess Diana made famous by holding the hands of people with AIDS.Key Moments[02:49] A happy, holy homosexual - how Jide introduces himself, along with Mama Jide, a name connected to his maternal spirit[02:56] The McCauley legacy - growing up as the son of a conservative Nigerian theologian who was emotionally unavailable and would later support anti-gay legislation[04:06] The Bible as weapon - how scripture is selectively applied, and why Jide grounds his theology in Psalm 139: "We are fearfully and wonderfully made"[08:39] Praying the gay away - 40 days of fasting, a girlfriend mistaken for a cure, and a marriage built on church pressure rather than truth[10:53] Coming out in 1994 - telling his wife, the collapse of the marriage, and the acrimony that followed[14:58] Diagnosed in January 2003 - an HIV diagnosis eight years after coming out, the question of whether it was God's punishment, and the decision that it was not[16:31] Six years of solitude - travelling the journey with almost no one, and why Jide insists nobody should be rushed into sharing their status[19:42] Two phone calls on the same day - the friend who called him a slut, and the one who drove over, ran a bath, and left the door open all night[22:36] The Bible and stigma - why scripture specifically commands compassion for the sick, and the Princess Diana moment at Mildmay as a biblical image[25:46] House of Rainbow - founded in Lagos in 2006, now in 22 countries, supporting LGBTQ Christians, asylum seekers, trafficking survivors, and people living with HIV[31:40] Speaking directly to someone falling apart - Jide's message that HIV is not a punishment for queerness, and that the sacredness of sharing who you are is never an abominationDedicationJide remembers Reverend Upazila, the first priest in Africa to publicly declare her HIV status, whom he met at a conference in Stellenbosch in 2009. She died during the Covid pandemic in 2020.About Reverend Jide MacaulayReverend Jide Macaulay is a Nigerian-born Anglican priest and the founder of the House of Rainbow, Nigeria's first inclusive LGBTQ Christian ministry, now operating in 22 countries. He served as chaplain at the Mildmay Hospital in London and has been living with HIV since 2003. He describes himself as a happy, holy homosexual.ResourcesHouse of RainbowMildmay HospitalTerrence Higgins TrustPositive EastNational AIDS TrustIf you have been affected by the themes in this episode, support is available at tht.org.uk.This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    40 分
  • Ismail Harerimana: Silence, Sugar, Survival

    Ismail Harerimana: Silence, Sugar, Survival
    2026/08/20

    CLICK HERE TO SUPPORT ISMAIL'S WORK

    Ismail Harerimana was fourteen before anyone told him what was making him sick. He grew up in the hills of Kisoro in southwest Uganda, was diagnosed with HIV after a routine eye infection, and spent years hiding his antiretrovirals in a tin of sugar so nobody at school would know.

    He was saved and rebuilt by Saturday support groups run through the Elizabeth Glaser Pediatric AIDS Foundation. What follows is a story of two school expulsions, a caning for missing class to collect medication, a newspaper confession that turned him into an advocate, a husband and a father.

    The episode closes on harder ground: the aftermath of the 2025 USAID and PEPFAR cuts, and the subsequent death of a child in Ismail's care. His testimony is in direct contradiction to statements made by Elon Musk and Marco Rubio.

    Key Moments
    • [00:01:03] Growing up in Kisoro, on Uganda's border with Rwanda and the DRC
    • [00:04:39] Years of unexplained illness, isolation and undiagnosed HIV in childhood
    • [00:08:34] Diagnosed at fourteen after an eye infection testing drive — and not told the truth
    • [00:11:14] Learning the truth about his HIV status at sixteen, through the Ariel Clubs peer support network
    • [00:17:02] Hiding antiretrovirals in a tin of sugar, and being caned for missing school to collect medication
    • [00:20:14] Expelled from two schools after his status was disclosed without his consent
    • [00:26:06] Marriage, fatherhood, and managing HIV transmission risk with an HIV-negative wife
    • [00:31:03] The 2025 USAID funding cuts and their effect on Uganda's HIV clinics
    • [00:37:32] A moment of remembrance for a child in his care who died after the cuts

    Guest Bio

    Ismail Harerimana is a Ugandan community health advocate and former Ariel Clubs ambassador for the Elizabeth Glaser Pediatric AIDS Foundation. Diagnosed with HIV at fourteen, he has spent over a decade supporting children and families affected by HIV across southwestern Uganda, working as a peer educator at Kabale Regional Referral Hospital until USAID and PEPFAR funding cuts halted the programme.

