Why do devastating things happen—and what does conscious creation mean when someone we love is fighting for their life?

In tonight’s episode, I’m responding to a mother who asked me to explain why her terminally ill daughter is suffering and seemingly giving up. This is not an easy conversation, and there is no explanation that can make an experience like this hurt less.

We’re looking at hardship from multiple perspectives at once: the painful reality of being human, the quantum perspective of the observer, the role of subconscious beliefs, the expansion of consciousness through trauma, and the free will of the people we love.

When you awaken, you begin learning how to hold more than one truth. You are consciousness, and you are also human. Pain may lead to growth, awakening, and a return to yourself—but that does not make the pain trivial, nor does it mean you have to pretend it doesn’t hurt.

Is it possible to shift into a reality where the outcome changes? Are you being led toward a new understanding of belief and possibility? Or are you learning how to metabolize an experience your human mind cannot explain?

There may not be one answer. More than one truth—and more than one possibility—can exist at the same time.

This week on Calm Your Crazy, I’m answering more of your questions about consciousness, souls, inner power, and what it actually means to experience this reality as a human being.

We’re getting into the soul and our connection to something larger than this individual human experience, where our inner power comes from, and what happens as we become more conscious of who and what we are.

As always, I’m looking at these questions through what I understand from my near-death experience, my own experiences with consciousness, the patterns I’ve mapped, and what I’ve learned from experimenting with reality in my own life.

Because understanding consciousness isn’t just about understanding what exists beyond us. It’s also about understanding you—your energy, your patterns, your power, and the way you experience and interact with this reality.

So let’s get into your questions.

This week I’m answering some of the questions you’ve been leaving for me about consciousness, the simulation, dimensions, reincarnation, collective consciousness, astral projection, human evolution, and why we forget who we are in the first place.

We talk about whether the Anunnaki are simply another part of the simulation, how humans can evolve through different dimensions and expressions of consciousness, and what actually causes the simulation itself to change.

And the answer to that one is experience.

As we experience life, we change. As we change individually, we change the collective consciousness we are all part of. That is how patterns evolve. It’s also why so much of what we are seeing in the world right now looks like old systems, old patterns, separation, pain, and lack of empathy being pushed right in front of us. We have to see the pattern before we can choose something different.

The same thing is happening inside you.

What pattern are you repeating? What are you finally ready to stop recreating? Because when you choose differently within yourself, you are changing the larger pattern too.

We also get into why humans forget where we came from. Because if you remembered that you were consciousness, that you were everything, everywhere, all at once, and that you were limitless… how would you actually have a human experience?

You need the limitation to experience becoming limitless again.

Then we move into reincarnation, why there cannot really be a line of souls “waiting” to reincarnate when time itself is part of the human experience, and why every possibility existing does not mean every possibility has already been experienced.

Potential is not the same thing as experience.

And, because this is Calm Your Crazy, somebody asks me about astral projecting with an ex, which leads us directly into astral coitus.

I don’t make the rules.

Actually, there aren’t any rules.

That’s kind of the point.

There is so much more available for you to experience than what you can currently see. You are consciousness having a human experience, and you are still discovering what that actually means.

Your imagination, belief, expectation, perception, and choices matter.

There is so much more.

Love you, mean it.

—Keana

What happens after you finally shift your reality… and suddenly find yourself facing the same fears, nervous system reactions, limiting beliefs, and old wounds you thought you already worked through?You didn’t go backward. You leveled up.In this episode of Calm Your Crazy, I’m talking about what happens when you actually get what you wanted—and then realize that growth doesn’t stop there. A new reality comes with a new level of expansion, and sometimes that means returning to the very tools that helped you get here in the first place.I share what this is looking like in my own life as I challenge old beliefs around money, marketing, energy exchange, service, trust, and what it means to build something from a completely different paradigm. I’m experimenting with what happens when I stop creating from scarcity and start creating from trust, reciprocity, resonance, and the belief that energy will find its balance.We also get into nervous system hijacking, self-trust, rumination, staying inside your body, returning to your tools, moving with the natural waves of your energy, and learning to experience fear and old emotional wounds as information rather than instructions.Because the goal isn’t to reach some magical level where nothing challenges you again.The goal is to become someone who knows how to meet the next wave without abandoning yourself.You’ve already shown yourself that you can shift your reality. Now the work becomes learning how to live there, expand from there, and trust yourself enough to see what you’re capable of creating next.

Leaning into Self-Trust When Shifting Realities

In this episode of Calm Your Crazy, I’m talking about one of the most important parts of consciously creating a new reality: learning to trust myself enough to stop trying to control every step of how I get there.

When I decide that I want something—whether it’s a new life, healing, success, abundance, or a bigger purpose—I’m making that decision from who I am right now. But I’m not going to be the same person by the time I reach it. The journey itself changes me. I’m going to encounter resistance, fear, old wounds, unexpected experiences, new people, and things that simply aren’t meant to come with me.

