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  • Series 2 Coming February 2026
    2025/11/28

    Series 2 of HIV: The Morning After will arrive on 6 February 2026. Guests include activist Dan Glass, author and sex columnist Alexander Cheves and Positively UK Chief Executive Silvia Petretti. Join them and other inspiring guests for a new ten-part series telling the stories of people living with HIV today.

    Dan Hall

    Email: HIVTheMorningAfter@gmail.com

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  • Marc Thompson: Community, Change, Compassion
    2025/11/21

    Marc Thompson was diagnosed with HIV at just 17 in 1986, during the epidemic's most frightening early days when information wasn't reaching young black gay men in South London's vibrant but segregated queer scene. His journey from isolated teenager to influential activist illustrates the power of transforming personal experience into systemic change.

    Feeling like the only young black gay man in HIV services, Marc recognised the vital importance of representation and community building, establishing the first support group for positive black gay men at the London Lighthouse.

    His activism spans decades, from safer sex workshops in the 1990s through co-founding PrEPster in 2014 to fight for HIV prevention access, and creating Blackout UK to celebrate black queer lives.

    Now serving as Lead Commissioner of the London HIV Prevention Programme, Marc has architected change that ensures black queer men are part of funding conversations and policy decisions. His story demonstrates how one person's determination to build the community they desperately needed can reshape an entire field, whilst his commitment to preserving stories through podcasts and archives ensures future generations understand their history and heritage.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:02 - Teenage life in 1986: "I was out on the scene and discovering myself... just being a curious, fun, engaged teenager."

    04:37 - Segregated gay scene: "For many black queer people... those places were not particularly welcoming... because of racist door policies."

    06:33 - Societal context: "The UK was deeply racist. The National Front was still marching on the streets."

    07:32 - Community assumptions: "One of the rules we had in my community was, well, this is a white man's thing."

    08:37 - Information access: "There was no route for that information to get directly to a young man like me."

    09:53 - The diagnosis: "I'm told that they have come back positive. And the world stopped."

    11:27 - Processing the news: "The only two things that kept reverberating... how am I going to tell my grandfather... I would never have children."

    12:36 - Isolation of diagnosis: "I didn't know anyone who had HIV who looked like me."

    13:01 - Multiple intersections: "I knew that all of this intersected with my blackness and my queerness."

    14:16 - Mother's support: "I was able to tell my mum... she didn't throw me out of the house."

    15:50 - Community gossip: "I became known in the small black gay community as Marc with the virus."

    17:41 - First activism: "If I can teach these men... maybe they'll be less fearful... maybe there won't be so shit to people like me."

    22:26 - First support group: "I'd set up the first black gay men's group... There were only four of us... probably one of the most important days of my life."

    25:56 - PrEPster origins: "We set up PrEPster as a website... with the sole intention of providing education to our communities."

    27:32 - Golden age of prevention: "The emergence of organisations like Gay Men Fighting AIDS... culturally appropriate, culturally specific information."

    33:38 - Community resistance: "Why can't these young gay men just use condoms like we did? Aren't they fucking on the graves of the people that died?"

    37:09 - Blackout UK mission: "We wanted to celebrate black queer lives... always coming from a place of love, joy and celebration."

    41:06 - HIV equality: "We are all in some ways HIV equal, whether we're negative, positive or untested."

    43:01 - Personal responsibility: "I take my medication to keep me alive. The...

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  • Gus Cairns: Survivor, Storyteller, Strength
    2025/11/14

    Gus Cairns was diagnosed with HIV in 1985 at age 29, having met the love of his life, Paul, who was already positive. An Oxford graduate drifting through London's gay scene, Gus wanted to share Paul's status, believing it meant they could have unprotected sex without consequences. What followed was a devastating education in AIDS as Paul slowly died over four and a half years, succumbing in January 1990 after insisting on showing Princess Diana his Kaposi's sarcoma lesions to reveal "what it was like."

    Gus's own journey through near-death experiences, alternative therapies, and the transformative arrival of combination therapy in the mid-1990s illustrates the psychological complexity of surviving when so many friends died. His story captures the "Lazarus effect" - the unexpected challenge of learning to live again after preparing for death - whilst highlighting how trauma can be transformed into purpose.

    Now 69 and a respected HIV educator, Gus reflects on 40 years of living with HIV with the wisdom of someone who has witnessed history and emerged determined to teach its lessons, particularly that "you can't moralise your way out of an epidemic."