    Resources & Further Reading
    • Terrence Higgins Trust – UK support and information for people living with HIV
    • National AIDS Trust – HIV policy, stigma and rights in the UK
    • aidsmap – independent HIV news and treatment information
    • Elizabeth Glaser Pediatric AIDS Foundation – the organisation behind the Ariel Clubs peer support network mentioned in this episode
    • Prevention Access Campaign (U=U) – on Undetectable equals Untransmittable

    If you have been affected by the themes in this episode, support is available at the links above.



    This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:

    Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    43 分
  • Hamish Noah: Turbulence, Trauma, Turning Points

    Hamish Noah: Turbulence, Trauma, Turning Points
    2026/08/13
    A man who survived a hijacked plane at 11, spent years numbing himself with drugs and chemsex, was diagnosed with HIV on a comedown in January 2020, and found clarity four years later on a single dose of LSD taken to treat a pain condition.SummaryHamish Noah was ten days old when he left England for the Philippines. By six, he'd lived in five countries. By nine, he was in Malawi, sobbing in a supermarket in Blantyre because he couldn't understand why children outside had no food while his family filled a trolley. By 11, he was visiting an HIV project in one of Africa's largest informal settlements, surrounded by children living with the virus - with no idea how much that scene would come to define his adult life.On 29 December 2000, aged 11, Hamish was on British Airways flight 2069 from London to Nairobi when a man with severe mental illness entered the cockpit and tried to crash the 747. The plane dived towards the ground and nearly flipped. The co-pilot pulled off what became known as a miracle manoeuvre. Four hundred people survived. Hamish was offered therapy. He didn't really understand what it was. What he did understand, somewhere below the surface, was that he had been about to die - and that changed the way he moved through the world.By 13, he was smoking weed daily and shoplifting to fund it. By his late twenties, he was deep into chemsex, losing one or two nights of sleep a week, and running on a mantra left over from the hijacking: it's not that bad. On New Year's Eve 2019, he had a bender. On 6 January 2020, he went to a clinic. On the 8th, the phone call came. He was standing in his bedroom. Time stopped.For four years, he told almost nobody. He experienced stigma from people close to him - rooted, he says, in cultural conditioning from the conservative African side of his family. He hadn't yet accepted himself as bisexual. He was withdrawing from drugs, starting HIV treatment on four pills a day, and going through it all in near-silence. Then, in early 2024, during a bout of cluster headaches - a condition so painful it's nicknamed the suicide headache - he took LSD for medicinal purposes. Alone in his living room, he had an epiphany of total clarity: of course he was going to share his story. He wrote 90% of his public disclosure post that day. He hasn't touched LSD since.Today Hamish works as a recovery coach and HIV advocate. The DJ decks are on pause. The music, he says, will rejoin the party at some point.Key Moments[01:03] Born in Cambridge, raised everywhere - the Philippines, Singapore, England, Malawi, and a childhood shaped by constant movement and a father in aviation[03:22] British Airways flight 2069 - a hijacking at 35,000 feet on 29 December 2000, a 747 that nearly flipped, a miracle manoeuvre, and an 11-year-old whose mantra became "it's not that bad"[07:36] Vinyl at 13, weed at 13, daily by 14 - the beginning of numbing, and why Hamish sees no point in regret[10:36] When numbing stops being fun - recognising early that the drugs weren't for enjoyment, and the argument that sometimes numbing is better than the alternative[13:28] Sex as a holiday from your life - chemsex, connection, and the complication of genuinely bonding with someone while high[16:18] New Year's Eve 2019 - a bender, a clinic visit on the 6th of January, and the phone call on the 8th that stopped time[19:15] The Terrence Higgins Trust helpline - a lifeline in the early weeks, and the peer supporter Hamish is still in touch with today[20:14] Four years of near-silence - stigma from people close to him, a bisexuality he hadn't yet accepted, and the weight of cultural conditioning from a conservative background[24:15] Acute trauma and complex trauma - the difference between a single event and the slow accumulation of being silenced, and why the body stores what the mind tries to forget[26:05] Racism, a cricket bat, and intergenerational trauma - watching his Black African mother be racially abused, and the understanding that trauma is passed down through generations[34:48] Cluster headaches, LSD, and the epiphany - a pain condition so severe it's nicknamed the suicide headache, psychedelics taken for medicinal purposes, and the moment of total clarity in a living room that led to public disclosure[40:30] The pushback and the net benefit - stigma from extended family, judgey messages, and the decision that silence helps nobody[45:31] Malawi, gratitude, and the supermarket in Blantyre - a nine-year-old in tears, a visit to an HIV project in a Kenyan slum at 11, and the sense of duty that connects everythingDedicationHamish remembers Hydeia Broadbent, a young American woman born with HIV who appeared on The Oprah Winfrey Show as a child and spoke about the virus with extraordinary eloquence. She died recently. Hamish does not know anyone personally who has died of AIDS-related illness, and is grateful for the era in which he was diagnosed.About Hamish NoahHamish Noah was born in Cambridge and grew up across ...
    続きを読む 一部表示
    55 分
  • Winnie Sseruma: Silence, Scars, Solidarity

