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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• I just finished Sexual Integrity 101 and want to join Betrayal & Beyond. There are no local groups and a 10-month virtual commitment feels impossible. My husband, a former pastor, abandoned me and our four kids after a devastating affair. I’m doing the work alone while he moves on. I feel forgotten. How do I heal when reconciliation isn’t an option? How do I help my kids heal when I feel so broken?
• My husband has struggled with same-sex attraction and sexual acting out throughout our 30+ year marriage. Despite counseling and periods of change, he’s continued hiding his behavior. We've had almost no intimacy, and I’ve found overwhelming proof of his ongoing actions. I’m pursuing divorce, but I wonder—am I wrong to believe SSA is a separate issue that truly needs addressing?
• We just went through disclosure. My husband confessed to fantasizing and masturbating to images of my best friends, my sister, and several women I know. My best friend whom he has had the most fantasy about is someone I do everything with. Our kids are best friends, our families do everything together, and now I am at a loss. Throughout this process my friends have been such a big support system and now I can't even share with them. Are these types of fantasies normal? I clearly can't trust him with the women who are closest to me.

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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

- My husband makes me feel small and unwanted. I started fantasizing about the characters in one of my favorite shows. I find myself wishing I were married to a man like that. Whenever I’m not watching my show, I hate my reality and life, but I also do not want to get divorced. What should I do?

- How do I know if my struggle is just about sex, or if it's actually about something deeper, like needing love or validation?

- I’ve tried everything! I confess, read my Bible, have accountability software, pray without ceasing … can I ever break free from my porn addiction? Why do I keep going back to porn, even when I feel disgusted with myself afterward?

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Love Addiction Evaluation

Unraveled

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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• I’m reentering dating after ending a relationship with a man who had unresolved pornography struggles and resisted accountability. Now seeking a God-honoring, healthy marriage, I’m wondering how to graciously approach conversations about sexual history and porn use when dating. What level of recovery should be present before considering a relationship safe and spiritually healthy?
• My question is about dating someone who has disclosed that he has a porn and masturbation addiction. We are older and both divorced. He has been open and honest about it. He’s in counseling and wants victory. Part of me wants to run the other way and sever the relationship; part of me wants to wait and see what happens. Am I delusional to think the relationship could work?
• It feels rare to find women who still practice abstinence, even among Christians. Many seem to be sexually active outside of marriage or already have children. With today’s culture and values shifting, especially among attractive women, I wonder—do women who value abstinence and wait for marriage still exist in this day and age? Where are they?

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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

- My husband confessed to porn, chat rooms, and video calls, but I’ve discovered more he hasn’t admitted. I’m now in a group and writing a Safety Action Plan, but how do you create one when trust is completely broken? If there are consequences, won’t he just hide relapses better? How do I protect myself when honesty feels impossible and I’m afraid to stay—or leave?

- Since D-Day last August, I’ve learned my husband was unfaithful throughout our 25+ year relationship—porn, affairs, sexting, even acting out on vacations and anniversaries. Though we’re in recovery groups, I feel like my entire life has been a lie. Every memory feels shattered. We haven’t told our friends and family. I feel trapped and alone. How do I move forward when even the good moments are so deeply tainted?

- Two years into our healing journey, I still struggle to feel safe with the man who betrayed me. Sex feels like sleeping with the enemy, and early on, he got support while I was left traumatized and alone. Disclosure came months after discovery, deepening the pain. I’m starting Betrayal & Beyond soon—how do I begin to feel secure and whole again?a

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Thanks for listening to Unfiltered: Real Talk about Sex and Love, with Ashley and Heather.