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:01 - Meeting Paul: "The reaction to Paul was summed up... 'why are you going out with that maniac?'"

    06:51 - Sexual history: "If you're shagging around on the gay scene in the early 80s... I was quite good looking and I was horny."

    08:40 - Seroconversion symptoms: "A clutch of very severe mouth ulcers... a classic, clear seroconversion symptom of HIV."

    09:15 - Wanting to be positive: "I was so besotted by him that I actually wanted to be positive, too."

    10:04 - Testing refusal: "They wouldn't give me an HIV test because the Ethics committee had decided it was essentially a death sentence."

    12:46 - Princess Diana visit: "He said, I want them to see what it was like."

    17:00 - Paul's final days: "He said, I want to go to the loo... That was his last moment of consciousness."

    19:42 - Death certificate insistence: "Absolutely insisting that AIDS was recorded on his death certificate."

    21:04 - AZT trial experience: "I lasted six weeks and then I said, I'm not taking this anymore."

    23:08 - Survival mentality: "I was looking for a kind of survivor's mentality... split myself into two systems of belief."

    24:12 - 1995 breakthrough: "Reading the report... seeing the virus load disappear in his subjects."

    25:13 - Scientific turning point: "Right, I want these drugs."

    26:37 - Survivor's depression: "I didn't realise I was terribly depressed... I didn't know how to cope with surviving."

    28:37 - Wartime mentality: "People were dying left, right and centre all around you."

    29:47 - Sexual behaviour change: "I'd taken an unconscious decision that I did not want to... inject HIV into somebody else."

    32:26 - Current global concerns: "Trump cutting... all the assistance to Africa."

    35:04 - War and inhibition: "In wartime people lose their inhibitions."

    37:38 - Key lesson: "One of those lessons is that you can't moralise your way out of an epidemic."

    41:03 - Remembering Paul: "He taught me the power of defiance and the power of absolutely standing up for yourself."

    42:58 - Final wisdom: "Survival is the best revenge... don't let the anger and the stress get to you."

    Links:
    • Other work from Producer Dan Hall.
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  • Peter Willis: Medicine, Malcolm, Mortality
    2025/11/07

    Dr Peter Willis brings a unique dual perspective to HIV - as both physician and patient during the epidemic's most challenging years. Working as a GP in the early days when HIV meant certain death, Peter witnessed the professional helplessness of medicine whilst quietly assuming his own positive status after his 16-year partner Malcolm showed clear signs of AIDS. Malcolm refused testing and died in 1994, leaving Peter to navigate his own eventual diagnosis in 1995, just as combination therapy emerged to transform his prognosis from months to decades.

    Now 83, Peter has been married to his Japanese partner for nearly 30 years and reflects on the extraordinary journey from expecting death before retirement to discovering pottery in his ninth decade. His story captures the medical profession's evolution from powerlessness to hope, the personal cost of stigma in healthcare settings, and the grace found in both losing love and finding it again. Peter's measured wisdom about ageing with HIV, drawn from both clinical knowledge and lived experience, offers profound insights into resilience, acceptance, and the unexpected gifts of longevity.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    02:52 - Early medical stigma: "Sometimes the envelopes... had 'HIV positive' written in red on the outside of the packet."

    03:59 - Medical helplessness: "Initially, you really couldn't do anything."

    04:48 - Malcolm's AIDS: "It was quite clear that he had AIDS. He didn't want to be tested."

    05:49 - Professional compartmentalisation: "I treated patients as patients... separate from me."

    06:26 - Assumed prognosis: "I always assumed that I wouldn't have very long to live, five years at the most."

    06:53 - Early retirement: "Such a relief... I retired on the basis that I had less than six months to live."

    08:05 - Limited gay scene engagement: "I was never much good at dancing... very self-conscious."

    09:37 - Police warning: "If I were you, I'd get out of here. I'm a policeman."

    10:27 - Professional fears: "I just couldn't face the prospect of being in the local newspaper as a GP."

    11:16 - Diagnosis journey: "A friend... said, I'm coming to see you... I'm taking you to hospital."

    12:57 - Receiving the news: "Steve said, I'm sorry, I have bad news for you."

    13:45 - Survival factors: "I seem to be... immunologically tough... combination therapy came along in the nick of time."

    14:34 - Social life impact: "My social life... was Golders Green Crematorium."

    15:38 - Emotional detachment: "I didn't seem to get too stressed by what I... wonder, is it all suppressed?"

