quotes:

-- "god does not give one person all the answers because god knows that human beings are easily corruptible and they will abuse their power."

-- "if you're in a space right now with people that you wouldn't want to be in lockdown with, fucking move."

-- "the two bravest women that i know in my life don't look anything like me."

-- "so the universe, god, my ancestors snatched me out of that environment and was like, you get to be in the middle of nowhere, unbothered."

-- "what would be or is going to be the gateway to freedom for brazilians?"

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summary:

this is the start of a series. i recorded this live on october 18, 2026, and i am still recording. i don't know how many parts will end up in this series today. if you prefer to watch, you can watch on youtube live. if you need translations and captions, youtube can take a couple of days to process, so come back later. this is part three of i don't know how many.

i came back from a break after hearing the words pull the plug. my spidey senses went off. i was trying to connect what i was picking up to the macro, the collective and global scale. i talk about people around you who are envious. they may envy how freely you move, how independently you think, or how happy you are. envy can show up in dreams, visions and gossip.

i look back at 2016 as the opening scene and 2017 as the theatrics, unfolding like a telenovela. i tell what i found in detroit: a historical marker calling it the gateway to freedom, part of the underground railroad. that makes me ask what the gateway to freedom will be for brazilians.

i talk about allies who do not look like us. the two bravest women i know are white women, and my mother is brave too. i explain why god does not give one person all the answers, and why collaboration matters. the jump scene from coming to america came up. i ask why people jump through hoops to be loved. i give people what they need, not what they want.

then i talk about the 2020 lockdown. i was moved from brooklyn to detroit to phoenix to my family's land in rural america. i was angry then, and it turned out to be the best protection. i share a feeling that another lockdown may be coming, and my spirit says it feels physical and global. i say plainly that i do not know if it will happen. i end by explaining what pulling the plug means, and two ways to see it: preparation or a lesson learned.

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