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  • Bonus: The One on Where We Come From

    Bonus: The One on Where We Come From
    2025/09/30
    Bonus — The One on Where We Come From

    In this bonus episode of GILY, Devany and Meredith offer a warm welcome — in the old English sense: you are a desired guest. From that same spirit of hospitality, they share their stories. Meredith moves from evangelical certainty through postpartum collapse to energy work, the Fourth Way, and a living, clear-eyed Christianity. Devany reflects on her contemplative roots, a season inside evangelicalism after grief, and how stillness, Centering Prayer, and decolonially informed somatics continue to guide her home to her own voice.

    Together they trace the spiral of deconstruction — funny, humbling, sometimes self-righteous — reclaim Jesus beyond punitive theology, and name their shared lens: we start where it hurts and stay for the healing — mind, body, spirit, community, and land. We hope you feel welcome in your own story, too.

    Gentle note: Strong language at times — use care if little ears are nearby.

    Takeaways
    • Welcome = desired guest — your story and questions belong here.
    • Deconstruction is a spiral — certainty can feel safe; humility keeps us awake.
    • The body is a teacher — pain and fatigue can guide us home.
    • Stillness steadies — contemplation widens compassion.
    • Many paths, one Source — Love runs through them all.
    Sound Bites

    “We’re done tidying our souls for anyone.” “I had been borrowing someone else’s motherhood.” “All of you is welcome here — your tears, your growls, your weird movements.” “I stopped outsourcing certainty — and started listening in.” “If you want to hear yourself, turn up the silence.”

    Terms as We Understand Them Today
    • Contemplation — A long, loving look at the real; stillness that widens perception.
    • Fourth Way (Gurdjieff/Ouspensky) — Awakening through the intellectual, emotional, and moving centers — monks in the world, not the monastery.
    • Self-Observation / Non-Identification / Self-Remembering — Noticing thoughts, loosening attachment to them, remembering essence.
    • Somatics — From the Greek soma (living body). A way of understanding and practicing life through the body as an intelligent, adaptive, interdependent system — shaped by family, community, culture, land, Spirit, and relationship. Modern somatic practice is deeply informed by the survival wisdom of Black, Indigenous, and other marginalized peoples who have used body-based knowing to endure, heal, and resist oppression.

    Devany’s somatic journey has been shaped by Sonya Renee Taylor, Staci K. Haines, Dra. Rocío Rosales Meza, and mentor Marisa Guadalupe, with learning also supported by The Embody Lab.

    • Deconstruction — Unraveling belief systems and power structures; humility over certainty.

    We also mention Thomas Keating (Centering Prayer), the Fourth Way, Four Winds/Andean-informed teachings, Human Design, and The Trevor Project (LGBTQ+ youth crisis support).

    Books We Read Together (COVID Book Club)
    • The Universal Christ — Richard Rohr
    • The Wisdom Jesus — Cynthia Bourgeault
    • Untamed — Glennon Doyle
    • The Way of Integrity — Martha Beck

    🌱 A Gentle Reminder We share from lived story and practice. This isn’t medical, mental-health, or legal advice. Use your own discernment and seek professional support as needed. Care for yourself as you listen. Take what resonates; leave the rest.

    Invitations

    • Come Home to Your Center (Illumine Within) — Devany’s Centering Circles offer stillness, somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening. Explore offerings at illuminewithin.com.

    Energetic Support (Hibernate Healing) — Meredith offers energy work and spiritual guidance in Austin or online. (Rebrand in progress; sessions available now.) www.sparklecirclehealing.com
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  • The One On North Star

