I've been gone for a month and a half. And I'm back because I finally stopped running from the thing that was keeping me quiet.

This episode is the full story of the year I had everything — the $100K, the dream wedding, the business class honeymoon — and sat in a bathtub in Florence looking down at my hands and didn't recognize them. The year I was grieving, performing my healing, running a business model that was draining me, and shaming myself for not being able to stretch past a nervous system that was already completely maxed out.

I almost quit. I filled out a coffee shop application. I never turned it in.

This is what burnout actually looks like when it happens to the woman who knows better. Who has the tools. Who IS the work.

In this episode:

• What my flight response looked like dressed up as ambition, productivity, and resilience — and why I couldn't clock it in myself
• The honeymoon I couldn't feel, the bathtub in Florence that finally cracked me open, and what came through on the other side of that cry
• Why performing my healing — the journaling, the meditating, the visualizing — was still avoidance in a girlboss costume
• What shame did to my content, my sales, and my nervous system's capacity to receive what I was calling in
• The one thing I kept doing through all of it that became the actual portal through — and why it had nothing to do with strategy

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