In this candid and moving episode, Ted takes us on a 40-year journey through the slow, subtle progression of alcoholism. From a self-conscious "chubby kid" having his first shower beer before middle school gym class to a radio DJ broadcasting with a bottle by his side, Ted's story is a powerful look at how alcohol can become an identity. He shares the painful self-realizations of sobriety, the difference between religion and spirituality, and the surprising discovery that he was just as funny, charming, and capable without the booze.

Key Topics & Themes Discussed:

The Progressive Nature of Alcoholism: Ted details how his drinking evolved from a tool to overcome shyness to a daily, all-consuming habit that felt normal because he surrounded himself with other drinkers.

Alcohol as a Solution: The conversation explores how Ted used alcohol to feel more comfortable in his own skin, believing it made him a better singer, dancer, and more confident person, all while masking deep-seated insecurity.

Denial and Distorted Reality: Ted shares how he was convinced his best friend was the one with the drinking problem

The "Bottom" in Daily Life: Ted’s rock bottom wasn’t a single dramatic event but the culmination of small, painful moments, leading to his wife’s intervention and the heartbreaking admission that he couldn't stop drinking on his own.

The Surprises of Sobriety: Ted discusses the shock of realizing he was the same person sober, the clarity that comes from facing past wrongs, and the freedom found in being present for his family.

Spirituality vs. Religion: Ted shares his journey of finding a personal Higher Power rooted in community, love, and service, separate from the religious dogma that initially kept him away from AA.

Memorable Quotes:

"I put blue dye in it so it looked like windshield wiper fluid." - On the absurd lengths he went to hide his vodka in the garage.

On his relapse: "It's not the drinking, it's the lying. And I'm like, honey, you don't understand. They are one and the same."

"27 miles in to the woods, 27 miles out." - On understanding that recovery is a long journey that requires time and patience.

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