    The One On North Star
    2025/09/08
    Episode 4 - The One On North Star In Episode 4 of God I Love You, Devany and Meredith explore how a “North Star” isn’t a job title or a five-year plan—it’s an inner alignment that quietly pulls you toward what you truly love. Devany shares the paradigm-shifting question from her spiritual director—“What if you’re not a tool?”—and the unexpected aliveness that followed when she let go of productivity as purpose and returned to choir, harmony, and embodied flow. Through water and sky metaphors (rivers returning to the ocean, Polaris and precession), they name flow as those brief, luminous moments when body, heart, and spirit line up. They also get real about misalignment: Meredith reframes chronic plantar fasciitis as a painful but holy re-structuring—new growth needing new tissue. Together they land on a lived definition of purpose: notice what draws you, relax into it, and let alignment guide your next right step. Gentle Note — We use strong language at times—listen with care if little ears are around. Takeaways Purpose isn’t productivity; aliveness is a compass.Flow can be fleeting—seconds are enough.Your “North Star” lives inside you; alignment is remembered, not achieved.Misalignment is a teacher; re-alignment can be uncomfortable and physical.Ask what you truly love (not what you should love) and move one step toward it. Sound Bites “What if you’re not a tool?” “Flow is that millisecond when life feels so freaking cool to be human, and you know it.” “New growth needs a new place to land.” “Balance isn’t stillness—it’s the moment between movements.” “Your North Star is already in you; alignment is remembering.” Terms as We Understand Them Today *North Star An inner orientation toward what you truly love. Not a fixed role, but a felt alignment that quietly pulls you home—evolving as you do. *Flow Brief moments when body, heart, and spirit line up and life feels vividly present. Often seconds, not hours. *Attuning For us, attuning means slowing down enough to notice what is actually happening in the body, heart, and spirit—and then adjusting to meet it. Attuning isn’t about fixing or forcing; it’s a gentle responsiveness, like tuning an instrument to the right pitch. *Alignment / Misalignment Alignment feels like ease, dignity, and presence; misalignment feels tight, costly, or dysregulating. Misalignment isn’t failure—it’s feedback that often shows up physically. Teachers & Resources Mentioned Rumi – “Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.”Kahlil Gibran — Poem Fear “It is said that before entering the sea a river trembles with fear… But there is no other way. The river can not go back. Nobody can go back. To go back is impossible in existence. The river needs to take the risk of entering the ocean because only then will fear disappear, because that’s where the river will know it’s not about disappearing into the ocean, but of becoming the ocean.” Centering Prayer (Thomas Keating; Cynthia Bourgeault’s teaching lineage referenced broadly) Jenna Zoe — Human Design — (brief mention re: voice/song and personal blueprint) A modern system blending ancient wisdom and science to map your energetic blueprint. 🔖 Note: These are our reflections-in-process. Engage directly with primary teachers and texts for the fullness of their work. Practices We Talk About Ask, “What do I truly love?” Let it be small and honest (choir, harmony, story, yoga). Detective of Aliveness: Notice where your body hums—people, places, practices. Body-Honoring During Realignment: Support structures (rest, footwear, stretching, therapy/pt) when change shows up as pain. Centering Prayer: Sit in silence; return to a sacred word; relax into Presence. 🌱 A Gentle Reminder What we share comes from our lived stories and spiritual practices. It isn’t medical, mental health, or legal advice—please use your own discernment and seek professional support if you need it. Some episodes touch tender topics; care for yourself as you listen. Take what resonates, leave the rest. Invitations Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — If you’re longing for support in stillness, quiet, and returning to deep self, Devany’s Centering Circles offer a guided space to practice. Each gathering includes somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening. Explore upcoming circles and resources at illuminewithin.com. Relax into energetic support with Hibernate Healing — Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self. Sessions available in-person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit sparklecirclehealing.com (rebrand in progress).
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    39 分
  • The One on Selfish