On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• I grew up in the church and always thought wanting sex, or enjoying it, made me less godly. Now I’m married, and feel so much confusion and guilt about what I should want. How has culture and religion shaped the way I view desire, and how do I know what’s actually true? Every time I try to explore my sexuality, I get hit with this wave of shame, like I’m doing something wrong. I want to be curious without feeling gross or guilty. How can I do that in a way that feels healthy and grounded?
• I will try to apply the practice of 2 Corinthians 10:5, “Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ,” and do all the right things, but then I end up caving and going out with friends and hooking up with someone. I feel like a crazy person and a fraud. I can’t imagine if my church or family ever found out. Why are biblical truths not working for me? I feel like a terrible Christian because Jesus isn’t enough. Am I even saved?
• I don’t know how I got here, but I now find myself struggling with porn and masturbation. It started with a TV series a friend recommended that had tons of sex scenes, and somehow led to me seeking out more through pornography. I can’t believe this “man’s struggle” is now something I can’t break free of. How can I tell my husband about my porn use without it blowing up?

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Girl Talk

FASTER Scale

Crash Site Analysis Podcast Episode

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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• My husband is making great progress in his recovery, attending group sessions and trauma counseling, but I’m struggling to catch up. I’ve had trouble finding a counselor and don’t have a group, though we both attended an intensive. He sometimes dismisses my concerns, like he did with his mom, and it’s making me hesitant about a trip we have planned. Should I push through and go, or is it okay to honor my feelings and hesitation?
• My husband denies being addicted to pornography, despite struggling with it since he was 17. Although he’s made progress, I feel like we’re stuck in a cycle where he’s unable to handle my pain because of his own. We’ve tried counseling, but he often complains, and we can’t seem to talk about past issues without him getting angry or emotionally distant. I’m tired of accommodating without change, and I feel alone in my pain. What can I do to break this cycle and deepen our emotional connection?
• My husband is doing well in recovery, but I’m struggling to move forward. It’s been almost three years since d-day, and while he’s committed to change, I can’t shake the fear of being hurt again. I don’t know if I love him anymore and worry that staying might worsen my health. Should I keep trying, or is it time to let go for my own well-being?

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Gaslighting Episode

Gaslighting PD Podcast Episode

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Thanks for listening to Unfiltered: Real Talk about Sex and Love, with Ashley and Heather.

On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• My group was excruciating tonight—hearing others’ victories while I’m drowning in pain felt unbearable. I’m exhausted from picking myself back up after every setback, asking why healing comes easily for some but not for us. I know God has a plan, but it still hurts. What should I do when group becomes too painful—should I push through, even when my heart isn't in it?
• I have a question for you in regard to rebuilding intimacy and trust. My husband has involved himself in behaviors that I find repulsive. He has apparently spent time at home wearing my under clothes for arousal, he has masturbated and interacted with our cat during those times, and also taken pictures of himself in his boxers on and sends that to hook up sites. I find these activities gross and disgusting—they are triggers to my being intimate with him. How do I overcome this?
• Last October, my husband confessed to years of porn use, shattering me emotionally and worsening my physical health. Since then, I’ve battled fear, grief, insecurity, and disconnection from myself and my role as a mom. He’s six months sober, but I feel broken and alone without a support group. Will this fear and pain ever pass—and how can I stop living in constant emotional defense?

Why Do I Need Group When It's Not My Fault - Blog

7 Keys To Understanding Betrayal Trauma

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On today’s episode, we answer the following questions:

• In the new edition of Betrayal & Beyond you took out the part about "forgiving yourself." I am happy you did because I don't agree with that concept. I believe in God's forgiveness, but I wonder why you decided to take that part out of the new edition?
• Each time my husband relapses, I feel completely lost—especially now, four years in, after his first relapse in a long time. The longer the gap, the more painful it is, because I start to feel safe again. Could you create an episode I can return to during a relapse—something grounding, calming, and full of direction when I can't think clearly?
• I live in a small town with limited support and feel stuck in my healing. After nearly a year of counseling—and no full disclosure—I’m still facing lies and secrecy in my marriage. My husband refuses individual counseling, and our marriage counseling ended. I’ve considered separation or divorce. What resources or next steps would you suggest for someone in my situation, especially regarding boundaries?

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Andrea Rogers | Suddenly Single

Kim Petroni

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