I pulled into that nursing home parking lot and sat before I could make myself go in.

Because I knew that what was waiting inside wasn't just paperwork.

It was twenty signatures, signing her life away. Each on acknowledging that my mom was no long making her own decisions. Each, a small goodbye to the version of her that wasn't coming back.

I signed every one, my hands shaking, my heart breaking. And then I walked out to my car and sobbed.

What had I done.

All I kept thinking... she doesn't belong here.

This week, I'm taking you inside the nursing home. The signing. The dining room. The soft robe I bought while I cried the whole time I was packing. And the twenty-one stairs that stood between her and everything she wanted - and what it meant when she stopped fighting for them.

This one is for every caregiver that's done the impossible thing and then sat in a parking lot afterward, wondering if they'd just made the biggest mistake of their life.

You didn't. I promise you didn't. Even if it hurts right now.

I'll see you in there.

Grace Lives Here is made from moments like this one. If your story connects to it, you’re part of it too.

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Substack: Kris Sinclair Writes