    16:05 - Treatment transformation: "It's wonderful... it really changes everything."

    16:41 - Current health: "HIV causes me no problems whatever."

    17:10 - Disbelief at longevity: "I wouldn't have believed it... I can put it aside as being a kind thought."

    19:29 - NHS appreciation: "Relies very heavily on people believing very much in what they're doing."

    20:08 - U=U significance: "Wonderful idea that people no longer need to be fearful of having a relationship."

    21:03 - Remembering Malcolm: "I was in love with him... all the time for 16 years."

    23:35 - Final goodbye: "I said quietly in his ear, it's all right, love. You can go. I'll be all right without you."

    25:06 - Funeral tribute: "I've never heard anything so wonderful about love."

    25:26 - Final wisdom: "Enjoy life, be happy. Don't worry about challenges you can't achieve."

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  • Matthew Hodson: Activism, Advocacy, Acceptance
    2025/10/31

    Matthew Hodson represents one of Britain's most influential voices in HIV and LGBTQ+ activism, having lived openly and "shamelessly" with HIV for nearly three decades.

    His journey began in the 1980s when coming out coincided with the emergence of AIDS, leading him to frontline activism against Section 28 and homophobic legislation. After avoiding testing for years due to fear and the lack of effective treatment, Matthew received his HIV diagnosis in 1997, just as combination therapy was revolutionising care. His transformation from someone carrying HIV as a shameful secret to becoming a leading advocate illustrates the power of visibility and self-acceptance.

    As Chief Executive of Gay Men Fighting AIDS, Matthew championed honest conversations about viral load and treatment as prevention, challenging the "condoms only" orthodoxy years before U=U became accepted science. His landmark achievement as the first openly HIV-positive chair of a major AIDS conference in 2021 represents both personal triumph and overdue recognition that "nothing about us without us" should include leadership roles.

    Matthew's story demonstrates how activism can transform not just society, but the activist themselves.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:12 - Early sexual awakening: "I took myself off to Heaven... and rid myself of my gay virginity."

    04:13 - First AIDS documentary: "I sat down there... watch this documentary called The Killer in the Village... this is so far confined to gay men, particularly in America."

    04:48 - Mother's reaction to coming out: "The first thing she said to me was, well, I expect you'll get AIDS and die then."

    06:13 - Section 28 catalyst: "Section 28... I felt like I was forced out of the closet by Section 28."

    07:43 - Peak homophobia: "The peak of homophobia was 1986, 1987... 75% of people believing that homosexuality was always or almost always wrong."

    09:07 - Direct action: "We went down Fleet Street with pink paint and daubed pink triangles everywhere."

    10:53 - Manchester march significance: "That was the largest ever gay rights protest gathering anywhere in the world."

    12:13 - Avoiding testing: "I thought if someone told me that I was HIV positive now, I think I would just kill myself."

    15:45 - 1996 Vancouver conference: "Changed everything... we can treat HIV."

    16:43 - Testing experience: "You meet the profile of someone who will test positive."

    17:35 - Diagnosis moment: "You've got about 20 years to live... those words... echoed in my head for days and days."

    18:53 - Limited time perspective: "You've got a limited period to get things done. Now, what do you want to do with these precious years?"

    21:07 - HIV stigma analysis: "If HIV most affected white, cis, straight men... there never would have been any HIV stigma."

    23:02 - Sex-positive messaging: "Gay sex. Good. We like it. We enjoy it."

    25:44 - Viral load messaging: "That use a condom every time message hadn't worked."

    29:19 - Living shamelessly: "All of my fear and shame, my self stigmatising, has been washed away."

    32:28 - Going public: "I press send... it was like jumping off a high board... let's just make sure I enter the water with grace."

    34:39 - Early disclosure strategy: "I will try and find a way to get my HIV status into that conversation really early on."

    36:51 - U=U amazement: "The risk is zero... how wonderfully astonishing is that?"

    38:10 - Reclaiming slurs: "Every time you take something that is used against you and you make it into your own armour, it loses its power to...

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  • Anthony Bird: Dancing, Diagnosis, Defiance
    2025/10/24

    Anthony Bird's HIV journey began dramatically in 1995 when he went from seroconversion to hospitalisation with PCP in just 4-5 months, an unusually rapid progression that fascinated medical consultants.

    Working as a graphic designer in London and deeply embedded in the vibrant gay club scene centred around Brixton's legendary Fridge nightclub, Tony's diagnosis came at 28 during the height of the pre-combination therapy era.

