🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 47

Title: I don't think I can do this anymore

Description:

It's a Saturday morning, around 8:19, and I'm leaving Luckman's Coffee after a failed first attempt at recording this. I’m just speaking from the heart now. I woke up and went down the rabbit hole of Twitter—headlines, clips, trending videos. It left me feeling sick, and I realized I'm trading true wisdom for noise. Today’s episode is me processing that in real time. No notes, no polish. Just confession.

I talk about:

• How checking Twitter first thing wrecked my spirit
• The soap opera nature of online “news”
• Social media algorithms as modern false prophets
• The danger of rationalizing daily doomscrolling
• How desensitization is normalizing evil
• My conviction to reject this cycle in order to follow Jesus more closely

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Leaving Luckman's with coffee and deleting the first recording

01:10 – Why I felt sick after 30 minutes on Twitter

03:45 – “The world is a soap opera… interrupted by the worst of the worst”

05:32 – The algorithm knows what tickles your ears

08:00 – Confessing a decade of rationalizing “staying informed”

10:55 – PTSD from headlines and the availability cascade

13:30 – “We’ve normalized evil by consuming it”

15:20 – Rejecting the distortion—even if it’s a pipe dream

17:40 – This is me, processing in real time

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

2 Timothy 4:3 – "For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine... to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear."

🧠 Core Takeaway:

I’ve been justifying my feed consumption for years, but no matter the source, it’s warping my soul and pulling me away from the truth of Jesus.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #47 — I’m trading the algorithm’s lies for real truth, even if it costs me my “awareness.”

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 46

Title: If we just lived the Sermon on the Mount

Description:

It’s Friday morning, June 27th. I’m sitting in a parking lot outside Luckman's Coffee after reading through Matthew 5–7 on my Bible app. No script. Just heart. I reflect on Jesus’ teachings, the tension of living them out, and how this whole thing—CRUMB, this confessional, even my parenting—is built on trying to do what He says. The sermon on the mount exposes me, invites me, and gives me a blueprint to follow.

I talk about:

• How Jesus lived what He preached, unlike the Pharisees
• Wrestling with lust, hypocrisy, and obedience in daily life
• The real cost of building your life on Jesus vs the world
• Why CRUMB exists as a personal anchor for obedience
• The danger of justification cloaked in “American morality”
• Wanting to leave a legacy for my kids rooted in the gospel
• How God changed me when I had nothing left but crumbs

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Parking lot Bible app scroll leads to Matthew 5

04:41 – Jesus’ authority vs the empty show of religion

10:15 – The hidden cost of American justifications

18:12 – “Are we actually doing what Jesus says?”

23:45 – My slow trust was built crumb by crumb

27:50 – Lust, sunglasses, and Charleston confessions

34:00 – "If we all lived this, the world would change"

39:16 – I'm doing this even if I never make a dime

47:10 – Legacy, kids, and trusting God’s provision

53:35 – This is the only thing that ever worked for me

📖 Scriptures Referenced:

Matthew 5:7 – “You’re blessed when you care...”

Matthew 5–7 – The Sermon on the Mount

Matthew 6:24 – “You cannot serve both God and money”

Matthew 7:21 – “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord...’”

Ecclesiastes – Enjoy your food and drink; it’s God’s gift

Romans 11:17 (alluded) – Grafted into His family

John 15 (implied) – Remaining in the vine

Luke 6:45 (implied) – What the heart is full of

🧠 Core Takeaway:

If we actually lived the Sermon on the Mount, almost everything we complain about in this world would go away. But doing what Jesus says—daily, visibly, quietly—is the real test.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #46 — I’m just a little lonely boy in a parking lot with a Bible app, saying yes to Jesus one crumb at a time.

🎙️ Crumb Confessional — Episode 45b

Title: Update: The Ripple Effect of Our Work in Sierra Leone

Link to check out the work we are doing: https://gofundme.com/savefreetown

Description:

As I wrap up today’s episode, I wanted to share an incredible update from my call with Said yesterday. We’ve been working on the Safe Freetown initiative to fight the Kush epidemic, and the ripple effects are already visible. Four people from a recent university event have reached out for treatment at the Kissy Treatment Center. It’s not perfect, but it’s progress. Even more exciting, Said and I have been brainstorming ways to provide jobs for these young men post-rehabilitation, and we’re considering starting a bakery. This episode is a celebration of the small but significant wins we’re seeing in real-time.

I talk about:

• The ripple effect from a recent community event
• The first few people reaching out for rehab post-event
• The idea of starting a bakery to employ young men recovering from addiction
• How your donations are making a difference in the lives of these young men
• The faith and obedience it takes to stay the course

💡 Highlights & Timestamps:

00:00 – Introduction and reflections on a conversation with Said

01:30 – Update: Four university students have reached out for help with addiction

03:00 – Exploring the idea of a bakery to help employ young men post-recovery

04:00 – The symbolic power of providing bread and water to the village

05:30 – Update on funding and GoFundMe progress

06:30 – The importance of staying faithful and trusting God through the process

🧠 Core Takeaway:

Small acts of obedience can create ripple effects that lead to lasting change. We’re seeing the fruit of our labors, and all glory goes to God.

🙏 Closing Line:

Crumb Confessional #45b — From prayer to progress, God is showing up in ways that only He can.