    The One on Selfish
    2025/08/22
    Episode 3 — The One On Selfish In Episode 3 of God I Love You, Meredith and Devany reframe the old “selfish woman” trope by exploring what it means to live self-full. They reflect on how women’s needs have long been mislabeled as “preferences,” and how meeting those needs with dignity changes the quality of our love, creativity, and presence. Through the metaphors of plants and water, they explore thriving as creating the right conditions rather than chasing external checklists. Along the way, they wrestle with how cultural patterns shape our relationship with needs, how fear can act like a contraceptive to our becoming, and how hunger offers a compass back to true choice and aliveness. This conversation is tender, grounding, and at times disruptive — a permission slip to stop performing love and begin listening inward with kindness. Gentle Note - We use strong language at times—listen with care if little ears are around. Takeaways People-pleasing often comes from fear and cultural conditioning, not love.Women’s needs have been mislabeled as “preferences” for far too long.Thriving isn’t about chasing external checklists — it’s about creating the right conditions for growth.Living self-full changes the quality of your love, creativity, and presence.Hunger can be a compass back to choice and aliveness. Sound Bites “A woman who becomes self-full — who honors her needs, who listens inward — she does not disappear, she disrupts.” “Other people’s fear is a contraceptive. It blocks the birth of your own becoming.” “Women’s needs have been called preferences for far too long.” “When we feed ourselves, we are able to feed others.” “If I take my own needs seriously, I’m declaring that I matter.” Terms as We Understand Them Today Sovereign When we talk about being sovereign, we think about the small, everyday moments where we’ve learned to honor ourselves. Saying no when our bodies whisper “not now.” Saying yes to something that feels deeply right, even if it surprises people. For us, sovereignty isn’t about dominance or standing apart — it’s when body, heart, and spirit move in the same direction. Our understanding of sovereignty has been deeply shaped by decolonial teachers who remind us that honoring our needs and voices resists the systems that taught us to override them. Self-Full We use the word self-full as a reframe of “selfish.” To live self-full is to honor and meet our own needs, tending to ourselves with dignity and care. When we choose to be self-full, we don’t disappear — we disrupt. Teachers & Resources Mentioned Our reflections on sovereignty and needs are shaped by the wisdom of teachers who’ve gone before us: Marisa Guadalupe (Sacred Cycle Mentorship) —A year-long journey in self-compassion, weaving Indigenous wisdom, somatic practice, and community support to embody balance and deepen self-trust. 📧 somaticmarisa@gmail.com Instagram: @luminosa_marisa Christine Gutierrez, I Am Diosa — reclaiming sovereignty as sacred power. Dra. Rocío Rosales Meza — naming and honoring needs as a decolonial act. Resmaa Menakem, My Grandmother’s Hands — embodied practices for healing trauma. Kelsey Blackwell, Decolonizing the Body — where we explore what it means for white bodies to join a narrative greater than our own, recognizing the harm, violence, and oppression we’ve inherited, divesting from dominance, and stepping into collective healing through embodied repair. Richard Rohr, Breathing Underwater Thomas Keating — Teachings on Centering Prayer and the “programs for happiness” Cynthia Bourgeault, Centering Prayer & Inner AwakeningThe Wild & Sacred Feminine Deck 🔖 Note: What we share here are our reflections and learnings in process. We encourage you to engage directly with the work of teachers like Marisa Guadalupe, Kelsey Blackwell, Dra. Rocío Rosales Meza, Resmaa Menakem, and Christine Gutierrez for their full wisdom and guidance. Practices We Talk About Centering Prayer — Sitting in silence and returning to Presence.Ask “What do I need right now?” — A quick body check-in (cold → sweater, hungry → snack) as a way of staying present and resourced.Host Yourself — Tend to your own body and spirit as part of the care you offer others, not as something separate or secondary.Discern Desire vs. Numbing (from Kelsey Blackwell’s Decolonizing the Body) — Asking, “Am I choosing this, or is it choosing me?” around alcohol, food, media, or habits—reclaiming true desire instead of numbing. 🌱 A Gentle Reminder What we share here comes from our own stories, experiences, and spiritual practices. It isn’t medical, mental health, or legal advice — please use your own discernment and seek professional support if you need it. Some episodes may touch on tender topics; take care of yourself as you listen. Take what resonates, and leave the rest. Invitations: Come Home to Your Center ...
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    41 分
  • The One on Water

    The One on Water
    2025/08/17

    In Episode 2 of God I Love You, Meredith and Devany explore the antidote to burnout: watering self. They unpack what “water” means—both literally and as a metaphor for the life-giving essentials that sustain us as women. Desire becomes a compass back to life, guiding us toward true nourishment instead of numbing.

    Through personal stories—from hammock naps and garden watering to basement dance parties and high-art resets—they show how tending your “favorites list,” listening to your body, and learning to host yourself can bring you back into flow. Along the way, they name the shame that creeps in when we rest, the danger of “overwatering” ourselves with what drains, and how to trust that what you want, wants you.

    Takeaways
    • Water is both universal and particular — everyone needs it, but your “water” will be unique to you.
    • Desire is a compass — what you truly want points toward what will nourish you.
    • Your body is your first brain — listening to it feels like love.
    • Favorites lists save you — they make it easier to resource yourself when you’re stressed or depleted.
    • What you want, wants you — your desires are not selfish; they’re part of how you were made.
    Sound Bites:
    • “Our bodies innately know how to draw nourishment, metabolize, heal, transform — and do it again.”
    • “Water is both universal and particular.”
    • “Host yourself with the same pleasure you give to others.”
    • “What you want, wants you.”
    Resources Mentioned
    • Emotional Labor — Rose Hackman (quoted concept: women act on gender roles, not individual characteristics)
    • Wild Geese (poem) — Mary Oliver (quote: “let the soft animal of your body love what it loves”)
    • Sacred Cycle Mentorship — Marisa Guadalupe - A year-long journey into self-compassion and authentic living, blending Indigenous knowledge of the four directions, sacred elements, and the medicine wheel with modern nervous system education, somatic practices, and community support. Through monthly pláticas, integration groups, curated readings, and seasonal rituals, participants learn to live authentically, embody balance, and navigate life’s cycles with compassion and self-trust. 📧 somaticmarisa@gmail.com Instagram: @luminosa_marisa
    • Centering Prayer & Inner Awakening — Cynthia Bourgeault- Explores the mystical and psychological dimensions of Centering Prayer and the interplay of body, mind, and heart.