    His story captures the terror of thinking he wouldn't live to see 30, watching 30,000 balloons released at Pride representing AIDS deaths whilst believing one would represent him the following year. Yet Tony's experience stands apart from many others in its lack of shame or secrecy - his hospitalisation made his status obvious to friends, and he found himself surrounded by HIV-positive activists who provided community rather than isolation.

    From near-death to the miraculous transformation brought by combination therapy, Tony's journey continues to the present day where he's found unexpected joy in ballroom dancing, describing himself as happier than at any point in his life whilst living with HIV as mere background noise.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:11 - Rapid onset: "I had what was a pretty classic seroconversion... two weeks off work because what felt like a really bad flu."

    04:34 - Unable to work: "My last day at work... I didn't have the strength to put my boots on and walk downstairs."

    05:17 - Dramatic weight loss: "By the time I was admitted to hospital, I'd gone down to seven and a half stone."

    06:29 - Hospital relief: "I think I was just mainly feeling relief that finally someone was taking this seriously."

    06:48 - Understanding the implications: "We think you've got PCP. Are you aware of the implications of that?... I knew exactly what the implications were."

    09:37 - No confidence in treatment: "I had no confidence in the medication that was available... you develop resistance pretty quickly."

    09:37 - Age and mortality: "I can remember... I said, I'm not going to live until I'm 30."

    11:24 - The Fridge club scene: "I was absolutely obsessed with going to the Fridge listening to house music until six in the morning."

    13:27 - Public diagnosis: "Because of the nature of my diagnosis... All my friends knew I was HIV positive."

    14:47 - Family shame: "That was the sense of shame I felt... I'd let my parents down."

    18:18 - Extreme blood results: "My viral load was way up in the 2 million, 3 million mark, my CD4 count was less than ten."

    19:28 - Pride balloon release: "Each balloon represented someone who died of AIDS... I can remember thinking, next year one of those balloons is going to be me."

    21:08 - Lasting damage: "I got shingles twice... the damage it did to my left eye means that I'm still blind in my left eye."

    22:40 - Hearing about combination therapy: "People were just astounded by just how successful the trial had been."

    24:08 - Medical breakthrough: "My consultant literally skipping down the corridor with the results. She was so pleased."

    26:06 - Ongoing side effects: "Those early HIV drugs... some of the side effects are still pretty grim sometimes."

    28:50 - Dating and disclosure: "I could put my HIV status up on my profile... other HIV positive men would see that and contact me."

    36:35 - Ballroom dancing discovery: "If there is one regret I have, it's that I didn't go to a dance class when I was in my 20s."

    38:22 - Finding community: "It's the most home I felt in a community in my life."

    39:09 - Current...

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  • Caroline Guinness: Pioneering, Persistence, Purpose
    2025/10/17

    Caroline Guinness was diagnosed with HIV in 1986, when she had a three-year-old daughter and was working in the music video industry with clients including Queen, David Bowie, and Duran Duran.

    After a doctor performed an HIV test without permission during cervical cancer treatment, Caroline initially refused to know the result before ultimately being told she was positive for what was then called HTLV-III.

    Given roughly five years to live, Caroline transformed her private struggle into public advocacy by co-founding and leading Positively Women, one of the UK's first peer-led support organisations specifically for women living with HIV.

    Her journey spans nearly four decades of HIV history, from the pre-AZT era through combination therapy, whilst navigating motherhood, relationships, and the unique challenges faced by women in a predominantly male-focused epidemic response.

    Caroline's story demonstrates how personal experience can become the foundation for systemic change, creating support networks that have helped countless women through their own HIV journeys.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:20 - Unwanted test revelation: "He'd done a test for what was called then HTLV-III... I got angry because he hadn't asked my permission."

    04:13 - Initial refusal to know: "I got this kind of icy feeling, but I didn't want to know... whatever the result is, I do not wish to know."

    05:18 - Doctor's decision: "I know you didn't want to know the results, but I think you're too intelligent not to know... you are positive."

    06:14 - First concern for daughter: "My first reaction was my daughter instantly, could she have it?"

    07:39 - Friend's devastating reaction: "She just screamed and said, I can't take another one. Someone I love dying."

    08:06 - Feeling of detachment: "It was a bit like a sheet of glass suddenly went down between me and the rest of the world."

