Welcome to Angus Eye Tea! The podcast about...ANXIETY (and all other sorts of nonsense). Today, we embark on a new chapter in our lives as I start this podcast and you listen to it. Sure, I've done more of the heavy lifting here, but I'll share my triumph with you. It took forever to reach this point of uploading the first episode. Want to know why? Because ANXIETY.  So let's b*tch about how anxious new starts make us, but also how thrilling and wild they can be.

I recently made myself get a gym membership. Why? Because I am a gym sloth and would like to be more like a gym rat (though the sloth is more fun and less gross tbh). And secretly why? It's the best "quick fix" I have to my anxiety and depression. Ironically enough, those two tend to thwart my every move at the gym. Like, I know everyone is looking at me. They are ALL looking at ME and I am red in the face and SWEATING. I sweat like I'm my own water park. Hence why I usually avoid such scenarios and instead eat my feelings via a spoon and a jar of Nutella. Until this time. Listen to my crack at getting back into a workout regime, my first time at a spin class, and how exercise balls are the Devil's balloons and need to gtfo.

It's the little things that eat away at you over time - someone's loud gum chewing, the newsletter you've unsubscribed from three times now, your existence, etc.  Sometimes, the cards seem stacked against us and a normal day seems impossible to get through. In today's episode, I go into some of my methods for dealing with the daily grind(ing away at my soul). Also, a fun message from Future Elaine!

Hello, friends! Today, I sit down with my friend Kameron (well, we crashed on the floor, technically) as we talk about how our superstitions both fuel and calm our anxieties. Fern also makes her first active debut in the podcast and tries to ruin everything.

Hey, Heifers! Today, we’re going to dive into post-travel depression - a.k.a. that down feeling you get when you come back from a vacation, trek, quest, the grocery store, etc.   Life can feel like oatmeal when you return to your daily routine when a week ago, you were eating bread in a foreign country. And carbs always taste better when they are 10,000 miles away from your home-town bread. Nibbling on your sad, pathetic slices now makes you even more depressed. Will you ever eat good bread again? Is your life now doomed to bland bread? I go through my MANY experiences with post-travel depression, and what has helped me most to climb out of that hole. 

It was only time. This is a mental health podcast, after all. By the Laws That Be, I had to make an episode giving meditation a serious go. Hear about how many people barged in on me trying to find my zen, as well as my crazy and most likely delusional plan I made for my month where each weekend I had to go on some sort of adventure. Spoiler alert: anxiety levels increased by 10 million.

Solo-travel. Depression. Fecal matter. August was one hell of a month, my Heifers, and I’ve survived to tell the tale. As you may have heard, I challenged myself to go on an “adventure” every weekend in the month of August. Since I have issues with being a perfectionist - the issue being that I am SO VERY FAR from achieving perfection - I knew that I had to go big for my last journey. So, I went on a trip by myself for the first time. And it was a weird time. Also, hey, I’m depressed! Ain’t that the bees’ knees? You’ll get to hear how that fun adventure is going, too.

In honor of PSL season, my Heifers, today we dive into the dark beauty of coffee. Caffeine can supremely ruin your day if you have anxiety or depression. It can also make it amazing. It can also make you have a panic attack. How grande! I tell you my pitfalls with caffeine and the tips that have helped me in the quest to find a way to be awake without having to get more sleep and, you know, break out into hysterical sobbing. Please feel free to leave a review or a comment! <3