I’ve been wanting to chat about this for a while, and honestly, this one feels extra personal. I cozied up with my water, blanket, and sweatshirt for this conversation because it’s one that’s been on my mind quite a bit lately — the whole “do we want another baby?” conversation.

When Chris and I first talked about kids, we were totally those people who said, “Yeah, two under two sounds great.” Like… that’s just what you do, right? Keep yourself in baby mode, give your kid a built-in buddy, and check the box. But after my pregnancy, birth, and postpartum experience — which were all way harder than I ever expected — our perspective completely changed.

In this episode, I’m getting real about why we didn’t rush a small age gap, what it’s looked like for me mentally and emotionally, and why I actually love the space we have right now. I talk about the toll pregnancy and postpartum took on me, how hyperemesis and perinatal depression shaped my healing process, and how I’ve seen the mental load hit so many of my patients, too.

There’s also this part of me that’s terrified — of pregnancy loss, of what it means to raise kids in today’s world, of bringing another baby into a time that feels so uncertain. I share how that fear shows up for me, especially living in a red state, and how it’s made this decision even more complicated.

Right now, we’re in a season that feels really good. I feel content in a way I didn’t think I would. And yet, there’s still this little pull for one more. I’m sitting in the in-between — grateful, grounded, and okay with not having it all figured out.

If you’re navigating family planning or feeling pressure about “the right time,” I hope this episode gives you a deep breath. You’re allowed to pause. You’re allowed to heal. You’re allowed to do this your way.

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