After a year of grief, endings, and major life shifts, this episode opens a new chapter for the podcast.

In this episode, I share why I began a vow of intentional abstinence as an act of self-authority rather than restriction.

After everything that unfolded last year, I realized I needed to slow down, put clear boundaries around my body, and rebuild trust with my own discernment. Growing up in a highly structured military household taught me how to obey, but not how to choose for myself. Over time, that loss of agency showed up in my relationships, my boundaries, and my relationship with sex.

Now 21 days into my abstinence journey, I reflect on reclaiming autonomy, ending cycles of self-betrayal, and coming back into relationship with my body from a place of choice.

This episode marks a shift — into deeper self-authority, clearer boundaries, and a more intentional relationship with desire, agency, and self-trust.

This conversation is for anyone navigating self-authority, sexual boundaries, and learning how to trust themselves again.

In this episode, I talk about:

• Why I chose intentional abstinence as an act of self-authority
• How a highly structured, military upbringing shaped my relationship to obedience and safety
• The connection between people-pleasing, lack of boundaries, and sexual self-betrayal
• What I’m learning about discernment and self-governance 21 days into abstinence

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This episode is about the truth I kept dancing around.

I talk about how hiding became second nature for me. How silence felt safer than honesty. How telling the truth was something my nervous system learned to associate with danger, conflict, and loss.

As I reflect on this year, I share what grief, breakups, and major life transitions have taught me about authenticity. About emotional honesty. About the cost of not being real with myself.

I explore how trauma shapes our relationship with truth, why environments need to feel safe for honesty to exist, and what it looks like to build relationships that can actually hold the truth without punishment.

If you’ve ever felt afraid to name what you really want, this episode is for you.

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This episode is the sound of my pleasure breathing through my grief.

I’ve been having the kind of energetic seggs that makes my chest open, my legs shake, and my past dissolve. The kind of intimacy where a securely attached man looks me in the eyes and says, “Interrupt me. Tell me what you feel. I want you in real time.”

And the moment he does, my nervous system softens.
My grief loosens.
My whole body remembers I’m still alive.

I talk about seggs as spiritual energy exchange, the raw heat of being met in my insecurity, the way his voice in my ear helps me regulate, breathe, and surrender. I talk about being Dickmatized in the most conscious, intentional, divine way — where the pleasure isn’t a distraction from the pain, but the portal that moves me through it.

If you crave episodes on grief and pleasure, secure attachment co-regulation, self-discovery through seggs, and the ritual of letting someone inside your energy field… press play.

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Intimacy is more than mechanics or performance. It is the sacred art of being fully present with ourselves and with each other. It is laughter and play, tenderness and courage, the softening of shame, and the opening into pleasure.

What I witnessed in this workshop felt like pure magic. Partners leaning into one another until the whole room exhaled. Blindfolded explorations where trust unfolded. A pleasure circle where joy and desire moved like electricity through community.

This is the intimacy education we should have received. A space where connection feels playful, healing is shared, and the body is honored as sacred. A place where we learn to ask, to listen, to touch with reverence, and to allow ourselves to be witnessed in truth.

May these reflections stir something within you. May they remind you that your body is worthy, your desire is holy, and your intimacy is yours to reclaim.

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The sacred slut archetype has been one of the most liberating discoveries on my journey. For years, I carried shame around my sexuality, shaped by purity culture and the stories women are told about desire. Reclaiming the word slut has allowed me to heal, to prioritize my pleasure, and to step into unapologetic self-acceptance.

This episode is an invitation to see your sexuality as sacred, to release the shame, and to embody your own erotic wholeness without apology.

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Touch is where we first learn we are safe, loved, and alive.

In this episode, I open up a conversation about the kind of touch that goes beyond the surface. The touch that calms your nervous system, that says you belong here, that reminds you of your humanity.

We explore why so many of us are starved for it, how cultural conditioning has made touch feel unsafe or performative, and what happens to our bodies and hearts when connection is missing.

I share how touch can heal not just in intimacy but in the simple, intentional moments we offer ourselves and others. This is about reclaiming touch as your birthright, understanding your boundaries, and letting yourself receive what you have always needed.

✨ We explore

• How touch co-regulates and creates emotional safety
• The cultural and societal wounds that shape our comfort with affection
• What touch starvation does to the body and mind
• How to bring healing back through intentional and consensual touch

🎧 Come closer. Let us reclaim the power of touch together.

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Receiving sounds simple, but for so many of us, it’s one of the hardest things to actually do.

In this episode, I’m diving into what makes receiving feel so unsafe — how our nervous system, old wounds, and social conditioning teach us to block love, compliments, abundance, and guidance even when we’re desperate for them.

I’m sharing the real difference between taking and truly receiving — how surrender, boundaries, and trust open us up to more pleasure, more connection, and more freedom.

You’ll hear personal stories, honest truths, and practical ways you can start softening resistance, expanding your capacity to receive, and reclaiming your worthiness.

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I used to think desire was something to be feared or managed—especially as a woman raised to be desired, not to desire. In this episode, I unpack how I began to tell the difference between what I truly want and what I was taught to want.

From cultural conditioning to gendered expectations to the psychology of desire, this conversation is an invitation to explore the raw truth beneath our wants. Because desire isn’t just a feeling—it’s a force.

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