    Winnie Sseruma: Silence, Scars, Solidarity
    2026/08/06
    A Ugandan-born woman diagnosed with HIV in 1988 who went back to Africa to die, arrived in the UK with a CD4 count of one, and built a career spanning 20 countries in African health policy.SummaryWinnie Sseruma left Uganda on a scholarship to study sociology in Kansas in 1981. The students there asked her if she lived in a tree. By 1988, she was 27, back in the United States, and applying for an internship that required an HIV test. It came back positive. She told her partner, who blamed her, ghosted her, then called back weeks later to say his own test was negative. After that, Winnie stopped telling anyone. She sat through conversations where friends described how they'd treat an HIV-positive person - never eat in their house, never share a bathroom, never be friends - and said nothing.She was offered AZT, which she couldn't afford. The side effects turned her skin from shiny black to ashy. Between 1990 and 1993, her brother, her mother, and her father all died while she was trapped in the US. In 1994, she packed six months' worth of medication and flew to Uganda to die. When the pills ran out, she got TB, pneumonia, and diarrhoea. She nearly died, but a short trip to the UK saved her. At Newham General Hospital, her CD4 count was one.A Ugandan woman she'd met only briefly invited her to a place to socialise. It was a support group for people living with HIV. Winnie could see herself in the women there. She went from preparing to die to learning how treatment works - and it was, in her word, invigorating. She co-founded the African HIV Policy Network, chaired it from Parliament, co-wrote Our Stories Told by Us, and now monitors health programmes across 20 African countries for the Stephen Lewis Foundation.Key Moments[02:05] Kansas, 1981 - a scholarship, a culture shock, and students who thought Ugandans lived in trees[07:05] The positive result - an internship test in 1988, a death sentence at 27, and a life flashing before her eyes[08:58] Telling a partner - blame, rejection, being ghosted, and the lesson that disclosure was not safe[11:49] Conversations she sat through - friends describing how they'd never eat in the house of someone with HIV, while Winnie stayed silent beside them[12:37] AZT and its costs - paying for medication with no insurance, vomiting the pills back up, and a treatment that changed her skin colour[17:02] Four deaths in four years - a brother in 1991, a mother in 1990, a father in 1993, all from Uganda while Winnie couldn't leave the US[17:52] Going back to Uganda to die - six months of medication, then TB, pneumonia, and a CD4 count of one at Newham General Hospital[21:33] The Ugandan woman and the support group - an invitation framed as socialising, a room full of women telling their stories, and the moment Winnie stopped being alone[26:07] The African HIV Policy Network and Fed Up - supporting African women with HIV to engage with policy, and fighting a UK Department of Health that treated an entire continent as one community[39:54] Our Stories Told by Us - a book co-written with four friends to change the narrative about African communities and the UK HIV response[42:41] Remembering her brother - a gentle giant who died of HIV-related TB in 1991 at 27, the same age Winnie was when she was diagnosedDedicationWinnie remembers her brother, who died of HIV-related TB in 1991 at the age of 27 - the same age she was at diagnosis. She wants him to know he was loved.About Winnie SserumaWinnie Sseruma was born in Sheffield and raised in Uganda. She was diagnosed with HIV in 1988 in the United States. She co-founded the African HIV Policy Network, chaired it from Parliament, and co-wrote Our Stories Told by Us: Celebrating the African Contribution to the UK HIV Response. She works across 20 African countries monitoring health programmes for the Stephen Lewis Foundation.ResourcesBuy Our Stories Told By Us, the bookStephen Lewis FoundationNational AIDS TrustTerrence Higgins TrustPositively UKThe 2025–2030 UK HIV Action PlanIf you have been affected by the themes in this episode, support is available at tht.org.uk.This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis: Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    48 分
  • SONG: Rethink Rebuild Rise (Rio Calling)

    SONG: Rethink Rebuild Rise (Rio Calling)
    2026/08/02
    Available now on Spotify and Apple Music.

