This week I'm joined by comedian Rachel Dispenza (@racheldispenser)! We went deep on therapy, religion, and whether gay people ever actually break up with their exes (they don't)

New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

0:00 Intro
0:31 The Sheep Detective Review
5:37 The Door Holder Story
14:13 Confessional: Are You Gay?
15:00 Identity Labels
20:00 Do You Want Kids?
26:22 Do You Believe in God?
27:44 What Did Death Look Like?
33:18 Excommunication
34:48 Signs You Were Gay
39:27 First Queer Relationships & Never Blocking Exes
43:38 Going to Our Exes' Weddings
44:47 Cross My Heart: Childhood Embarrassment
47:08 Hula Hoop Injustice
50:00 Forgive Me But: Devil Wears Prada 2
55:00 Forgive Me But: Call Me on the Phone
58:27 Analog Summer & Deleting Spotify
1:02:21 Starting a Show + Where to Find Rachel

Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah Beck dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram.

Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

It's another Solo Stoned episode! I answered your questions, reviewed everything I watched and read, went deep on the Gilded Age, and accidentally got too high to finish the episode.

We talked about: turning down Ozempic ads, the lesbian mafia (my ex-girlfriends network of favors), The Sheep Detectives, Big Mistakes, Famesick by Lena Dunham, Piranesi, why Great Gatsby still hits in 2026, old money vs. new money, Mother's Day when you don't have a mom, dressing like your younger self, my '90s mom summer era, and the time I went to prom.

Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

Chapters:
0:00 – Cold open: the prom story
0:51 – Intro & the edible situation
2:20 – Turning down Ozempic ads
2:21 – Fidget toys & Jeannie B ASMR
4:03 – Roses & Thorns: NYC trip & getting sick
5:26 – Starting a cult for: The Sheep Detectives
7:00 – Forgive me but: engage with old media
7:26 – Great Gatsby & the guy who peaked at 21
9:29 – Gilded Age hyperfixation: old money vs. new money
11:15 – Passage of time high thought
13:03 – Forgive me but: take alone time on trips
14:45 – Q&A: favorite lesbian stereotype
15:35 – Advice: newly gay in Utah
17:45 – The lesbian mafia
19:26 – Media review: Sheep Detectives, Big Mistakes, Kimmy Schmidt, Fame Sick, Piranesi
27:00 – Mother's Day without a mom
28:42 – Dressing like your younger self
30:06 – The prom story (full version)
31:26 – Starting a cult for: '90s mom summer
32:11 – Writing a pilot & journaling
33:15 – Stand-up shows & Mortified Chicago

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Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, solo stoned episode, lesbian mafia, Great Gatsby, Gilded Age, Lena Dunham Famesick, Piranesi, Sheep Detectives, '90s mom summer, religious trauma, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, stand-up comedy, coming out stories, mental health, chosen family, comfort creator

Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

Lauren is here for episode 11! (@notfunnylauren)

This week we talked about leaving religion on TikTok before it was a thing, the shifting TikTok era, dream jokes, consciousness, signing an NDA, restorative justice, women being the original perverts, and the Big Bang Theory Cinematic Universe.

Known for her viral "Tube top" video and "Dear Daddy God" diary series on TikTok, Hannah dives deep into the messy but beautiful reality of growing up queer in the Midwest. Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Comment, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤

Chapters:

0:00 – Victoria's Secret & gay signs

0:33 – Confessional: are you gay?

1:36 – Religious deconstruction

5:25 – Shifting TikTok, dream jokes, consciousness

9:36 – Hannah’s NDA

16:06 – Fletcher, JoJo Siwa, lesbian icons

20:31 – sneaking out & sex collages

26:23 – Women are the original good perverts

30:57 – What are you starting a cult for?

40:01 – Forgive me but: Partiful & the Big Bang Theory universe

45:26 – TV recommendations, writing a pilot

HannahBeck #CrossMyHeartPodcast #GayPodcast #LesbianPodcast #QueerComedy #TikTokComedian #DearDaddyGod #ChicagoComedy #ComingOut #MidwestLGBTQ #ExEvangelical #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianDeconstruction #QueerTikTok #Podcast

Keywords: Hannah Beck, Cross My Heart podcast, Chicago comedy, gay podcast, lesbian podcast, TikTok comedian, Dear Daddy God, religious trauma, ex-evangelical, queer comedy, Midwest LGBTQ, religious deconstruction, legal system, stand-up comedy, viral TikTok, queer, podcast, comfort creator, coming out stories, mental health, chosen family

Cross My Heart is hosted by Hannah Beck. Follow @hannahbeckcomedy on TikTok and Instagram. New episodes every Monday. Rate, review, and tell your gay friends 🖤