That friction doesn’t necessarily mean I’m going the wrong way. Sometimes, the friction is the training.

I compare it to painting with oils. I may begin with a clear picture in my mind, but because the painting develops in layers—and I change between those layers—the finished piece never looks exactly like what I originally imagined. It takes on a life of its own. Creating my reality works the same way. I can choose the direction without knowing exactly what the finished picture will look like.

And that requires self-trust.

When fear comes up, my instinct can be to grab for control. I start analyzing, predicting, catastrophizing, and imagining every possible outcome. But the more possibilities I try to control, the more overwhelmed I become. Instead of moving, I freeze.

My analogy for this is Michael Jordan standing on the court holding the basketball. He already knows how to play. He already knows where the basket is. But imagine if, right before every shot, he started questioning everything—Are my feet right? What if I miss? Is this the right angle? Am I standing in exactly the right place?

Eventually, he has to shoot the ball.

That’s surrender.

I have to trust myself enough to release the ball, knowing I may miss sometimes. Missing a shot doesn’t mean I’m no longer the player. I get the ball back, take another shot, and keep playing.

I also talk about learning to interrupt the mental loops that keep me frozen. Sometimes my response to a thought is simply: No. We’re not doing that. I don’t have to give my energy to every possibility my mind produces. I can acknowledge fear without allowing it to determine where I’m going.

Self-trust is built through that relationship with myself—through action, self-forgiveness, curiosity, self-love, and repeatedly showing myself that I will continue moving forward.

I don’t need to figure out my entire life today. I need to ask: How am I showing up for myself today? Am I moving my body? Am I allowing myself to feel? Am I being kind? Am I getting curious about my triggers instead of judging myself for having them? Am I doing something, however small, toward the reality I chose?

I use rafting as another example. If nobody paddles, the boat gets pushed around by the current—into rocks, eddies, and whatever else happens to be in its path. But once everyone starts paddling, we have direction.

My job is to paddle.

And finally, I share some of the experiences that taught me what happens when I keep going through fear: hiking to the top of a mountain, climbing impossibly high into a tree as a child, and snowboarding the Continental Divide. In each experience there was a moment when fear and difficulty could have stopped me—and something incredible was waiting on the other side: completion, exhilaration, awe, and another piece of evidence that I could trust myself.

That’s what I want to remember when shifting realities.

Choose the reality. Paddle the boat. Shoot the ball. Let go of needing to know exactly how everything will happen.

I can meet the next thing when it arrives.

And then I can meet the thing after that.

The goal isn’t to eliminate every fear before I move. It’s to trust myself enough to keep moving while I’m becoming the person who can live the reality I chose.

In this episode I talk about how emotional energy gets stuck in your fascia which communicates to your nerves what to feel. So this is why you can visualize and do your meditations, but nothing is happening because you can't feel it in your body. There are a few reasons why you may not be able to feel emotion in your body and I discuss those along with how to clear the energy and really start feeling your emotions. I also talk about how emotional energy creates the reality you experience.

In this episode I walk through ten stages of consciousness, from the first moments of noticing synchronicities to observing yourself in real time, finding your purpose, releasing what no longer belongs in your reality, and eventually experiencing oneness with yourself, reality, and consciousness.

These stages aren't rigid rules or milestones. They're simply a framework for understanding the different experiences that can arise as your awareness expands. While they're presented in a linear way for clarity, you may experience them in any order.

If you've ever felt like reality was changing around you, noticed meaningful coincidences, or wondered why life suddenly feels different, this episode may give language to experiences you've struggled to explain.

If you'd like to learn more about consciously creating your reality, check out my free course and explore the Conscious Creators Community, where we practice these concepts together and support one another on the journey.

Episode 45: Conscious Creation in Practice

In this episode, we are moving beyond the theory of conscious creation and talking about what it actually looks like in everyday life.

We will explore how resistance can reveal the subconscious beliefs and emotional experiences standing between you and what you want. I will share how I uncovered a deeper layer of resistance around self-love, why awareness is only the beginning, and how feeling and processing what comes up can help you reclaim your power.

We will also talk about reconnecting with your life force energy, becoming more fully expressed, and stepping into the powerful, creative, multidimensional version of yourself that has always been there.

Finally, we will explore how to hold your quantum and human duality—understanding that you are the conscious creator of your reality while still giving yourself permission to feel anger, grief, sadness, joy, and every other part of the human experience.

Content Warning: This episode includes sensitive discussions related to childhood sexual assault, sexual energy, shame, and the suppression of life force energy. This discussion is not sexual or explicit, but these subjects may be triggering. If you are currently struggling with a pornography addiction or are sensitive to these topics, this may not be the right episode for you.