    Apple Music / Spotify

    Profits from sales will go towards plugging the remaining £1k costs incurred in producing the #AIDS2026 specials, 'Rio Calling'.

    'Rio Calling' crowd-funder: https://hiv-the-morning-after.captivate.fm/rethinkrebuildrise

    LYRICS:[Verse 1]

    They came to Rio, sun and rain,

    the world arrived to talk again,

    with rights and science, hand in hand,

    and here Brazil, she took a stand.

    [Pre-Chorus]

    The funding's running dry,

    and pharma's flying high,

    they warned us: cuts bring death

    we answer with one breath:

    [Chorus]

    So rethink, rebuild and rise,

    raise the science to the skies,

    no access, that's no justice

    so open up your eyes.

    [Verse 2]

    They spoke of jabs beyond the pill,

    long-acting shots to fit the bill,

    so bNAbs — is it hope or hype?

    The cure's still climbing up the pipe.

    [Pre-Chorus]

    The funding's running dry,

    and pharma's flying high,

    they warned us: cuts bring death

    we answer with one breath:

    [Chorus]

    So rethink, rebuild and rise,

    raise the science to the skies,

    no access, that's no justice

    so open up your eyes.

    [Toast / Bridge]

    Now — U equals U, so hear me shout:

    undetectable, don't stress out!

    PrEP inna motion, long-acting too,

    communities leading - that's nothing new!

    Criminalised, but still we rise,

    harm reduction, open your eyes!

    From testing to treatment we hold the line

    rethink, rebuild, one more time!

    [Verse 3]

    We're ageing now, we're living long,

    they wrote a session, wrote this song,

    "live long, live strong," the doctors said,

    now mind your liver, heart and head.

    [Chorus]

    So rethink, rebuild and rise,

    raise the science to the skies,

    no access, that's no justice

    so open up your eyes.



    This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:

    Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    4 分
  • Rio Calling: Isolation

    Rio Calling: Isolation
    2026/08/01

    Featuring: Dr Tristan Barber (BHIVA), Kene Esom (HIV policy & human rights), Dr Laura Waters (HIV/sexual health medicine), Simon Collins (HIV treatment advocacy), Eliane Becks Nininahazwe (HIV activism & arts), Pank Sethi (HIV advocacy & photography), Sita Shahi (HIV advocacy — women), Brenda Crabtree-Ramírez (HIV research & medicine), Maxx Boykin (HIV policy & organising), Olimbi Hoxhaj (HIV advocacy), Knowledge Mupembe (harm reduction & HIV), Antonio Flores (HIV/TB medicine — MSF), Davide Scalenghe (global health communications), Christabel Millar (HIV community advocacy), Damien Fagan (pharmaceuticals — Gilead), Michael (gay & bisexual network — Tanzania), Andrea Carolina (HIV & pharmacy access — Colombia), Derrick Mapp (HIV), Derrick Powell (HIV retention navigation), Joan Steven (HIV community facilitation), Sarah (HIV advocacy — women), Jonathan Blake, Eli Fitzgerald, Garry Brough, Peter Willis.

    CROWDFUNDER LINK

    The series closes on the cost that rarely finds its way into official reports. Dan Hall and dan glass end their week in Rio asking what's been lost as HIV's physical spaces have gone digital or disappeared, with Dr Tristan Barber of BHIVA closing the series with a clinical perspective on what peer support still can't be replaced by.

    Archive testimony comes from Jonathan Blake, diagnosed in October 1982 among the first in Britain, on standing in the darkest corner of the room; Eli Fitzgerald, a trans man born with HIV who works in peer support for young people, on chosen family and being loved because of his status, not in spite of it; Garry Brough, diagnosed in 1991 and now a builder of peer support programmes across the sector, on twenty years of sitting opposite the newly diagnosed; and Peter Willis, a retired GP and at eighty-three the oldest voice in the archive, on stigma and isolation among older people living with HIV.

