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What happens when the person who helped deepen your spiritual practice also leaves you questioning your own knowing?

In this deeply personal episode of Mystic in Training, Melissa shares the story of a five-year spiritual apprenticeship that contained powerful teaching, genuine magic—and a gradual shift that left her questioning her practices, relationships and inner authority.

After the relationship ended, Melissa discovered that she had carried a hidden agreement into her own work:

What if I lead them wrong?

That fear did not make her more responsible. At times, it made her soften her beliefs, over-explain herself, hesitate around her work and dilute her leadership in an effort never to control another person.

Years later, words written by clients for the Business Ascension Awards reflected something back to her that she had struggled to see from the inside: her work was helping people trust themselves, discover their gifts and find their own rhythm.

In this episode, Melissa explores:

• How a mentoring relationship can contain both valuable teaching and a damaging dynamic
• Why access to supposedly hidden knowledge can make us feel special
• What happens when questioning a teacher begins to feel like disloyalty
• How losing trust in a mentor can also disrupt trust in yourself
• The hidden agreement that made Melissa afraid to lead fully
• The difference between responsible humility and leadership shaped by fear
• Why influence is unavoidable—and what healthy influence should strengthen
• How spiritual guidance can offer a map without replacing someone’s compass
• Why psychological, spiritual and somatic understanding belong together
• The questions that help us assess whether mentorship is strengthening our inner authority

For leaders:

Does my influence make people more dependent on my certainty—or more able to recognise their own?

For anyone receiving guidance:

Is this relationship helping me strengthen my own inner authority?

Over the coming weeks, Mystic in Training will explore Awareness, Discernment and Coherence as Melissa prepares to open AWAKEN, a free three-day live Spiritual Intelligence experience beginning 29 September 2026.

Learn more about Melissa: https://melissa-amos.com

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Memoirs of a Mystic In Training, by Melissa Amos is available on Amazon

Learn more about Melissa by visiting her website melissa-amos.com and download a free hypnotherapeutic series, Intuition Rewired.

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