    Practices Mentioned

    • Favorites List — Tracking simple pleasures that uniquely restore you.
    • Front-Loading — Giving yourself grounding and nourishment on the front end, so you meet the moment with more presence, steadiness, and choice.
    • Hosting Yourself — Offering yourself the same care and beauty you give others.
    • Beauty & Art — Engaging nature, movement, or creativity to move emotions through.
    • ​​Pendulum Practice — Using a pendulum (or even something simple like string + weight) to access yes/no clarity when the body feels foggy or disconnected. See how here.
    Invitations:

    Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — If you’re longing for support in stillness, quiet, and returning to deep self, Devany’s Centering Circles offer a guided space to practice. Each gathering includes somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective conversation and listening. Explore upcoming circles and resources at illuminewithin.com.

    Relax into energetic support with Hibernate Healing — Step into a sanctuary where your body, spirit, and heart are met with care. Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self.

    Whether you need deep rest, emotional reset, or spiritual clarity, sessions available in-person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit and book at www.sparklecirclehealing.com until the rebrand is complete!
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    50 分
  • The One on Dry

    The One on Dry
    2025/08/17
    Summary

    Why am I so dry?—a phrase that captures burnout and that “dried up” feeling so many women know too well when we’re overextended, under-resourced, and still expected to keep giving. In this episode, Meredith and Devany name how dryness can look like constant overdoing until there’s nothing left… or freezing in overwhelm because the weight of expectations feels crushing.

    Devany shares how COVID’s forced stillness revealed her reliance on external validation and the belief that doing more made her lovable. Meredith reflects on her own dryness as a hollow, crispy version of herself—like the cicada shell left behind when you’ve been living in someone else’s story. Together, they explore satisfaction as a compass for self-trust, the red flag of justification, and why love is not transactional. They offer practical ways for women to reconnect with their “us-ness” and remind us that the soul is self-watering when we make space to listen.

    Keywords

    burnout, women’s stories, emotional dryness, self-discovery, worthiness, external validation, satisfaction, love vs. transaction, us-ness, self-nourishment, spirituality, motherhood, somatic practices, neurodivergence, authenticity, boundaries, centering prayer, human design

    Takeaways

    • Emotional dryness often comes from being under-resourced.
    • External validation can mask deeper needs.
    • Self-worth is shaped by culture, family, and conditioning.
    • Satisfaction is a compass for alignment.
    • The soul replenishes itself when we slow down.

    Sound Bites

    • “The way out of dryness is coming back to your body, for your body to say, ‘This is true’ or ‘This isn’t true’—and it’s slow.”
    • “The right thing needs no justification.”
    • “The soul is self-watering.”
    • “Love speaks through desire.”
    • “Your us-ness already belongs here.”
    • “Our effect on this world depends on the degree of how ‘us’ we are.”

    Resources Mentioned

    • Centering Prayer — Cynthia Bourgeault (going below the stream of consciousness;
    • Christian contemplative teacher) — cynthiabourgeault.org
    • The Work on the Three Centers — G.I. Gurdjieff (balancing intellectual, emotional, and moving centers) — gurdjieff.org
    • Human Design — System for understanding energy types (e.g., Manifesting Generator, Projector)
    Practices Mentioned
    • Centering Prayer — Sitting in stillness, resting with the “seed” of your truest self.
    • Gathering Yourself In — Pausing to ask, “What matters to me today?” before saying yes.
    • Noticing Justification — Recognizing that the right thing needs no justification.

    Invitations:

    Relax into Energetic Support with Hibernate Healing — Step into a hideaway where your body, spirit, and heart are met with care. Meredith offers energy healing, shamanic practices, and spiritual guidance to help you release, restore, and reconnect with your deepest self. Whether you need deep rest, emotional release, or spiritual clarity, sessions are available in person (Austin, TX) or online. Visit sparklecirclehealing.com until the rebrand is complete.

    Come Home to Your Center with Illumine Within — Step into a quiet, spacious circle where your embodied self is met with care. Centering Circles weave somatic grounding, Centering Prayer, and reflective listening, all held in compassionate presence. Whether you seek stillness, self-trust, or nourishing community, these circles offer sanctuary for your inner life. Gatherings are on Zoom or in person, with seasonal sessions and resources at illuminewithin.com.

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    40 分
  • God I Love You Podcast Teaser

    God I Love You Podcast Teaser
    2025/08/13

    What is this podcast—besides a voice memo to your bestie and the universe? It’s a place to be seen, a home for soul friendship, and a landing spot for that thing you couldn’t quite name until now. It's for the woman who left the rules but kept the reverence. If that's you, listen along if you feel a tug. God we love each other. And God we love you too.
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    3 分