    11:53 - Music video career peak: "We did everything all the Duran Duran, Elton John, David Bowie... We did Video Killed the Radio Star."

    14:31 - First fundraising opportunity: "I immediately thought, oh, there's something I can do. There's something I can be proactive here."

    19:26 - Different concerns for women: "Being female with HIV was actually very different. We had different concerns to men."

    21:12 - Finding peer support: "I felt like I'd come home... to be with people who are in the same situation."

    23:00 - Double life reality: "I was doing a lot of publicity as Caroline Guinness... and then I had a pseudonym called Pearl."

    24:27 - Daughter's response: "Her reaction was, oh, is there anything I can do? And I said, well, you could help me with some of the housework."

    25:38 - Daughter's courage: "She stood up and said... my mum is positive... can you please come and speak to my face."

    29:35 - Health crisis: "Caroline, if you don't start taking these drugs, you are dead. You're not going to walk out of this hospital alive."

    30:24 - Combination therapy reality: "I had the Lazarus effect... suddenly back in the world of the living."

    32:48 - Women as vectors myth: "One of the hardest ones... was that we were these vectors of infection."

    37:10 - Meeting Mark: "I did have this thing... butterflies in my stomach... when you know your life's about to change."

    39:55 - Media invasion: "Guinness heiress... married to a famous actor dying of AIDS."

    42:38 - Changing the narrative: "We changed the narrative... that turned into a positive thing."

    44:17 - Greatest achievement: "Positively Women, without a...

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  • Martin Fenerty: Trauma, Time, Transformation
    2025/10/10

    Martin Fenerty was diagnosed with HIV in 1993 at just 23 years old, following a severe facial herpes outbreak that led to testing at Liverpool's Seaman's Dispensary. Told he had 5-10 years to live, Martin found himself navigating early adulthood whilst facing his own mortality, complicated by family rejection over his sexuality and a relationship with an HIV-negative partner.

    His journey through the pre-combination therapy years reveals the psychological impact of "waiting to die" - living in limbo whilst watching peers build careers and plan futures he believed he'd never see. Martin's experience of stigma within the gay community itself, where strangers would approach him to confirm his positive status, highlights how discrimination operated even in supposedly safe spaces.

    Now 55 and working as an NHS counsellor and psychotherapist specialising in LGBTQ+ and HIV services, Martin's story demonstrates the profound psychological work required to transition from preparing for death to learning how to live when combination therapy offered unexpected longevity.

    Timestamped Takeaways

    03:39 - Young and isolated: "I'd been out as a gay man only for a couple of years... had quite a rough time with my family."

    04:22 - Severe symptoms: "A huge outbreak of facial herpes... all over my face and my neck."

    06:05 - Testing at the Seaman's Dispensary: "Favoured by gay men and people involved in sex work because it had a reputation for being more open minded."

    08:01 - Receiving the diagnosis: "It was too much for me to take in... I was in shock."

    09:56 - Partner dynamics: "He tested negative... the complexity really was around my response to that."

    12:26 - Stigma everywhere: "HIV was very stigmatised... it was anathema to be associated with people who were positive, even in the gay community."

    16:25 - Death sentence reality: "I was advised that my life would be limited... I wouldn't survive beyond 5-10 years."

    21:54 - Confidentiality breach: "My HIV status became known to quite a number of people on the gay scene."

    22:14 - Community discrimination: "People would make it known that they knew about my status... quite threatening, quite scary."

    24:10 - Health decline: "I would vacuum my little living room... and I had to lie down and have a sleep."

    26:02 - Waiting to die: "My life was sort of frozen... underpinning everything was this assumption that I was going to die."

    27:39 - Internalised shame: "Maybe I did think I deserved to die... I regarded myself as a bad person who was worthless."

    29:35 - Suicide as safety net: "I held on to that idea of suicide as a safety net... at least I can end my own life."

    30:25 - Combination therapy transformation: "Within six months, my viral load... was undetectable."

    32:08 - Learning to live: "The realisation that I was waiting to die was the realisation that I had to live."

    34:07 - Ongoing vulnerability: "We can't necessarily take for granted that those people meant to be caring for us... are going to do that in good faith."

    39:41 - Remembering Mark: "He was an example of a role model for me of how to live well with HIV."

    44:09 - Final message: "There is life to be lived after HIV diagnosis... everything remains available to you."

    Links:
    • Other work from Producer Dan Hall.
    • Positively UK - A peer-led organisation offering support and advice for people living with HIV,...
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