    Links

    • BHIVA
    • HIV i-Base
    • AIDS 2026, the 26th International AIDS Conference
    • Positively UK, peer-led support, advocacy and information
    • Terrence Higgins Trust

    Extra Special Thanks Anonymous, Careen Hertzog, Peter Staley, Philippe Cahill, Simon Collins, Soleta Rogan, Tom McKitterick

    Thanks Adam Price, Alix Fox, Apostolos James Vogiatzis, Bryn Gay, Emma20Cole, Garry Brough, Moray Laing, Ross Fletcher, Sarah Schulman, Siobhán Allison



    This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:

    Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    39 分
  • Rio Calling: Women and HIV

    Rio Calling: Women and HIV
    2026/07/31

    CROWDFUNDER LINK

    Featuring: Dr Tristan Barber (BHIVA), Sophia Strachan (Sophia Forum), Garry Brough (European AIDS Treatment Group), Dr. Brenda Crabtree-Ramírez (Instituto Nacional de Ciencias Médicas y Nutrición Salvador Zubirán), Sita Shahi (International Community of Women Living with HIV Asia Pacific), Dr. Laura Waters (The Royal Free London NHS Foundation Trust), Kene Esom (United Nations Development Programme), Dr. Chinedu Emmanuel (mothers2mothers), Julie Foreman (BC Centre for Excellence in HIV/AIDS), Deborah Carpenter (FHI 360), Andrea Domânico (CRT DST/Aids-SP). Plus archive intervews with: Caroline Guinness, Susan Cole-Haley, Ellie Harrison, Angelina Namiba.

    The drug trials were run on men. The women were left to work out the rest for themselves. Dan Hall and dan glass mark AIDS 2026's focus on neglected groups, with Dr Tristan Barber of BHIVA opening and closing on the clinical case for research that finally caught up.

    Archive testimony comes from Caroline Guinness, co-founder of Positively Women and diagnosed in 1986, on trials that were never designed with women in mind; Susan Cole-Haley on the stranger who wrote to her after seeing her pregnant and positive on a magazine cover; Ellie Harrison, diagnosed at twenty-one, on searching for a woman like her and finding no one; and Angelina Namiba, diagnosed in London in 1993 and given six months to live, on the friend, the peer support, and the job that got her through.

    Links

    • BHIVA
    • HIV i-Base
    • AIDS 2026, the 26th International AIDS Conference
    • Sophia Forum, women and HIV
    • Sophia Forum, HIV and Women: Invisible No Longer

    Thanks Adam Price, Alix Fox, Anonymous, Apostolos James Vogiatzis, Bryn Gay, Careen Hertzog, Emma20Cole, Garry Brough, Moray Laing, Peter Staley, Philippe Cahill, Ross Fletcher, Sarah Schulman, Simon Collins, Siobhán Allison, Soleta Rogan, Tom McKitterick



    This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:

    Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    34 分
  • Rio Calling: Medical Progress vs Lived Reality

    Rio Calling: Medical Progress vs Lived Reality
    2026/07/30

    CROWDFUNDER LINK

    Featuring: Dr Tristan Barber (BHIVA), Antonio Flores, Damien Fagan (Gilead), ICWAP, Thorne Harbour Health, Derrick Mapp, Laura Walters (Gilead / NHS Royal Free Hospital), Luca Stevenson, Joan Stephen, Axel Bautista (Mpact Global Action), Derrick Powell, Brenda Crabtree, Maxx Boykin, Eliane Becks Nininahazwe, Fatima Hassan. Plus archive from Anthony Bird, Jim Vogiatzis, Mark S King and Chris Smith.

    The drugs worked, but conversations are rarely happened about what comes next. Dan Hall and dan glass spend Day Four of AIDS 2026 exploring the gap between the headline and the aftermath, with Dr Tristan Barber of BHIVA bookending the episode on managing a condition nobody's lived with this long before.

    Archive testimony comes from Anthony Bird, diagnosed in 1995 after an illness that nearly killed him, on an ordinary life once the side effects settled down; Jim Vogiatzis on the peripheral neuropathy that combination therapy left behind; Mark S King, an American writer and activist diagnosed in 1985, on the strange guilt of surviving after a decade spent preparing to die; and Chris Smith, Britain's first openly gay MP and the first parliamentarian to disclose his HIV status, on facing an uncertain future nearly forty years in.

    Links

    • BHIVA
    • HIV i-Base
    • AIDS 2026, the 26th International AIDS Conference
    • Positively UK, National Long Term Survivors Group
    • George House Trust, HIV support and peer mentoring

    Thanks Adam Price, Alix Fox, Anonymous, Apostolos James Vogiatzis, Bryn Gay, Careen Hertzog, Emma20Cole, Garry Brough, Moray Laing, Peter Staley, Philippe Cahill, Ross Fletcher, Sarah Schulman, Simon Collins, Siobhán Allison, Soleta Rogan, Tom McKitterick



    This podcast uses the following third-party services for analysis:

    Podtrac - https://analytics.podtrac.com/privacy-policy-gdrp
    続きを読む 一部表示
    40 分