I've been gone for a month and a half. And I'm back because I finally stopped running from the thing that was keeping me quiet.

This episode is the full story of the year I had everything — the $100K, the dream wedding, the business class honeymoon — and sat in a bathtub in Florence looking down at my hands and didn't recognize them. The year I was grieving, performing my healing, running a business model that was draining me, and shaming myself for not being able to stretch past a nervous system that was already completely maxed out.

I almost quit. I filled out a coffee shop application. I never turned it in.

This is what burnout actually looks like when it happens to the woman who knows better. Who has the tools. Who IS the work.

In this episode:

• What my flight response looked like dressed up as ambition, productivity, and resilience — and why I couldn't clock it in myself
• The honeymoon I couldn't feel, the bathtub in Florence that finally cracked me open, and what came through on the other side of that cry
• Why performing my healing — the journaling, the meditating, the visualizing — was still avoidance in a girlboss costume
• What shame did to my content, my sales, and my nervous system's capacity to receive what I was calling in
• The one thing I kept doing through all of it that became the actual portal through — and why it had nothing to do with strategy

If this episode is your mirror:

→ Apply for Purpose Excavation — where you master the emotions that kept you loyal to survival, so your dreams finally feel like butter to your nervous system

→ Join the Courage Portal — tools and support for the woman actively doing this work

Two years ago, Lexie almost cancelled this call. She sat in her car in the summer heat, shaking so hard she could barely hold her phone. Her co-workers had to take her to lunch first just to keep her from backing out.

Today she's releasing a debut poetry collection this summer — and in this episode, she reads one of her poems out loud for the very first time.

We talk about what two years of nervous system level identity work actually looks like from the inside — the shifts that sneak up on you, the survival patterns that quietly run your creative life, and what it finally felt like to stop keeping parts of herself in separate rooms.

In this episode:

• The moment Lexie volunteered to speak publicly — twice — after years of being the one who'd rather disappear into the walls
• What it meant to keep her faith in a separate compartment from every other part of her life, and what changed when she stopped
• Why she believes her writing isn't hers — and how that realization is what finally let her write the book
• The poem she wrote near the start of this work, about a time she didn't want to be alive — read out loud for the first time ever
• What she'd say to anyone who's scared to make the first call (from someone who was shaking through hers)

Links & resources:

→ Oder Prayer Before Art— Lexie's debut poetry collection, releasing July 10th on Amazon (link coming soon)

→ Follow Lexie on Instagram

→ Work with me 1:1 — for the woman ready to stop keeping parts of herself locked away

→ Join the Courage Portal — as Lexie put it, "it's 10pm, you're freaking out, you open the app and there's something in there that helps." Tools for the woman who's navigating the many complexities of owning her brilliance.

Nicole had done everything right. Spiritual work. Energy clearing. Limiting belief reprogramming. She had the vision, the coaching certification, and a clear picture of the stage she wanted to stand on. She was also googling her own symptoms a week before we started working together — convinced something was neurologically wrong with her brain.

It wasn't her mindset. It was her nervous system treating her dreams like a threat. In this episode, she walks us through what that actually felt like in her body, the two childhood memories that were quietly running her business decisions decades later, and what shifted when we finally worked with her body instead of around it.

Three months later — she's giving a keynote talk as an international speaker. That was the dream she had stopped believing in.

In this episode:

• The five-year-old alarm story — a moment Nicole laughed off for years that was secretly dictating her relationship with productivity and worth
• What 15 racing thoughts at once actually feels like in the body (and why calling it "Type A" kept her stuck)
• How regulation — not more strategy — became the foundation that let her finally build
• The concussion at 18 that locked her in a dark room and wired "useless = danger" into her nervous system
• What it feels like when your nervous system finally believes the dream is safe — in her words: "It now feels inevitable. I know I'm going to soar."

Ready to do this work?

→ Work with me 1:1 — for the woman ready to get her brain and body on board with the vision she's been carrying.

→ Join Confidence Mastery— for the woman who's wobbly as a newborn deer on a skateboard when it comes to owning her value & gifts.

→ Join the Courage Container— for the woman who knows she desires more from herself & her life and wants the clarity, support, and growth to go all in.

→ Join the Courage Portal — tools & support that build the Courageous ASF infrastructure to sustain your brilliance, authenticity, and emotional mastery.

→ Connect with Nicole — find her on Instagram @wellnesswithnicole