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Fear shaped Billy LeBlanc before he could even name it - and that fear followed him into addiction, prison, and a life sentence. In this brutally honest conversation, he traces the moments that made him who he is: the first memory of watching his dad push his mom to the ground, the shame of being called a coward, and the long road from a scared little boy to a man trying to finally feel safe in his own skin.Billy opens up about the childhood chaos that sent him bouncing from Mississippi to Louisiana, Alabama, Virginia, Florida, and Texas, the behavior issues that kept getting him in trouble, and how weed at 13 turned into LSD, PCP, cocaine, crack, and meth. He also talks through the exact chain of events that led to an arson conviction, a parole cycle, and the life sentence that made him believe he would die behind bars.You’ll hear Billy explain:

Why he says fear is his first memory

How his father’s anger shaped his self-worth and relationships

Why he believes shame, not just guilt, has driven so many of his choices

What addiction actually feels like from the inside - and why meth still has such a grip on his brain

How prison, relapse, and recovery forced him to confront the story he has told himself for decades

This episode also goes deeper than the crimes and the drugs. Billy reflects on the love he did and didn’t feel from his parents, the regret he carries about not having children, the baseball dream that still stings, and the rare people who have helped him see himself differently - including his friend Chris, whose recovery journey he deeply admires, and his family, who have shown him more love than he has often allowed himself to believe.If you’ve ever wondered how childhood fear becomes adult self-sabotage, or what it takes to stop living inside old shame, this conversation is a must-listen. Raw, reflective, and unexpectedly hopeful, Billy’s story is about more than survival - it’s about the possibility of becoming someone new.